Thursday, March 19, 2009

March 20th 1982 My love for you is deathless.


Nine months later It was my first Christmas with you...

My Darling "it's Kissmass (the movie Glory) everyday"...

She is so young and full of promise.
Your the reason her potential was tapped.
HE used you darling to heal her.

We have fought out battles and won the war over the darkness...
He has won that war long ago for us, yet we endured the battle.

Now 27 years later...

You captured her my love...
As the Song of Salomon, you have embraced my soul.
You have taken away from me the things that hid me.
A safe haven have you are for me.
Your Love the first I had known...
Unconditional as any man would be able.
Yet you Love for God made you more than able.
Able you then became... because you first loved me.

It is to you who lay down your life for me daily
For our children...
My love for you is deathless...

This is our love letter of humility
That we remember who we are.

Solomon Ballou died on July 21, 1861- at the first battle of Bull Run.
My very dear Sarah:

The indications are very strong that we will move in a few days - perhaps tomorrow. Lest I should not be able to write you again, I feel impelled to write a few lines that may fall under your eye when I shall be no more.

Our movement may be one of a few days duration and full of pleasure - or it may be one of sever conflict and death to me. Not my will, but thine, O God, be done. If it is necessary that I should fall on the battlefield for my country, I am ready. I have no misgivings about, or lack of confidence in, the cause in which I am engaged, and my courage does not halt or falter. I know how strongly American Civilization now leans upon the triumph of the government, and how great a debt we owe to those who went before us through the blood and suffering of the Revolution. And I am willing - perfectly willing - to lay down all my joys in this life to help maintain this government, and to pay that debt.

But, my dear wife, when I know that with my own joys I lay down nearly all of yours, and replace them in this life with cares and sorrows - when, after having eaten for long years the bitter fruit of orphanage myself, I must offer it as their only sustenance to my dear little children - is it weak or dishonorable, while the banner of my purpose floats calmly and proudly in the breeze, that my unbounded love for you, my darling wife and children, should struggle in fierce, though useless, contest with my love of country?

I cannot describe to you my feelings on this calm summer night, when two thousand men are sleeping around me, many of them enjoying the last, perhaps, before that of death - and I, suspicious that Death is creeping behind me with his fatal dart, am communing with God, my country, and thee.

I have sought most closely and diligently, and often in my breast, for a wrong motive in thus hazarding the happiness of those I loved, and I could not find one. A pure love of my country and the principles I have often advocated before the people and "the name of honor that I love more than I fear death" have called upon me, and I have obeyed.

Sarah, my love for you is deathless, it seems to bind me to you with mighty cables that nothing but Omnipotence could break; and yet my love of Country comes over me like a strong wind and bears me irresistibly on, with all these chains, to the battlefield.

The memories of the blissful moments I have spent with you come creeping over me, and I feel most gratified to God and to you that I have enjoyed them so long. And hard for me it is to give them up and burn to ashes the hopes of future years when, God willing, we might still have lived and loved together, and seen our sons grow up to honorable manhood around us. I have, I know, but few and small claims upon Divine Providence, but something whispers to me - perhaps it is the wafted prayer of my little Edgar - that I shall return to my loved ones unharmed. If I do not, my dear Sarah, never forget how much I love you, and when my last breath escapes me on the battlefield, it will whisper your name.

Forgive my many faults, and the many pains I have caused you. How thoughtless and foolish I have often times been! How gladly would I wash out with my tears every little spot upon your happiness, and struggle with all the misfortune of this world, to shield you and my children from harm. But I cannot. I must watch you from the spirit land and hover near you, while you buffet the storms with your precious little freight, and wait with sad patience till we meet to part no more.

But, O Sarah! If the dead can come back to this earth and flit unseen around those they loved, I shall always be near you; in the garish day and in the darkest night - amidst your happiest scenes and gloomiest hours - always, always; and if there be a soft breeze upon your cheek, it shall be my breath; or the cool air fans your throbbing temple, it shall be my spirit passing by.

Sarah, do not mourn me dead; think I am gone and wait for thee, for we shall meet again.

As for my little boys, they will grow as I have done, and never know a father's love and care. Little Willie is too young to remember me long, and my blue-eyed Edgar will keep my frolics with him among the dimmest memories of his childhood. Sarah, I have unlimited confidence in your maternal care and your development of their characters. Tell our mothers I call God's blessing upon them.

O Sarah, I wait for you there! Come to me, and lead thither my children.

- Sullivan


My Darling we are so blessed to live and love and to see our children grow into honorable young man and woman.
My love for you is deathless...
Your love gifts me with the happiest of anniversary's
May my love flood you the same/

5 comments:

Denise said...

That is beyond beautiful. I love you.

Susie said...

So moving!

Michelle Gregory said...

wow - 27 years! i can remember celebrating another anniversary with you in the mountains. we passed by the trading post where i bought your birthday gift several years ago. every time we go in there, i think of what that one act led to. i'm so blessed to have you as my friend.

Amrita said...

God bless you both

Annette said...

what a beautiful and heart touching post, congratulations to you both, 27 years of being in love, that's wonderful and God diffidently had a hand in it, he used his hands and put 2 hands together to become one.

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• how to be pure
• how to be keepers at home
• how to be kind and submissive (not subservient) to their own husbands. (See Titus 2:3-5)

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