Friday, January 28, 2011

Steelers Quilt for Dash

this is what I have been up to. Dash needs a new quilt. this was begun around Christmas and set aside. His Birthday is in March, but he needs a new quilt now. The one I made him several years back is a tattered cloth. The other day he was mouthing off a bit to me. Later that evening once we made it home I showed him the lay out on the cutting table. He was very quiet while I finished making supper. I heard Dove say "are you ok?, Why are you crying?" to him.
After he saw it he was so touched that it moved him into tears.
The Steelers fabric is in the dryer it will be the backing.

 With one more row to stitch I just had to attach two of them to see how it was going to look. My efforts are very careful to match up the corners. The black is as an oil slick. The black has the nap of the fabric varied to give it a motion visually.
On April 27, 2009, amid ongoing financial problems and restructuring efforts, GM announced it would discontinue the Pontiac brand by the end of 2010 and focus on four core brands in North America: Chevrolet, Cadillac, Buick, and GMC. The last Pontiacs were built in late 2009, with the final dealer franchises expiring October 31, 2010.

This is what I am up to.
The sewing studio has been organized a bit better. Note the old 1957 pfaff is on the floor. I am moving on up to the new machine. It really is a nice machine, took me awhile to attach to it after all these years on the pfaff.
All went pretty well at the hospital. VERY painfully they 'pulled' the internal suture out, it had to then be snipped. He said that there is a possibility that it might happen again and that this would need to be repeated. I was only two minutes of intence pain so they did not numb it. I was shaking for a few hours afterward.
It did not stop me from having a great attitude and a wonderful afternoon taking the kids to the park near the school. We three then went to the book store where Dove spent her earnings. Target next where Dash spent his. Home and hearth was a nice stop of the day.
Hope you all have a nice week end

Wednesday, January 26, 2011

Another complication with my port!

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Today a good week and a half or so out a little white 'piece of skin', or so I thought. It was bothering me so gently I used a tweezers to remove it. Just imagine my horror to see (and feel) that it was a heavy gauge stitch. It cinched inside and now is very tender. The nurse at the hospital called back and I have to go back yet again to the city and have it snipped and the opening glued. No need to fast or have any antithetic for it. Infection is a very real threat due to the CVIG low IgA levels bacteria is dangerous. Now perhaps this thing will heal! No wonder...but then again 'it shouldn't' (yes that is sarcasm). "it just happens sometimes..." drat!

IRS Processing Delays

IRS form 1040 is the most common income tax form
Due to Congress passing new tax laws late in 2010.
If you are an early filer you will have to delay until mid-February
This will apply to you if...
1. You Itemize
2. You take the Educator expense
3. if you take the tuition deduction.

They apologetically say that they need time to update their systems with the new laws. 
$$$$ REALLY $$$$

Think about it...with the tight times that folks are having more will choose to just take the standard deduction out of expediency. Cash is in desperate need by so many Americans that the IRS will enjoy the benefit of the people who are so very desperate, not wanting or able to delay refunds.

Now I itemize, had I not gone on U-tube to further my education I would not have known this. Now I must wait another 3 weeks before I can mail it in. To me this is all but criminal. The IRS will gain not only interest on my money but they will also have scores of people letting go of what is rightfully due to them through itemization. Desperate people take desperate measures. I suppose that can be also said of the IRS.

How did God get 'out there'...He asked

With my child looking to me to explained, this is how my heart expressed my thoughts on it.

He listened silently
I believe that God is not 'out there' that heaven is not 'out there', it is right here. Within our midst. The kingdom of heaven is 'at hand'. We are as within a wheel within a wheel. When we are here on this plane we have the ability to allow 'light' God is The Light, The Truth and The Way into our rheum.
The light is around and within this wheel if we so desire, so choose to open up the barriers that separate us from it. When I thin the line that delineates the two (light and dark) light prevails.
Taking the kids into the dark pantry I lit a lighter once the darkness had been established by closing the door. The darkness could not remain in the light. When the light is there LOVE is there. When we shut ourselves up into the dark we remove our self of that light present, that love there wishes to illuminate.
They know that they have the power to illuminate the lives around them as well. That light will cast away the darkness that the WILL encounter.

Living illuminated in that light is heaven at hand
removing the light is hell
Hell is not some place in the magma, it is absence from the light. The Love. Absent from truth. Lost along the way. We become dead men walking.
It is the light that illuminates our way. It is for us to fight the barrier the withdraw from the light.

God is here as is heaven just beyond that vial that separates us. That Vail rent is accessible when we believe that the man God (Christ Jesus)  walked among us. We just make it all far too complicated.

