Saturday, May 30, 2009

Thank you all for the prayers and kindness

I love you gals!
Your awesome!
My levels are MUCH better this evening.
We just got done with finance and budget. Were tight but good and it is a big relief to see that the ends all meet and that we will be able to give the family Three camp trips over the next two months.
Really a relief to have that task done for June/July. We have met some good goals. Nose to the grind stone. Considering the ant.
We are going to sleep and keep up the efforts to get plenty of sleep.

Settleing the mind and the

Alright I'm back here.

Thank you girls, yes Dianntha this is not good on my health.
Having a stress disorder can cause for my chemistry to get out of whack a bit when I am over stressed. I am not able to cause the stress hormone to regulate like normal folk it will just stop mine well it got worn out and messed up. I began feeling chemically depressed last night and have took my medication and am functioning with the kids and my chores. Dash wanted attention so my sleeping end was hindered. Daddy man was out working on the truck. I awoke and listened to Dash as he lamented the dissatisfaction that Dove did not want to play with him at sunrise. She wanted to sleep. So then we played a game of battleship, started a puzzle and at the last few moments that I thought I could stand his sniffling (due to his fine motor the boy at 8 can not blow his nose!), he decided he wanted to take a break. (thank God) I filled his need for one on one attention up! I have kept the chores light today. Finished the budget and now am sitting here just resting.

My balance feels like it is coming back up. I had some pretty bad memory stuff today. My friend was on her way to bring her child over for a play date with my kids. She had called and was on the way. I had gone to the garden and was startled to look up to see her. I had totally overlooked a conversation just 20 minutes before. I just went out there to settle try sunlight and tend the dogs and the chickens.
I told Steve of it. I am going to take my ease today.

Having to explain what I witnessed (having to do with a child and po*n) in that nan no second of offense on my monitor, to two women and several male law enforcement officers was a bit traumatic given the recovery I have known myself of early childhood torture and abuse.

I think I was grieving not only the suffering of those in that image but of my own youth.
Of the evil in this world. Sorrow over took me. Sorrow and loneliness really took me it was like a vice on me. Then one of my followers left and it hurt my feelings too much. I think I was just too tender.

So Now I have more ( in the image) children this Mother of many. Many of those children of mine are of the heart and of intercession. I have known several who may have lost (suicide) in this realm and made it to go and to be with God. This event has risen much of that into my heart.
Those who have gone on before us, because of what they have known here. This is a tough world.

I think this will be the last I speak of it.
It is, needs to be finished.
I will begin a new post and just fake it tell I make it!
Love you all. Sometimes that is just what I have to do.
Fake it till I make it out of this muck. Man I hate it when this depression hits me. It is a chemical thing. It will improve. I have some remedies and kindness you have shown is a real help in that way. maybe just a good cry.

Good Morning


Friday, May 29, 2009

I have lost one of you who follow

Blogger is broken and I am not able to remove that khimer follower.
All I can do is offer them kindness in the hope of them turning around.
I do not know who this individual is.
I have done all I can to contact the proper authorities.

I am so sorry to have lost you my dear follower. If I have hindered or offended you in any way it saddens me.

It is that I must remove the follower list to conserve my reputation.
At least it appears in the eyes of others.
I know who I am.
I am a woman of honor.

A perfect example of how we effect one another in who we choose to be and how we choose to live.
Khimer please remove yourself
from my

Thank you.
I have offered you kindness and now your choices are harming me.

Friday Funnies

The summer camping season is upon us
A little marginal perhaps but it sure made me laugh

Last year we took the family camping .
This man with his two large pit bulls just came a walking into our camp site.
Now we were away from any other camps by a good 1/8 Th mile.
He just had no seance of respect of boundary.
I had two kids in my camp I was terrified.
Those two dogs came right up to the camper door and did the marking like the image too.
Steve yelled at the man to get his dogs out of camp.
We had the walkies talkies and I called him and he came with a big stick.
Scared us all!
The man had the audacity to be offended that we were upset?

I really got a kick out of this sign.

Please pray

The women and children of Cambodia face terrible suffering as human smuggleing for the s** trade is rampant.
Slave human cargo under go the unspeakable.
Please pray .

I found myself asking for the wrath of God to come down and fall upon those who travel to suffer these souls.
May God exact a penalty upon them.
May his vengence afford freedoms for these who are captives of vile men and women.

here are a few sites that are comforting in the rescue of these dear souls


In the states...


