Saturday, January 2, 2010


sorry folks every moment is taken.
the kids are back in school Monday
I might just get a few moments in the evening. Wow full days

Thursday, December 31, 2009

Good News On My Sister


Surgery was late into the night.
We are awaiting the results on the lung biopsy 72 hours
Thank you for all your sweet prayers for her.

Wednesday, December 30, 2009

My Sister is in surgury tonight

She is my dear friend.
My sister 18 yrs my senior is in surgery at this moment and for another two more hours as of last report for lung biopsy.
She has fluid in lung and lymph nodes.
Please pray for her only Daughter who lost her father just one year ago at the same hospital.

Marsha sent an update on Denise and Eddie our shortybear

Friends, after several attempted calls today, I finally spoke to our dear Denise this evening.
I want to preface this news with this truth, God is Sovereign and in control.  He can heal.  And most importantly, He is lending comfort to Denise and Eddie.  Even though this has been the toughest afternoon of their lives, they sense His presence and are committed to Him and each other.
After many tests, including MRI’s and yesterday’s spinal tap, the mystery disorder is not, was not a stroke. 
  • He has a cord compression and 2 bulging discs in his upper body. It does not appear surgery is an option.
  • With therapy he will regain strength but not feeling in his lower body.
  • Eddie will never be able to return to his job again.  He will need to go on disability.
  • He had 2 options: 1) Go to the Rehab Center for 2 weeks starting tomorrow (New Years Eve) and receive PT for 3-5 hours a day. 2) Go home and a therapist will come there and do therapy for 1 1/2 hours a day.  This evening, Eddie chose option #2 and he will work hard other hours during the day with Denise’s help to do the exercises.
At 46 years old, he is stunned to think of never working again.  I know that in time, he would be able to find other areas of work that is not manual labor, but I know how permanent disability works.  I don’t know if they do or not.  If you ever go off, you can never get back on again. 
I told Denise that so many in the blog community want to help them financially in some way, potentially through a PayPal button and a website set up just for them.  The PayPal would be linked to its own bank account.  Needless to say she was over whelmed.  I asked her to please pray and to approach Eddie about this so we can get it going and help them quickly.
I was supposed to go over there Thursday, but we have bad weather rolling in again tonight, plus the hospital will be transporting them home sometime Thursday.  I will get over to see her sometime over the next few days and help her with groceries, etc.  and get the funds to her that have already been mailed to me.  They won’t be able to do any banking until Monday anyway because of not knowing when they are being released and then New Years Day on Friday.
Friends, there are so many challenges ahead for them.  Denise does not drive, so they will need to have people get them around.  I’m thankful their apartment is on the first floor, that’s a blessing. 
I know our God can totally release this cord compression if it be His will.  They are praying to this end and ask that you all join them in praying.
Denise wants you all to know how VERY thankful she is for each and every one of you, your prayers, support and friendship.  She said she just doesn’t know how she can ever thank everyone for their love and kindness.  You all have lifted both of their spirits in an amazing way.
She will be calling me tomorrow after they get settled in so I know they’re okay.
Until then, let’s continue to storm the gates of heaven for Eddie and Denise.

Donetta speaks...I have posted all comments on her blogs to be printed out and given to her.

Doves Room Our year end project.

 Remember this...?
Well I have had it a while.
All of the colors were purchased in a quart of the darkest color of paint.
Then the white and an extra gallon on the dark blue fetched at mid day.
 Dove said the clouds on her ceiling made her feel like she was floating.
She argued her case with some insistence. We are trying to get to do more that just say ah ha to every question. Her desire was a dark ceiling to make her room feel smaller.
I am crazy!
OR desperate!
 Rich blue in an egg shell finish.
The white on the walls is KILLS to block out the former colors think of how many times it takes to paint the walls. Dude!
Oh yes I did painted the entire ceiling today and my neck can testify to that!
 Then the artistic flair
 My inspiration.
So within the shapes will hang photos of  friends and family perhaps. 
This is the corner where her bed goes.
job one
Get her bed out of Dash's room and into this room.
Tempt her with the desire to sleep in it by making it as inviting as I can.