There was a sparrow in the chicken coop. I thought long about my explanation to my son. In my spirit a choice to thin the line occurred. Opening the door I willed that sparrow out. wondering if that light could prevail over that little frightened bird before it hurt or exhausted itself. It came to that light and flew out.
Again the next day it was that my Son saw another sparrow flailing itself in the coop. He attempted to enter and catch it. Calling him out and aside again willing that light the sparrow came to me.
 This gave me great pause. 
I am remembering who I was before the religion. Before the 'churchianity' enforced a delineation through rules. Fears over displeasing God by doing 'it' wrong laid in varied regulations set up by men who have become bias through limiting understanding and wisdom.

Heaven is here at hand, Hell is also here at hand.
Even in our worst prisons the harshest punishment is isolation. Separation from that Light, Love that friendship with Divine

With many pulled away under the shell of self preservation light fights to find a way through. It is there that way. It is only in our will, our choice to risk letting the light illuminate us. Showing us where we are really needing illumination on our path.

Religion can leave a person afraid to even place one foot in front of the other. For fear of doing 'it' wrong. Light catches us if we trip, stumble even when we fall. Light comes into lives showing the health to our spirit, soul and bones. Light erases the delineation to where we are one in His Body and no matter the coarse of our body here in this rheum we are more than what the eye can see.

Exercising this enlightenment this week has caused many Holy things to occur.

Children are so good for our old minds.
Last night without sleep these things filled my mind. Great care was encompassing me over my dear daughters special needs and future. It was at that moment I saw it. Oh how distracted I have been with the concern over the darkness regarding her safety, her future. I willed at that moment...Light. In an instant the release was profound.
Now I have been playing with this, willing light at every given opportunity.
As Sleep wrapped me in the dawn I saw a vision of the chickens in the coop. They are captive there. To keep them safe from the hawks. To protect the crops so the chickens don't eat them up. However they are egg laying longer chickens. Chickens scratch and roam. I have kept them. Kept them 'safe' from harm by not allowing them risk.
Today while harvesting oranges I opened the coop door and willed these well trained birds out of the coop. They were not too pretty sure of it but one by one they came out and began to be 'chickens' picking and such. They kept under the canopy and near me. Up and down the ladder watching to see that they did not get into harm. When I was done sitting on the bench, saying nothing I willed them back into the coop. They walked into it and I shut the door. We were each content. I was however convicted of living in fear.

My children have been kept. Through fear they too have become as prisoners in a way. All in the name of protection. At nine and thirteen they must become able to know that they can be successful. How clever God is at giving them the room to do so. I saw myself letting loose (not free of) the cords that hold them fast.
When the kids came home Dash desired to ride his skate board. Instructed to gear up to do so. To their surprise I offered to take them over to the park by the grade school. There are so many unattended kids it would just blow your mind.
Dash said 'mom it is mothers like you who make it real hard to fit in'...Looking at him I heard his heart. 
This was my compromise. Once bike and board were unloaded they were allowed to go with friends to the school just across the street. I sat in the pickup and embroidered. They soon came across to a known child's house. Then over to the park. All the while I kept invisible. They would come by the truck now and then. After two hours I backed the truck up and pulled up to them as if I had just arrived. They were also allowed to sit in the bed of the truck there and back.
Now this all blew my husbands living light (no fret) and in the light.
While at the park 20-30 unattended teens were blanketed in the 'light' as I willed it to them. 

Monday, January 24, 2011

Being who I am created to be as I do what needs be done.

 Saturday Morning we were woke up by Dash giving us a wrapped gift. Little did we know that this kid decided to use his earnings to purchase us a gift at a yard sale. HE LEFT THE HOUSE! went down to his buddies house to a sale.
Although the thought was wonderful he has been told to NEVER leave the house without telling us and getting our ok. He walks me to the front door, there was a note on the painting saying where he was.
Had to hand it to him for that. :) still do not want him to repeat it
 An exercise program is underway through this guide.

 It speaks about cemetery and balance.
Hope you all have had a great day. The tasks at hand are occupying me today. It is such a joy to be able to be who I am. Being a keeper of marriage, children and home is my dream come true.
The last two post were rather impersonal. Oh so distracted and set to the priority of duty.
The kids are thriving with the mission of competency. Oh they feel so good about themselves  learning more independence. With the compensation (used instead if allowance) they are beginning to see the rewards of due diligence. they are even talking amongst themselves of saving the earning to gain larger goals! LOVE IT!
If I forgot to mention dash has been voted again by his peers to represent his class in student council. He begins chess club next week. He and Steve take time every night to play. Dash even taught me the game.
Dove is in choir, she tried out for honors choir but did not get in. She tried out though and that was so awesome. The courage was remarkable.
Steve is enjoying the honor he received at work as a senior staff. It is wonderful to see the dignity and poise. He has earned this place in life.
We are grieving the losses to a life long friend and his family who are in the process of loosing all. So the weekend was spent helping them to get as many belongings out of house before the doors are locked in foreclosure. Sad sad thing.
My neighbor behind us reached out to me yesterday and offered us all of the juicing oranges on her tree!
When they moved in I spoke up over the back wall and welcomed them. How wonderful it is to live in peace with our neighbors.
Steve drinks orange juice every morning as would Dash if able to afford it, well now I can juice all winter and spring. It is so sweet!
 With catching up on chores I have even been able to cut out two dresses for myself
YES! me sewing again