Slavery still exists Do we only stop when we are free?
Even if it is even all we can do It is something that we can do.

Thursday, May 28, 2009

Thankful Thursday

Hush a by to my soul
Into His hands I commend them.

His still and perfect peace.

Beauty surrounds me in the eye of those so noble.
Grieve me a sore heart as sorrow in compassion.

An adoring Son to giggle in my embrace
Back scratch turns tickle
My soul is full.

To whom much is given much is required.
A heart readied for task prepared for the time it is called upon.
No trial is useless.


Many a moccasin
few my own
trodden now through the dust of time
The timeless array of sand.

Return I to lace now my own

Laced secure sound and sober
readied for prayers
It is all abut him
non now of me

joy is in even sorrow
It is in knowing when your heart may be called upon.

Joy in turmoil
torture and pain.
Joy is His presence.
Time and again.

Finding there a solace
a place of reprieve
Regardless the status, race or creed.

Of this all is Holy
for It is He fills need.
His presence there as suffering proceeds.
It takes one away into a higher plateau
With vantage distant repose.

Canyons of worry
Off precipice will fall
When cast yee your burdens when to you
He calls.

Driving the white truck to a friends the street lined with those desperate from Mexico.
Wanting day labor, with pleading eyes...
First pasted I one, I laughed aloud.
He excitedly flagged at me, seeing the older work truck approach.

Then came the to curb as I drove down the street.
Many eager eyes begging for work. Each face darted toward that coming white rig
Pick me, pick me...
Sorrow...I began to cry.
Souls kin left at home in bad lands sparse and lean.
How blessed am I an American dream.

Mine this evening a grateful heart.
Oh of course you know this is my part.
Always one of great reverent gratitude full.
called to come to aide the poor with the intercessions made able by trial I bore.

Does God heal
of course...
that the true disease.
who knows however what the ailment is for
Whether us or another
down the dusty worn road
moccasins lased with torn strapping
feather thin souls.
Perhaps like me you may share
your old worn shoe
will be like a new one
to those who have non.

Krispy Kream for *A's*

Hello my Friends. Wherry this evening it has been a full day. A day that I have many occurrences that are to be as children kept for prayer within my heart. Literally.
Having done all I can do I stand.

Back into the beauty that life has afforded me after my own long personal journey.
Worth the fight I'll tell you.
Freedom is grand.

So we all swam at a friends today after all the interviews and such.
We had a wonderful time together.

My friend told me that the Krispy Kream off Power Road and south of the 60 on the west side of the first light South of the freeway....Were giving students a free doughnut for every A on the report card up to a half dozen each!
I took the them on a special quest for the reward.
It was a bit hard to find the shop but they more than honored it.
the clerk said that the manager had told her that not only they get the free doughnuts but they could choose from any of the variety of special ones.
She spoke to each by name and praised them and patiently gave them the time to make their choices. It was so loving.

She told the Students I had in tow that Mom gets one of each of the half dozen. I said nothing and allowed the m to choose all 6 to their liking.

She then looked at me and said well done Mom, Good job! She then asked me to choose two for myself. I did so and then thought as they were coming fresh off the belt , told her to put one of my choice back so I could get one of the fresh ones for the Daddy Man.

When I got out to the truck I realized that not only did she give me my two choice she also gave two others for him!

A gift given to our family today by a very generous company and a very lovely young woman with an obvious heart for education and family.

They each ate one and a half put the lid on and went and got themselves some pretzels.
All life should be afforded such kindness.

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

An issue solved

To you who joined as my last follower... Hello, I see you, although I would rather close my eyes.
I am so very sad that your need for attention is so deeply rooted. The wound in your heart must just be vast. Negative attention is not what you deserve as a human being so I will not give it to you. However I would hope that your life can turn around and you could become the person who you were originally destined to be. You have sold your soul. You could be bought back through Gods love. Just ask Him for your freedom. Forgiveness is a moment away in your creators eyes.

Your link to my blog is a hindrance to me.

Please remove yourself as a follower.

Thank you, I do appreciate it.

This is a family blog and your po*nogrphy is not appropriate nor welcomed here.
Online Dating

To those of you my friends who may be effected as Blogger has a flaw and we cannot remove a follower from our end. This is why I have deleted the list of followers. Until blogger fixes this bug this is my only recourse.

