Living life with medical challenges gives us pause. We often wonder about the battles we face. Many who suffer procedure after procedure, indignity after indignity tire. We are left wondering if it is worth the battle. If we see our life as living for the next medical issue to arise, is that a life worth while. When what we have to look forward to is more pain, more surgeries the costs to our families both financially and emotionally "why?". Why fight it? I have battled the CVID now for almost three years. With the fear of job loss=insurance loss always hovering.
For every moment. Every moment that we have matters.
Last evening I shared my heart with my husband. I told him how it is to have such seeming unfairness. This week after finally overcoming having both arms reattached at the shoulder labium now another issue is resurfacing. I have been successfully addressing the PTSD cortisol syndrome. I have been able to get back into life and be active at home. Pain again accosts me. After not wanting to face another doctor office for a few weeks, I was forced to, or that is at least how it felt. I am now with bursitis in my right hip, lumbar sprain, stinosis is worse and the disc is degenerated between #4 and #3 vertibre. I will get an injection in hip next week and after the MRI an injection at the least in the back. There may be a bone spur. The sciatic nerve is being pressed as well as my spinal column. More PAIN! ARG! I had an injection of anti inflammatory medication and patches for it as well. I am unable to take the pills they make me sick. The patches are so expensive but are working pretty well. Insurance is such a blessing. I never knew that the patches for inflammation even existed.
I stopped blogging in part because of the tendency to resend into a cave when I am hurting.
My dear husband sent me this today. Click on the link. It really set my mind in a better state of courage to face the next thing.