OH GOD IS SO GOOD!
thank you to all who were in my corner on this one. It will be good to get some affiliation in this. To also pass it on as so many others who do not get to go will hear it from me.
Wednesday at my doc appointment there was this new nurse who was so vibrant. Who just transferred from bed side nursing. She was glowing with a love of life energy.
She said something that touched me to the core.
That day I had a bit of a low sense of self. Of late I have felt dull and life was without much luster.
When I commented on the beauty of her energy
she said..."I love what I am doing, I am learning more about what I love to do every day"
It really hit me. Do I love what I am doing? Am I learning more about what I love everyday?
Just what is it I really love to do? For me there are several things, BUT am I learning about them.
Am I quenching the thirst, that the love, of what I am doing compels?
I think I will just spend some time listing out those things that I love. Funny how it gave me a very light heart and a hope.
It is an early wonderful morning. To exhale all of the thoughts of late has left me lighter in heart. Truth has a marvelous way of doing that. At the risk of offending I spoke. I have held myself brideled and at bay. Looking out into an ocean that looking within seames warmer.
Now missing those lives that touch. Missing so many of you.
I forgo-ed affiliation for some time. Now seeing the need for my soul, the cost of isolation. Allowing my truth to be silenced for the denial, the comfort of one other. Leaving me withdrawn from the former vivacious self. I want to bring me home. To pull up the self so silenced by the fear of what others might think. Overly concerned .
Tackled this Tuesday by a since of self more ready to belong. I have spoke often of the five phases of self esteem.
a since of self
This season of my days have gifted me to have a greater freedom. My days of life were always an argument between my siblings. One that left me devoid of proof. Torn by strong forces that ridiculed my inner knowledge. A knowledge that came from the depths of me.
It is a wonderful thing to see who I am attached to this world. Seeing the innate gifts I have it leaves my eyes wide open and full of acceptance. A gardener, preparer of sustenance, making with my own hands for my family those things we have need of. It is a joy to see the lineage of a people who were as I am. We all have an innate need for a since of belonging. One that I have never fully known. I knew that I was His, that I belonged here to my little family, but that was still left wanting. That wanting is no longer in question or debate. It feels wonderful.
I have always admired the indigenous peoples of Australia. The amazing wisdom these vanishing souls had. Living in a land seemingly inhospitable. Thriving until others interfered. the definition of thriving being something totally foreign to the greater view of others who see them impoverished. They never knew they were until they saw what others had. They simply lived in the wisdom of the elders who taught them how to live and eat, loving their own families. These yes assumptions but that is how I always viewed them.
I have always admired people like that. Now they call these things going green. Returning to the core of our humanity.
May the whole of the living return to humanity.
I remember Chief Joesph of the Nez Perse tribe as wise words asked where have the humans gone. Oh that this going green might bring us back to our humanity. Cause us to remember who we are and embrace the life that God has given us.
On That note my heart flows to the kitchen it is early morning hour here. Time to tend to the needs of my loving little family. May each of us awaken today to remember our humanity. It is a beautiful gift.
We were not born reptiles or jackals. :)