To any of you who my have clicked on the icon and witnessed the sad state of this soul, I am so sorry for what you have viewed.

Please my friends pray for this soul. They are trapped apparently in a demented tormented lifestyle that is exacting a huge price upon them.

Anonymous said...

I believe you can block any followers you choose via your Blogger Dashboard. Click on the area next to your blog listing where it shows the number of followers and you can then see each one individually. Go to that particular one and select the block option. Hope this helps.

Thank you

It will not work, blogger has an issue. We are not the only ones facing it. After an extensive search. We have tried the fix over and over.

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Great the day

Alright breakfast begins...

Dogs get a good romp.

The queen found one of my garden sticks.

I found this meme last night.

It was so refreshing to look at all of the beauty so thought I would share it with all of you

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Tuesday, May 26, 2009

Home grown family weekend

Wow that was a fun family time!
This week end was full of good things for our little crew.
Once My Honey hung the pot rack the reality of 15 ? year old pans showed the need.
However before that project began...
I awoke to an army of ants that found this house of good things too irresistible.
An ant invasion called for a massacre of great proportions.
My sweet loving man was steeping in Sunday Morning.
His body a bit worn from the automotive work of Saturday.
We have all been extending a lot of energy for some time here.
We took turns sleeping in and feel so much better that we are now going to bed
(on purpose)
much earlier!

This bag of organic goodness to the rescue!
A little goes a long way.
Non toxic to us (except if you breath it).
It is like a microscopic glass and the critters just can not survive it.
It is dirt!

I had to build a bridge they could not cross, then I sprayed bleach water on them.
Worked real well.
We pulled the oven out and sprinkled the d. Earth around all of the baseboards.

Diatomaceous Earth
This bag was a bit of an expense $20.
It however goes a long way. It will be incorporated into t he garden soil as a preventative for nematodes and such. Earth worms are not bothered by it.
The house is now sprinkled all around so far the issue is changing quickly.
Well consider the ant...
sluggard gets the to keep up on top of them.

Well the dogs got my prize winner tomatoes
This was all there was left except three more I hope to get before they do.
Amazing flavor here! It is end of harvest now for them.
Fenced next fall!

As you can see our pans are well used.
This just will not do!
So as it is needed (like beyond it) , Task set to accomplish once the dead (ants) were buried.

Steel wool (the dollar store one worked better than the soaped one from the grocery)
and Bar Keepers Friend
Good stuff!
Yes my elbow is in need of a little greasing...done ran it dry.
(took a lot of elbow grease )

Cant let a pan stay clean for long around here.
Blueberry pancakes and maple bacon.
I hide the real maple syrup
It is my little private stash. My sister brought me some from Connecticut.

A mid afternoon family snack.
Too cool to just go pull it up out of the garden.
I am so loving this crop.

The flavor of these is just so amazing!
A real good turn out.
(low nitrogen for carrots)

Nothing tossed out the chickens finished off the greens.

It was fun to open up the BIG box of toys Monday for the children to sort through.
It was Christmas in May!
We all worked through the last of the boxes in hopes to finish up the space and return the car to the garage for the sake of shade.
Many papers and a box of files were tended too. Take so much time!
We stopped mid day...

Steve even sorted his tools!
Wow This is really coming back together.

We took the kids to the public pool, it was so crowded we went on to the next one.
Ont he way we found a peach orchard, the kids got the adventure of picking some fruit.
Of course they were pulling on me to leave. I could of just hung out there for a long while.
Alas with only a small amount of cash and two kids eager to swim...
boo hoo

We found a better pool and spent a few hour swimming together. It was so nice to do a family time.
At the end of it we took the kids to get Krispy Kream doughnut.
Oh the joy!

Well supper was due the tummies and the doughnut high would ware off all too soon.

So I set to the bbq as soon as we got in.

Home grown tomato
fresh from the earth not 15 minutes before we ate them
home grown carrots.
Home grown onion from last week...
London Broil.

My coal went out!
I have never had that happen before.
I used this stuff.