With the dresses two necklaces have been laid out. It really feels nice to take better self care. The port is beginning to heal, my shoulder is softening as well.  I am initiating an exercise program based on this book.

things have changed in my life drastically. It's all good too. Getting used to this thing in my chest. The limits it enforces as well. As any foreign object in our bodies antibiotics must now be used for the simplest things as in a cavity filled. That is something I did not foresee. That being said dental and knee injections will be scheduled soon. That way fewer antibiotics will be needed. My knees lasted a good 6 months.
With my sisters knee replacement coming up here soon my timing must get under consideration. Her daughter will be here a few weeks to help, but after she goes it is my hope to be available to assist her.
so I must prepare.

It is a loss to me to not be able to serve at the elementary. With Dash pretty disappointed it is so hard not to be tempted to go. Perhaps after the infusions for the first few days I could go, but it is still a risk.

Post Script.
Just got the kids to bed and sat down Steve just walked into the house from helping his friend move again all evening. The kids and i watched a movie together and had some nice sofa time.
This afternoon Dove had her medication check appointment. They performed some partial testing. The concern about her abilities to function at the Jr high has come into focus now. We left with a prescription for the public school to retest her. I do not know if they will for the three year rule may not have been met. If we do it at the Psychiatrist office it will be $800 not covered by insurance.  We do not really think it will make a difference to our decision to try to keep her main stream if possible. HEr heart is so important here. She must know that she can accomplish what she sets out to do to the best of her ability.

Well peace to all of you.

My children I am so proud of you both.

Sunday, January 23, 2011

Taxes January's Project

Yes all day yesterday documents were sorted into recipes, mileage as well for all medical.

A spread sheet with all the deductions set to totals

medical bills/co pays/pharmacy co-pays/non Rx medical
list all doctors then the find out the mileage to get there and back. Run a tick of how many visits each and compute the totals of mileage. Do this while sorting the bills. Use the instructions in the book and add it to your medical deductions.
medical insurance costs on pay stubs
dental bills/co-pays
dental insurance
vision insurance
home interest paid
property taxes
dog licenses
vehicle registrations

This done one can quickly tell if itemizing deductions will be worth it.
By running a spread sheet in excel as a part of your monthly budget this can be done quickly. Then a listing of all bills that have been sorted into months can be cross checked to see it anything was missed. At this time the hard copies are filed into the years receipts in monthly order.

Next the income
income interest

Federals to be done first

Older women likewise teach the younger women...

• how to love their husbands
• how to love their children
• how to be self-controlled
• how to be pure
• how to be keepers at home
• how to be kind and submissive (not subservient) to their own husbands. (See Titus 2:3-5)

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By Maya Angelou

'A woman's heart should be so hidden in Christ
That a man should have to seek Him first to find her.'

When I say... 'I am a Christian' I'm not shouting 'I'm clean living,'
I'm whispering 'I was lost, Now I'm found and forgiven.'

When I say... 'I am a Christian' I don't speak of this with pride.
I'm confessing that I stumble and need Christ to be my guide.

When I say... 'I am a Christian' I'm not trying to be strong.
I'm professing that I'm weak and need His strength to carry on.

When I say.. 'I am a Christian' I'm not bragging of success.
I'm admitting I have failed and need God to clean my mess.

When I say... 'I am a Christian' I'm not claiming to be perfect,
My flaws are far too visible, but God believes I am worth it.

When I say... 'I am a Christian' I still feel the sting of pain...
I have my share of heartaches, so I call upon His name.

When I say... 'I am a Christian' I'm not holier than thou,
I'm just a simple sinner Who received God's good grace, somehow!

Words have power. Here are a few of my favorite sayings.

  • A warm cup of tea is like a cuddle with a friend.
  • The North American Indians have a more eloquent word for ‘friend’ than we do in English. In their language, the word for friend literally means, “the one who carries my sorrows on his back.”
  • Return with Honor
  • The sage anticipates things that are difficult while they are easy, and does things that would become great while they are small. All difficult things in the world are sure to arise from a previous state in which they were easy, and all great things from one in which they were small. Therefore the sage, while he never does what is great, is able on that account to accomplish the greatest things."
  • “Live so that when your children hear these words they think of you… Fairness Caring Integrity Honesty Love Trust.”
  • "O Lord help my words to be gracious and tender today, for tomarrow I may have to eat them."
  • "No man has ever been shot while doing the dishes"

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