Friday, August 28, 2009

Lyrics of A life uncommon by Jewel

don't worry mother, it'll be alright
and don't worry sister, say your prayers and sleep tight
it'll be fine lover of mine
it'll be just fine

lend your voices only to sounds of freedom
no longer lend your strength to that which you wish to be free from
fill your lives with love and bravery
and you shall lead a life uncommon

I've heard your anguish,
I've heard your hearts cry out
we are tired, we are weary, but we aren't worn out
set down your chains, until only faith remains
set down your chains

and lend your voices only to sounds of freedom
no longer lend your strength to that which you wish to be free from
fill your lives with love and bravery
and we shall lead a life uncommon

there are plenty of people who pray for peace
but if praying were enough it would have come to be
let your words enslave no one and the heavens will hush themselves
to hear our voices ring out clear
with sounds of freedom
sounds of freedom

come on you unbelievers, move out of the way
there is a new army coming and we are armed with faith
to live, we must give
to live

and lend our voices only to sounds of freedom
no longer lend our strength to that which we wish to be free from
fill your lives with love and bravery
and we shall lead...

lend our voices only to sounds of freedom
no longer lend our strength to that which we wish to be free from
fill your lives with love and bravery

Hard Drive Crashed

My computer died last night.
I am on one of the kids.
This machine does not have full capabilities.

Dear Serendipity...

I will try to do a more detailed post on the window tinting.
There were some good tricks I learned after doing so many of them.
Keeping the film very wet and the window very wet is so important.
It the sticky side of the film touches it is nearly impossible to save it.
By they way...
the bottled spray that comes with the kit for $5 is just a few drops of dish soap (just see that it is a plain dish soap nothing fancy) and water just a heads up for I would of spent considerable money just keeping it filled :)

I have a free day...
well laundry and kitchen and week end food prep.
Other wise free.
For me that is low work load.
I will have to do a time line of life events for the EMDR on Monday.
So If you do not mind keeping me in thought and prayer I would appreciate it.
Going over event history can be difficult to say the least.
The hope is to use the EMDR to reprogram the neuro path ways to stop the memory lock ups. The human brain is such an amazing thing.

I also will be working on my great nephews nursery.

My nephew committed suicide earlier this year. This young man was a very special kid in his early youth Steve and I grew very close and he and I had a special bond.
Knowing the depth of the loss that his mother and sister and the mother of his son to be born I have not allowed my own pain in his loss much attention. It is really very painful however and It is just tearing me up inside.
Working on the nursery and feeling a bit unacknowledged for the loss that I feel has been sorta tough. It really hurts that My nephews life turned into such a desperate end. It is terribly sad. I do not think any of my family really understands the magnitude of his death to me. Funny how it can be assumed that (or seemingly so) that his loss does not effect me. How could it not. Time spent with someone or time simply on the outskirts of an others life does not differ the depth of love that I feel for this boy (man). In my mind and heart he will always be the heart of who he was not the man that his choices and life caused him to become.
So now a beautiful young single woman will bear a fatherless appears that it may have been all in his confused hopes that his absence would of been better for his children's lives. In his mind he had become convinced of this hopeless of being able to offer them a future.

Oh please my friends choose wisely.
The choices we make will have a greater effect on the lives around us than we perhaps could ever understand.
In this great epic we are but a line in the story .
Yet a well written line can change an epic for all of time.
It can turn the end into a completely different story.

May my life be a well written line in the vast epic of time.

So I close a little saddened but not dis heartened
Thanks for the kindness of friendships.
I will try to get back on this machine later in the day.
Have a wonderful day thinking on those that you love.
Be a well writing part of the greater story today.

Thursday, August 27, 2009

Thankful Thrusday *Rescue

We are under a heat advisory

Sometimes it is a literal rescue received that is a cause for celebration
This week when the mower actually started for me after 30 minutes the day before and several minutes that morning I whooped and hollered!
I was rescued. The day before I was in a prison of attitude anger and frustration.
The morning it started I was able to rescue another my brother my husband from a task that would add to his long day.

The heat here has been a bit of a torment.

Skill and effort with means caused for me to conclude a week long job of tinting our East and West facing windows.
With job done and some effort I was freed from the agitating stress of a messy dining and living room.
This has been tinkered with, I am in the midst of re organizing the decor.
Some rescues are at our own hand and choice.
We often hold our selves captive through inaction's or plain overloaded work schedules.
See the difference it makes it has a rating of 77% heat block.
This is a W-SW facing door on the patio.