It lit fast and hot full of the fume of lighter fluid.
They went out though mid BBQ.
It might have been a bit of my error for the lid was down.
It must of not gotten enough oxygen the lower gates were only half open.
Even so that had never happened before.?
(smoke in my eyes)
My new swim suit worked well for me.
I think I am beginning to relax and accept myself a little better.
Perhaps I am just getting tired of being discontent and not changing.
Denise sent a nice Red Hat my sister sent it too.
A video type thing that was really cool.
About the changing season of being a woman.
We had a fun supper and watched Big Fish the movie.
Well better said the kids watched the end through as we were called just as we had finished our meal.
Called that is by the buyer of the truck.
We spent some time with them out side, the father of the fellow finding a long ear in our visit.
He really needed to just be heard.
He had just lost his elder mom who pasted in March.
We shared many things of the spirit.
He told me of how he had invested $400,000 as a loan to a friend who's child went successfully through drug rehab. The woman has no way to pay him back though.
Think of it. He has little to nothing left, yet how rich he is in the greater things.
I admired this fellows compassion.
I know few would save a life like that.

Well the deal is finished.
Truck sold money deposited...NEXT? :)
So the week ahead is laundry, laundry!

I have 10 pounds of fresh picked peaches to put up and bread to bake.

I have been reading a bit of
Watchman Nee ..Spiritual Man.
Good stuff.

Tackle it Tuesday

We sold our 4 runner in one day!
So today I had to take my kids to my Dear Friends home for a couple hours.
Arriving back at the house in time to water the chickens.

Once the young man and his father arrived we went up to the bank and did the title exchange, notary and such.
Then I was given a ride home in my former 4 runner.
Got to say "good buy" to it ha ha ha we really did give that guy a good deal on it.
It is finished.
Wow what a wonderful end to the process of exchange.

Stopped by the MD's office to have them fax the form to mail order a prescription.

Got to spend some wonderful time with my dear friend Michelle.

Thank you so much for the time to get the finance stuff done with out the kids!
I really appreciate it!

So the post office was a stop on the way back to the house.

Unfortunatly the side of my face was going numb again.
A migraine in the shadows.
So the tasks of the afternoon will be put it into a slow mode.
I have lots laundry to do.

My Tackle is to put my health first and to overcome the temptation to work through a migraine.
The laundry really need to get done
inch by inch


4 runner sold in one day!
post later on the run

Sunday, May 24, 2009

Six Word Saturday

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In the palm of His Hand

"unnecessary" Quotation marks

Funny blog

My Darling was educating me on the improper use of quotation marks. To miss quote is to say the opposite. I learn something new every day. Apparently this is a very common problem.
Also the other issue he spoke was this, and that.
This and that is the proper use of and says he.

Well I do hope that my use of punctuation continues to improve :)

Got me to thinking...

I posted this earlier. Well...It got me to thinking.

A few years back I was in a wonderful Women s Bible Study Fellowship. What I witnessed there was the decimation of fellowship through the exploitation of typing personalities.
You see there was a woman who was a friend of the leadership. She had published a book on personality marking to assign roles in the church. Leadership training then would only be offered to the folks who showed that type of bent. Well what happened eventually was that the personality typing set focus on the negative aspect of each personality group. In identifying your personality type your flaws would then be pegged.
I witnessed young women who were amazing beautiful powerful women become emaciated by the focus onto the flows of self and others.
It was a grievous thing. The fellowship began to drop and quickly the esteem of those left dropped. Prejudice and arrogance was given permission as a tool to keep order. Class and role assignments were based on the information.
Then as her popularity increased so did her book sales, the classes were based on her book. Only $14. in the back of the room.
She rose in power ant the once timid woman gained unnatural control. It turned her into a monster of proportions that would grieve even the most enduring of souls.

Now when those who had gifts given by God despite the "personality typing" they were rejected. Or at best had to address the flaws of the given typing. Those flaws became a focus and all sight of The holy was lost.

I thought of this today.
In my mind I still see the broken young women who asked those questions of...
"so what am I to do? I am not worthy, I am a bad person because I have flaws..."

When we define ourselves or allow any one else to do so we get lost in a lie.
We are not to be defined assess and judged as if all matter of opinion is law or truth.
I hope in my life, blog, friendships I never ever leave another feeling this way.
I hope I flee from the defined. I am yet to be defined. We are often embattled in so may things that we get lost here and there. How can we then even assume that if another is lost in the battles fray that they have become other than who they truly are.

Only are we known by our Creator. Those things that make us up are not set in stone, nor etched in time.

In the study of sociology one thing I have found is true.
That when considered what one is walking in and through can we become compassion to that soul.