 Painting a room with a child helping is double the level of effort and triple the pull for patience especially when they do not follow instruction, splash and tip over quarts of dark paint.
Thank God for humor and drop clothes
 This head ache made for a long 12 hour day of it.
Dash just told me that is how long I worked in there today.
There will be the cut in work around the ceiling and the purple poster rectangular shape at the head of the bed.
Not today
There will be purple curtains that are shears 
Her bulletin board goes in the dark blue square after I touch up the white a bit.
I hope to find a little used night stand for her the head of the bed will be in the corner along the right wall.
Head facing the door.
 A very full day and that is just the ceiling and two of the four walls...
There are a few more shapes to lay out on these two walls.

Tuesday, December 29, 2009


hi hope your all well

Monday, December 28, 2009

Christmas Day 2009

This was a very strange Christmas here.
It seamed so odd because everywhere around us were major life crisis with so many many people we know.

Our little family was cocooned into a hushed season filled with so many many intercessory prayers for so so many. Left me a bit sober and lack luster. I remember Dove asking if I were excited and I could feel little of that. It was just a real real sober quiet time for me. Steve was off from the 18th of Dec. and paid holiday. We had the opportunity to bring in income so he worked and has worked many many hours on a side job for a customer that left Steve a bit under the gun. We are very grateful the employment. Just a real strange time.
It is so wonderful to have him home but we have yet to really have any off time together. I had set up many medical appointments for the kids while they were off school. All our needs are met and we are really fortunate. Left a strange sorrow for so many who are really hurting in this economy. We were frugal this year and it was really nice.

The big gift was a WII for the family.
WE are really enjoying playing and the physical aspects of it.

 Oh it was so sweet...Dash opened a package that was a game they look just like movie's so I saw the WII logo and said opps I must of got the wrong movie...smiles and the anticipation crescendo as they opened the WII the glee was palpable. It was so wonderful to see our children so very happy.
 We all have tired shoulders.

My dearest of treasures was this orange.
Dash recalled that all during my childhood an orange was always a prized gift in our Christmas stockings.
My days were early in the 1960's YES I'M THAT OLD...
We were rather poor in my early childhood and the thought to readily transported produce was in the early stages and things from the warm climates were very pricey.
Americans forget their history too easily.
  The family gave me a set of garden gnomes.
They are each a gnome.
Still have to get that down who is who.

  A picture said it all.
This is the room colors I have awaiting to be painted in her room.
 Here you see me stunned and confused and speechless.
My sweet man had talked with a friend who told him of a way for a non monthly billed
Yes...are you ready ....
a cell phone.
Me interning into the 21 st century.
It is the principle of it I have to get over...
For emergencies and for contacting help if I need it.
I am so overwhelmed at learning it.
I did find myself getting a little giddy at the idea.
However it appears a rip off of sorts for they are charging too much.
We buy a card for 20. and use it but it was misrepresented to Steve how it works.
We still have to figure that one out.

 The children got a lot of needed clothing that I had found a great deal on.
So as the family played I prepared for the guest.

Ham was main menu
so I did it with pure maple syrup, pineapple juice and brown sugar.
It turned out very moist.

 I cut my hair Christmas morning in the bathroom...that is how chilled out we were.
It really was wonderful not being all stressed out.
I was really hushed in prayer a lot of the time.
The tomatoes ripened for Christmas day and I was able to offer up my prized harvest for the meal.
It was so perfect and it really was a gift to my heart for all the hard work on the garden this year.
It was a gift to my guests to offer them a real tomato.
The Pickles are my first harvest.
I canned them, they were a bit tart but they were dills.
More to learn about pickling.

 After our meal we had gifts for the children.
They opened the games that the Grandparents gave they were for the WII.
Their Uncle gave them gift cards for a book store.
Their other Aunt and Uncle on steves side sent checks in the mail.
The kids are thrilled about going to the back and getting the money.