Tools of the trade of Window tinting

The back door needed a layer of reflective film.
This is the corner guide. It holds the corner so trimming can be successfully achieved.
The tinting will save us from the heat infiltrating the house.
It is a good investment at apx $6. a window.
You can actually feel the difference of the heat on the window.

The Lab approved...
I avoid use of the dogs names for a reason :)

Many years ago I saw a wonderful old painting that was 6x8 if it were an inch. I loved that painting. This a gift to me last week by a friend.
It is amazingly beautiful.
The photo does not do it justice.

This was a wonderful day of friendship for me, as my dear friend came.
I saw us doing our nails. How is that for a fun girly thing to do.
As moms to rescue our hands from the busy neglect we sat and had
sweet chocolate coffee with soy milk.
It was so nice. We first did a hand treatment and then came in and sat down to a manicure. I painted her nails.
I have never done that for someone before. It was cool!
We spoke at length.
My dear friend was a hospice councilor years ago before adopting her kids.
Our kids are close.
This morning I received a touching e-mail that may be followed by a phone call from a mother who is at bed side of a dieing child.
Debbie here today...rescue us Lord with your knowledge, your provision.

She made a wonderful suggestion

Have the ailing write out specific instructions as too her wishes.
This lets the Mother off the hook so to speak.
It is a painful thing to have a power of attorney
Someone will always be unhappy with you.
There you are doing the most difficult thing a Mother could do and having to also deal with the emotions and feeling of others while your own are rampaging, yet you have to function.

My friend also told me about hospice.
You do
have to have a DNR for them to help
The rescue of receiving the help is a freedom of a heavy weight.
This will help the family .
Most folks do not understand that.
Hospice is simply there to support the family.
They are not the grim reaper.

At the end of our visit our rescue is this that each of us with the nails painted hands nurtured will pray foe each other this week for we will only have to look at our hands to think of those things on each others hearts.

I will be doing our Moms in Touch via the phone so when they are at her table I will stop and join them here.
My plate is gratefully full
Discovered is a way to have my cord of three strands
and join in prayer with them too.

I just pulled a loaf of bread out of the oven
it smells divine

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

Word Filled Wednseday

Outdoor Wednesday

Well at 93* I quit.
The lawn mowed and the corn planted.

We have a play date today and if it is cool enough...probability is low :)
The kids have a green lawn to play on...
At least where the under ground sprinkler works.
I need to either get that fixed...Steve has tried over and over we even hired someone who just smiled and took the money...oh some folks! now that man has not been hired again pretty stupid thing for him to do...

any way a woman heat worn just out of a cool shower here.
I yelped and whooped when the mower started!
It was really hard to get it to start!
With care a call was made to my darling...with pause as to not have attitude it was asked of him how to get the thing to start. Success and now he is free from having to mow it tonight. This mower has been ours for over 20 years and I still need refreshers on it. Steve has rebuilt it over and over. A good motor is like that with know how it can be repaired or rebuilt.

Now just imagine flowering vines...and color!

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Tuesday, August 25, 2009

How can it only be tuesday!

Dove and I had a date on Saturday to just spend time. It was really a very good time of conversation. I was able to stop at a Ross and get her three t shirts and a pair of boots yes boots...she really wanted them. They were really cheep too. I also found a little set of top and leggings at Wal-mart. We had a Mc D and really found the intimacy dear and fun too.

Oh the things that can occur in a few days time. Like a huge balloon with all the stuff inside and the air must just keep getting pumped in to extend latex...Hoping it will still hold and not burst.

Last night Dash had his date with me postponed. Dove had a Band gathering of schools at the high school. Many masters played the wood winds and percussion it was a nice little concert for the kids to get a little excited. Then the instructors took the kids with like instruments into various room of like instrument. Dove had four in all kids with two high school students and an adult master who was amazing! All four kids were shown how to do the basics and the care of the horn...french horn that is...

So Dove gave Dash her weekly allowance to over come her error of not informing us of the event and having to break word with Dash to have his date with mom. Her idea.

So we set Dash and I for this evening...but when we got home last night saw that tonight was the other band meeting! So again Dash set aside his time with me. I was able to get home in time to have him come and do an hour date. He called it his half date with me. I took him to a Target and got the school pants and 2 t shirts and a pj set. All the same amount as Dove had spent on her. It was nice to actually get a few clothes for them.

Steve had overtime and also a side job last week. It is now for him to get time to get himself some shoes and pants. Needless to say money in money out. Needs met.
A special gift for the yard is an arbor found cheep this will be for the grapes in the fall. I stopped and got some groceries too. We found the cute fabrics for the nursery as well. It is good to be able to let go a little. Alas my shopping days are done for a long while. The gas for the truck is filled so all that running around is finished! Except Dash and I have our other half date :)

This afternoon the mess! Oh the homework area was thrashed...why you may ask...
well I took a nap! For a half hour I felt like I was a log in a stream. It was awesome except in that half an hour we had 3? phone calls...oh well...