Walking softly we may then give an example of tender steps. So many have been stomped upon.
When that stomping is done in the name of my sweet, loving God, Comforter and Savior I become grieved. Even incensed at times.

If we have not known suffering how can we then walk softly? I suppose chose to have compassion whether or not you understand why?

There is a battle going on in this realm. Divided we will fall.
The best weapon of an enemy is to make us think he does not exist. If we then join that enemy in assault on our own troops....

Well let us all walk more softly.

I know of a dear soul who is worn by the hardships, the battle without defence, without aid. He came for the unlovely, sick not for the perfectly well.
So readers if your hurting, looking down on yourself in the face of the most recent battle or trial your in. Please be the first to give yourself a little unmerited favor.

Thoughts for the day expressed.
Just had to type it out it was so big withing me as to mot be kept silent.
Loving all of you.

You Have a Choleric Temperament

You are a person of great enthusiasm - easily excited by many things.

Unsatisfied by the ordinary, you are reaching for an epic, extraordinary life.

You want the best. The best life. The best love. The best reputation.

You posses a sharp and keen intellect. Your mind is your primary weapon.

Strong willed, nothing can keep you down. Your energy can break down any wall.

You're an instantly passionate person - and this passion gives you an intoxicating power over others.

At your worst, you are a narcissist. Full of yourself and even proud of your faults.

Stubborn and opinionated, you know what you think is right. End of discussion.

A bit of a misanthrope, you often see others as weak, ignorant, and inferior.

Your Hidden Talent is Your Magnetism

You have the power to persuade and influence others.

You're the type of person who can turn a whole room around.

The potential for great leadership is there, as long as you don't abuse it.

Always remember, you have a lot more power over people than you might think!

What's Your Hidden Talent?

Knowing that my pride would come before a fall, I do my best not to think I am right all the time. I am a teachable soul.
Wow those "at your worse are a bit biting" , I do not agree with the thinking of others as inferior. I do not. Knowledge is a great tool to free us all. I am week and only is it that HE is strong in me. I see myself as tenacious.

Play along if you like.
Just a silly thing to do on a lazy day.

Older women likewise teach the younger women...

• how to love their husbands
• how to love their children
• how to be self-controlled
• how to be pure
• how to be keepers at home
• how to be kind and submissive (not subservient) to their own husbands. (See Titus 2:3-5)

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By Maya Angelou

'A woman's heart should be so hidden in Christ
That a man should have to seek Him first to find her.'

When I say... 'I am a Christian' I'm not shouting 'I'm clean living,'
I'm whispering 'I was lost, Now I'm found and forgiven.'

When I say... 'I am a Christian' I don't speak of this with pride.
I'm confessing that I stumble and need Christ to be my guide.

When I say... 'I am a Christian' I'm not trying to be strong.
I'm professing that I'm weak and need His strength to carry on.

When I say.. 'I am a Christian' I'm not bragging of success.
I'm admitting I have failed and need God to clean my mess.

When I say... 'I am a Christian' I'm not claiming to be perfect,
My flaws are far too visible, but God believes I am worth it.

When I say... 'I am a Christian' I still feel the sting of pain...
I have my share of heartaches, so I call upon His name.

When I say... 'I am a Christian' I'm not holier than thou,
I'm just a simple sinner Who received God's good grace, somehow!

Words have power. Here are a few of my favorite sayings.

  • A warm cup of tea is like a cuddle with a friend.
  • The North American Indians have a more eloquent word for ‘friend’ than we do in English. In their language, the word for friend literally means, “the one who carries my sorrows on his back.”
  • Return with Honor
  • The sage anticipates things that are difficult while they are easy, and does things that would become great while they are small. All difficult things in the world are sure to arise from a previous state in which they were easy, and all great things from one in which they were small. Therefore the sage, while he never does what is great, is able on that account to accomplish the greatest things."
  • “Live so that when your children hear these words they think of you… Fairness Caring Integrity Honesty Love Trust.”
  • "O Lord help my words to be gracious and tender today, for tomarrow I may have to eat them."
  • "No man has ever been shot while doing the dishes"

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This was given to me for the third time in just a few weeks.

Zephaniah 3:17 NLT
"For the LORD your God has arrived to live among you. He is a mighty savior. He will rejoice over you with great gladness. With his love, he will calm all your fears. He will exult over you by singing a happy song."

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