Steves Brother spent time helping me blanket the garden for the night.
He was so helpful and really peaceful. Often he is lost behind a vail of words.
A very intelligent man. But on Christmas I got to be with him in the garden just heart to heart.
Non to many a word just the pleasure and appreciation of the garden.
He really like the creation of it and offered such thoughtful support as too tending it.
He just was the most relaxed and natural I think I had ever experienced. It was one of the best parts of my Christmas Day.
The folks left and returned after a very long drive home.
They returned with a very thick blanket to offer up for to cover the chicken coop.
It was so touching. To travel so far for to offer it to me.
It was very very loving to receive so thoughtful an act of kindness and support.

In the afternoon as our guests had all departed our little family thrived at just being home.
Playing WII and chilling out, cleaning up and securing all the left overs.
I relized I totally forgot to send goody plates of left overs. That is how laid back a Christmas we had.
It was alright not to do it all just so. No one died or got angry haha.

In the evening we had a commetment to attent a gathering at my Sisters .
Our children love to see their second cousins and their Aunt and Uncle.
My niece and her husband was there with the baby as well.
It was so sweet.
I gave my niece a crock pot...strange thing I thought to purchase but I did it anyway.
Thinking of the difficulty to transport such a thing was a concern.
All concern vanished when that young lady opened it.
IT was the very thing that was number two on her wish list that they were saving up for.
She was so genuinely thrilled it really blessed me.
I am concerned over her for she was ill with respiratory infection and not health insurance to get care.

 The little child there is not wanted by the maternal. She is the maternal of the little boy born from my nephew who gave up his life this summer. She is married and has a new infant the grandchild to that woman in the background and too my sister.
The kids are sore neglected criminally so.
That young woman had the audacity to return after a short absence with her husband (that woman annoyed by infant little girl and the great nephew was acting inappropriately toward the kids. Well if you know me...
so I took the infant into a distraction (better than her slapping its hand and no no no no without any redirection. I also tried to give the little girl a break so that she could play with a gift she had been given.
The woman had a rude open tone exploitation of how I was so horrible to pull the infant away from the little girl so the infant was entertained and the girl not being punished by her for no real infractions...
so at that point the maternal and the husband walked in STONED! higher than a kite on a very strong perhaps heroin type high. Oh I was furious!
So said I to the so called grandmother who condoned it..."did I offend you over the baby being distracted?"...her biting response then left me to say then"If I offended you Please excuse me"...

I went down got Steve in a very angry state TOLD him it was time for our emediate exit.
Told the children to please trust my wisdom
We left. I was so angry!
Dear God!
the grandparent just condoned it!
My sister was also furious but was outside the loop and so I graciously thanked her for I did not want to make a scene. I told my children on the ride home what had happened and assured them they would not ever be left in the company of someone on drugs if it were in my power to remove them.
The thought of the children under the authority of a woman who would allow the use of the drugs and to abuse and control those little kids is just undoing me.

Evil flourished when good men do nothing.
My sister and I spoke.
She supports my stance and is so very grieved for these kids.
I am awaiting further data.
Waiting knowing is just infuriating me!

 So after My temper was reeled back into being able to find the joy under my own roof...
My sweet son came to me at his bed time to give me on last gift.
A gift of words about how he knows his mother loves him.

I was healed in that moment the furry of the wicked removed and the tenderness returned me,
He is my gift. He is my son. We have our lives together. They are safe.
This world stormed all around us this Christmas and we were sheltered withing the wings of the almighty.

My dear sister who is my friend. She is 18 years my senor called
She may have lung cancer...she is very ill in another state.
The waves hit the crest of the rock splashing with great intencity.
I am undone.
Pray for her with me. Please.


One of my brothers lost his home to foreclosure...


and 10,000 shall fall...

We have a great thing to rejoyce that an Amber alert on the freeway as we were going to my sisters...we all prayed that God would save the off duty police officer spotted her. She is alive and safe.
Our state is now number one in trafficking children for the human sex trade.
The man just walked up and lifted her 7 year old sister who made a fit, set her down and took the 5 year old.
They were playing out front at an Aunts.
In Japan this happens all the time to little boys to sell as heirs...


and 20,000 at your right hand.

My heart is so weighed down in these terrible days as is so many a soul.
A time of hushed intercessions.

Sunday, December 27, 2009

My Goodness if Denise could see all the love your pouring out!

I posted over at Shorybears sights.