Tomorrow I get to stay at home...Ya!

I had stopped for gas in the truck on the way and the truck stalled as I was getting on the freeway...I was holding up traffic and I turned on the hazard light...tried and tried...then I put it in park hahah it started right up and I was off.

Today I had a very nice time at my sisters, then we went to the fabric store...
We went back to her home and had a nice yet all too short a visit.

I Left my sisters had to stop at the music store for a book for Dove.
Then the Big Lots to return the pencil sharpener ,
Decided to go ahead and I accepted the arbor and loaded it up.

It was %50. off!
and a very very good price at even full price.
Dropped the arbor off...
got back in the truck and got the groceries...
got home the kids walked in 15 minutes later as I was hanging up with my darling on the phone...

nap if you can call it that...
made supper
crammed supper down our gullets
went to the band meeting ...
came home
did not even get out of the car...
Steve grabbed the french horn out of the trunk...
Dash loaded in...
Dash to target...
Dash home ...
back to target arg!
I left my debit card on the sink when I changed clothing.
Back home.
Misunderstanding...Steve thought I said I spent $50. on a pair of pj's....")
kids brushed and bedded
I sit and breath....

Now you only had to read it...
I am staying home tomorrow...
garden,laundry,cooking, cleaning...
of course a play date after school...
night out with Dash...
Thursday a friend is coming over we are looking so forward to our time together this is a real treat...
She even got a sitter for her 2 yr old.

So it looks like Thursday time.
I need to set an appointment on Friday.
Sewing, beading leather work and tooling
cooking cleaning laundry you get the idea...

oh the wheel does turn and time is a vapor.

When school starts every moment gets spent.

ocean baby nursery

Another Great Nephew is soon to arrive.
His daddy is gone on so we are surrounding this baby with the things that my nephew loved...namely under the ocean.
His mother has two other kids and is going to school and the loss of my neiphew she has also lost the dream of all of them being a family and having a home together. Now she is in a studio with the kids.

The fabric I am using matched the fabric my sister is making the crib ensemble out of.
I will be making four for each child and two for the mothers bed. They are all in one room together...
The mother likes orange so I will back hers with it, the girl with the yellow and the boy with the green. Then I will make the baby a mobile of fish and shells (?).

The green under the mobile frame and the yellow and the orange will all be for the pillow backings.
the green foreground looks so like scales that I think it will be a part of the fish on the mobile.

The babies mobile will have the black and white ribbon to the hanging fish.
The backing of the pillows will make up the fish.
I'll try to do some cute embellishments too.

mine is the block hers is the bundle of swatches to the right an amazing thing for the fabric I am using is one i have had many years.

With space at a premium I thought to make the mother a organizer that will hang on the side of her bed for when she is feeding the baby and such. The Mom loves this blue set to colors was true if you look closely it is little spiders.

Please join me in prayer for this Young Mother who is giving birth to the son of her love who is now no longer living.

This is a hard time for so many.

My Sister and M. (for mother) hurt more deeply than many of us could ever truly understand. They have each others backs. My niece is also suffering the loss of her big brother and the experience of her first child now who is just a few Months old.

There will be a baby shower soon.

Menu Plan Monday

A little late but up and running...
Oh baby I am running!

Funny how many things come upon my calendar the moment a new school year begins.

This is "the big board"
My brain on the wall.
A balence life wheel . This is the wheel that was incorporated into the program at the hospital I was at so many many many years ago.
They used my balence wheel to teach and I was glad that it helped and helps others still.

In order to get through to the menu I had many things to review first.
Some weeks the balance tends to slip...
This is the menu for this week however in order to tend to several tasks that hit all at once I simply repeated the meals that slipped last week.

Order really helps me to keep up...
The menu board still needs that order but to get this far is progress for the wheel has spun in a bit of a different direction.

Relationship and friendship will be the compass point this week for there will be many moments to enjoy others. The parenting point is full as well for there will be two band practices (nights out) and two nights out with my kids...
So the spinning wheel spins...
Like the wheel the clock too spins into infinity and days are gone as a flash is the week.
Months fade to years and the children mature into young adults who one day will be free of those imposed reins and will bridle their own lives as the wheels spin.

Monday, August 24, 2009

Tackle it Tuesday

This was and or is my big tackle.
There is yet much more I desire to do..
In our main living room is an area set aside for the children.

I was able to set the foundations for it today.
There is fine tuning of supplies that I have to ponder.
This is the kids homework and study table.
I think I will also add the Bible Study books as well some other reference volumes on the mirroring book shelf.
The multiplication table is handy at a sitting view.
My parenting books atop to high to reach.

This is set for all the kids reference books.
They have a large shelf with reading book, novels and picture books in Dash's room.
The math manipulative and supplies for art are here too.

They walked in from school and the both of them said
"sweet" !
sat right down and did their homework!

They loved the lamp

Crayolas, markers and colored pencils are under the table.
I was still thinking about more order will come.

The Simple Woman's Daybook

For Today... Monday, August 24, 2009
Outside My Window... I know it is hot however the new heat block film on the window stops the most of the heat from coming through. It is afternoon and the sun setting on my shoulder is not hot as it was before. The color of the light a bit more diffused and softer.

I am thinking... My back is tired. I finished the application of window tinting film on the three double windows in the master bedroom today and it was a big job! I did the window by the front door as well. My bad mood wore me out.

From the learning rooms… The childrens' study is also finished today that was also a very BIG job. They had the table with a nice lamp on it and they did the homework just as they came in and were done. Nice set up and I am so glad to see they like it.

I am thankful... A calm moment that the tasks were done and that those monkey's are off my list and my back!

From the kitchen... A big abandoned mess due to the focus of the day being the Master and the kids study. A dinner that needs made and I am so spent .

I am wearing... Knit shorts and a t-shirt with flowers on it from the botanical gardens. Dirty bare feet that beg a pedicure and a soak for I have worked all day in my bare feet and they are just really black.

I am hoping... A positive evening with Dash for I promised him some one on one time. He needs some pants for school and all he can think of is toys. I am taking my boy out for some time together not to just stand in the toy isle.

I am creating... Leather key bob's that I will tool, jewelery and a baby gift for my newest Great Nephew the son of my recently deceased nephew.

I am hearing... Much grumbling inside today for I am frustrated with picking up after everyone and still trying to accomplish more...only to feel that it too sill be a mess when I turn around. Mommy/ Wife stuff we deal with.

I am going... To spend time with Dash tonight, take a shower.

Around the house... The master is now in need of more attention. I cleared out under the big bed the lasts of the things left over packed from the house sell move and move back in. I am getting all my writing books together to begin the edit phase of my novel. I could not get the stupid mower started this morning and it just left me ill tempered as then it was one thing after another all day long...just being real folks!

One of my favorite things... checking a long overdue tasks off my long to do list. Being finished so I can have my freedom to move onto the next thing.

A Few Plans for the Rest of the Week...Time with my sister tomorrow to sew together on the her new grandsons nursery. A little boy over for a play date with Dash on Wednesday. Time with a good friend on Thursday.

Here is a picture thought I am sharing…

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Sunday, August 23, 2009

Spiritual Sundays

singing birds
Good Mid Morning here and to all of you

It is just shy of the noon hour actually...

Time with my daughter.
Yesterday Dove and I drove to the home of her little friend who has recently moved to the other side of the valley.
We drove across the valley and she opened her heart up to me about a little one who again spent her Friday night at our home.
Dove has become well ...her name sake...
The little one showed up at my doorstep!
The grandpa had dropped her off...I was so very upset because NO ONE had called me.
The girls had asked if? and with great expectation the child packed a bag and left it in her grandpa's truck...well after my boundary set that it would not be happening unless I spoke directly with the Mother and the child was taught that my concern for her was that we all knew where she came known the mother had given permission to the child but had not bothered to call me and confirm...

here is the spiritual part...

I was speaking on the phone to my sister who also was a single mom during those child rearing years she had heard the beginning of it as I opened the door to the little girl standing there with bag in hand...

I had returned the call to her with my complain in open dialogue I was a bit miffed.

She taught me.
She taught me what it is like as a single mom how she might feel less than...I thought economically .
She told me "oh no it is the quality of mothering she would compare...a single mom can not offer the child the same as I can and that it is so hard to hold every detail when your hours shift around like the sun and the stress is so high every moment.

Compassion for this child's mother filled my heart where moments before criticism and ignorance was spilling over the brim.

I left a message on the cell of her mom, who is not allowed to use a phone until her shift is over at risk of loss of the very income that is fought for...
She returned call and the dear woman who is just now 6 week along and terrified at 33 years of age of the horrible pregnancy of the past recurring. ..I was able to speak personally about anxiety attacks and suggest helps. For she is crippled with them.