I spoke with her. I feel so sad my friends. I really really feel so sad. My voice and my council she is lifted and loved by. It seems so little a gift. I know friendship is a great wealth. I have known this in so many of you. I just want it all to be taken away from them. Gods ways are certainly higher than mine.


Denise found a moment to call me tonight.
Terrible rough road. Eddie feels nothing from waist down. Feels nothing on the left side. They will be doing a spinal tap. MS a concern. Many more test to come.
He is cognitive but mood swings and fearful understandably.

I have encouraged Denise to go to the clergy to ask aide to set up a disability process so her income can come to cover her domestic expense. Eddie is fully depending on her and so I have given Denise permission (as in :) kicked her fanny ) to find a way to let God get Eddie to accept the aide of the staff. She is worn and has had only one shower sense 12-23 and only left hospital one time to feed and water the cat. Her MIL took her over to the apartment for a few moments only. She has been at his side the entire time.
I have given her a good loving talking too about letting God be God and going to the cafeteria and getting some hot food. She will have to wait till morning now. She has just nibbled here and there.
I got her to a good laugh and she loved it that I kicked her fanny. She is just so dear and all of you know.
I think that the hard times will need to be softened so if any of you feel led to give an offering to aide them I know that the help would be ever so humbly accepted.

Oh I wish I could read all of the comments you send to her. I did so with well over half the other night and it gave her footing to hear you. She is learning to care for her self the very hard way. She is being given a gift of fully relying on God to teach these things to her. She is within Him and He her. I told her of how God is being glorified and that one day she will comfort others with the same comfort that she is being comforted with. I so wish I could just go there and help her. I am so sad to think of her there without a physical companion to walk beside, I know this is her road. I just love her and see the path is a steep one. May He press her on into His full Glory.
She sounded so much better when she hung up than when the long call began. I just told her what she already knew and gave her the reality that she needs no ones permission to do what she knows is right to do. We spoke of false guilt being that that leaves no need of amends and that it is condemnation. Just freed her up to remember truth. Guess I need to hear it for myself too. Don't we all?
She is a genuine Lady folks the real Mc Coy! We are truly blessed to learn at her side.

Older women likewise teach the younger women...

• how to love their husbands
• how to love their children
• how to be self-controlled
• how to be pure
• how to be keepers at home
• how to be kind and submissive (not subservient) to their own husbands. (See Titus 2:3-5)

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By Maya Angelou

'A woman's heart should be so hidden in Christ
That a man should have to seek Him first to find her.'

When I say... 'I am a Christian' I'm not shouting 'I'm clean living,'
I'm whispering 'I was lost, Now I'm found and forgiven.'

When I say... 'I am a Christian' I don't speak of this with pride.
I'm confessing that I stumble and need Christ to be my guide.

When I say... 'I am a Christian' I'm not trying to be strong.
I'm professing that I'm weak and need His strength to carry on.

When I say.. 'I am a Christian' I'm not bragging of success.
I'm admitting I have failed and need God to clean my mess.

When I say... 'I am a Christian' I'm not claiming to be perfect,
My flaws are far too visible, but God believes I am worth it.

When I say... 'I am a Christian' I still feel the sting of pain...
I have my share of heartaches, so I call upon His name.

When I say... 'I am a Christian' I'm not holier than thou,
I'm just a simple sinner Who received God's good grace, somehow!

Words have power. Here are a few of my favorite sayings.

  • A warm cup of tea is like a cuddle with a friend.
  • The North American Indians have a more eloquent word for ‘friend’ than we do in English. In their language, the word for friend literally means, “the one who carries my sorrows on his back.”
  • Return with Honor
  • The sage anticipates things that are difficult while they are easy, and does things that would become great while they are small. All difficult things in the world are sure to arise from a previous state in which they were easy, and all great things from one in which they were small. Therefore the sage, while he never does what is great, is able on that account to accomplish the greatest things."
  • “Live so that when your children hear these words they think of you… Fairness Caring Integrity Honesty Love Trust.”
  • "O Lord help my words to be gracious and tender today, for tomarrow I may have to eat them."
  • "No man has ever been shot while doing the dishes"

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