I thought of little Heather the child who lived two doors down so many years ago in our old neighborhood. Who her mother was out of her mind in the shower after the death of ....Heather was safe with me and Steve.

Well anyway.
Even though I understand suffering.
I had become a judge!
How dare I even become so religiously pias as to think that she was anything other than a child of God who needed kindness...
The Mother and I spoke of things for almost and hour!
She opened her heart where she had never before told...
I assured her that if ever she needed me or needed a safe place for her daughter I was here to hear.
Now there is the HOLY spirit.

This Sunday I am standing humbled once again by the Holy Spirit.
The councilor of my soul.

On the drive with Dove we spoke of the child's (Friday's sleep over) cares and worries.

On the way home from the other little girls home we spoke also of the woes of her life and family.
Dove grew in years of wisdom on that drive home.
We had and impromptu Mother and Daughter shopping trip and supper together.
My Daughter opened up to me and shared her heart.

After all that my Dove came to understand she lay on the sofa to sleep.
We had watched what we were told a wonderful movie with her friend and mother at our was Phantom of the Opera...yes I know now but I was caught ignorant there at the moment.
Steve told me it was a horror movie.
I had no idea!
We watched the first half and the mom spoke so highly of the voice for the opera singing was amazing but the plot of a child held in false belief that a stalker was an "angle of voice".
Oh Now I have gained insight... into this trouble I witness and could not quite understand.
The Spirit is so clear apposed to the deception of the darkness...
The calling evil beauty for the sake of entertainment.

Well Dove was on sofa bothered by all the day the friends struggles and the movie thiem...
Oh yes I could wrap her in cocoon and not expose her to the world around her so that at 18 she could be consumed by it while standing ignorant or As I believe is allow life to expose her to gain the wisdom and knowledge of how to interpret and overcome evil with good within my shelter and her fathers covering.
Dove and I lay long into the night my sweet 12 year old who asked such deep things and who learned who I am more deeply as to understand and respect even more the reasons why I have the limits and boundaries in place around her and her brother is for her and to keep her and provide a safe haven for her and for others.

She laid there holding my hand for two hours or so and loved. Well love flowed between us as if years were no matter and all there was was Gods presence and wisdom in that LOVE
That Spirit of comfort and the power of all that will keep her all of her days.

Older women likewise teach the younger women...

• how to love their husbands
• how to love their children
• how to be self-controlled
• how to be pure
• how to be keepers at home
• how to be kind and submissive (not subservient) to their own husbands. (See Titus 2:3-5)

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By Maya Angelou

'A woman's heart should be so hidden in Christ
That a man should have to seek Him first to find her.'

When I say... 'I am a Christian' I'm not shouting 'I'm clean living,'
I'm whispering 'I was lost, Now I'm found and forgiven.'

When I say... 'I am a Christian' I don't speak of this with pride.
I'm confessing that I stumble and need Christ to be my guide.

When I say... 'I am a Christian' I'm not trying to be strong.
I'm professing that I'm weak and need His strength to carry on.

When I say.. 'I am a Christian' I'm not bragging of success.
I'm admitting I have failed and need God to clean my mess.

When I say... 'I am a Christian' I'm not claiming to be perfect,
My flaws are far too visible, but God believes I am worth it.

When I say... 'I am a Christian' I still feel the sting of pain...
I have my share of heartaches, so I call upon His name.

When I say... 'I am a Christian' I'm not holier than thou,
I'm just a simple sinner Who received God's good grace, somehow!

Words have power. Here are a few of my favorite sayings.

  • A warm cup of tea is like a cuddle with a friend.
  • The North American Indians have a more eloquent word for ‘friend’ than we do in English. In their language, the word for friend literally means, “the one who carries my sorrows on his back.”
  • Return with Honor
  • The sage anticipates things that are difficult while they are easy, and does things that would become great while they are small. All difficult things in the world are sure to arise from a previous state in which they were easy, and all great things from one in which they were small. Therefore the sage, while he never does what is great, is able on that account to accomplish the greatest things."
  • “Live so that when your children hear these words they think of you… Fairness Caring Integrity Honesty Love Trust.”
  • "O Lord help my words to be gracious and tender today, for tomarrow I may have to eat them."
  • "No man has ever been shot while doing the dishes"

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Amy has clicked her heals and flown to her real home. There is no place like home.

This was given to me for the third time in just a few weeks.

Zephaniah 3:17 NLT
"For the LORD your God has arrived to live among you. He is a mighty savior. He will rejoice over you with great gladness. With his love, he will calm all your fears. He will exult over you by singing a happy song."

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