Saturday, March 27, 2010
Friday, March 26, 2010
Oh all of you sweet darlings. I had not a chance to come by and let you all in on the busy day yesterday. I just had a moment to say thank you.
First off amazingly my ankle and knee were only a little bit by the sprain and it did not slow me down until early evening and then I was ready to get off my feet.
(half hour later)
dishes soaking, morning table cleared. Kids to the buss stop a walk around the block
So any way my ankle ? it is alright, La te da had a post on a good foot soak the night I fell and that is what we were referring too. My knee took it a bit tender but is do able. This morning my wrist a bit swollen looks forward to getting into that dish water. Take the motivation where I can get it Ha!
Great news yesterday at Doves testing and Phyc appointment. She has been declared to NOT have ADHD (inactive), The anxiety disorder and the social cognitive is still at issue. That is such wonderful news for us!
We are so delighted.
So the Grieving?...
Well on Tuesday I took great courage and tackled another session of EMDR to address the Post Traumatic Stress issues that challenge me. It was a real hard one. When I was a little one, after my sister went off to kindergarten and the others were at school. My mother and H. went to the cafe to work the day I was left in the "care " of bill (lower case intended) . This evil man sold me for the dollar to have unspeakable things filmed. Tore me up in every way and I had the courage to tell someone what happened. Seams the secretes of our lives hold such a chain on our souls.
I have freed my heart from a great tormenting cruel lie that has been over me from that time some 44 years ago. The lie? "kindness is undeserved to me as is value of self hood. As much as I have tried to believe the words spoken to the contrary it never really permeated my soul.
It was a real hard couple of days literally was not able to stand well after the session, the body remembers. It was mortifying to speak the details and remember those things I so wanted to forget. Recalling is letting it go, trying to push it away is just really holding onto it. Letting old things go and pressing on is such a perplexing concept and in religion can become cruel. God is not cruel to me however and trusting in Him and in the process I am finding amazing all be it painful restoration.
The pleasure of looking at my children and just delighting in the silly childhood innocence is like a silver lining in what was once little more than a stormy sea. Constantly trying to pull my head above water replaced with floating in it more peacefully. I know that I have some more freedoms to fight for. As hard as it is it is a joy to set free the real me I am created to be. Now I see dimly but then face to face. The lights are rising up and the face is beautiful in it's reflection.
So my tackle was great as was the reward for doing so. It is so terrible the things that the young ones suffer at the hand of the oppressor.
Well there was Dove on the tellie she forgot her field trip slip. Gotta run
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
Monday, March 22, 2010
For Today… Monday, March 22, 2010
Outside my window... It is evening hour when the dogs lie still and the hens are silent. It is a fair 70* tonight.
I am thinking... How precious the youth of my children is. How timeless and still those moments when eyes look up in wonder and questions are safe for them to ask mt.
I am thankful... That my health is improving as is my husbands. The deeper things of life are opening up the wonder of knowledge to the kids. I have had opportunities and have made time for telling them mysteries that few young ones know.
I am going... to bed soon and delight in my clean bedroom
I am reading... Raising and anxious child. A book on bird houses and the birds who prefer each kind. A book on bats and creating a habitat for them. The Gardening Encyclopedia. To name a few.
I am hoping... That I continue to heal and gain more strength that once the steroids are finished that I still feel this wonderful HA
On my mind... Remember to interact with my Little Dove in her language. To meet her right where she is at and to speak more softly when she just baffles me thinking that she should but does not understand. Accepting that she is simply who she is.
From the learning rooms… Love flows, decor is improved.
Noticing that... My focus has greatly improved getting my mind off of the "what if's about Dove"
Cause that is WHO I AM
as HE IS
From the kitchen… Many fresh veggies from the garden and several herbs for flavors rich in home spun pleasure
Around the house... Work on the master bedroom was accomplished today with stunning results, bills were paid and mailed. Many loads of laundry were also set to fold and put away. Many more to do behind the sofa await me on the morrow.
One of my favorite things: softly spoken word at the back of my neck "I love you" by my beloved Husband
A few plans for the rest of the week: It will be a busy week. Laundry, Garden need the tomato dugg in and a bit of tidying. Tomorrow begin the taxes, tend and appointment calling for a long drive. Awaiting Dove at the bus stop and a call from Dash for he is walking 4 houses from the school with his friend to go to play at that home. The Grandmother will await them at the corner. He will call me when he gets there for this is a very unusual thing to do for us. I truly enjoy his Grandmother she and I really hit if off. We are very close in age. Wednesday calls for service work at the elementary. An Art Masters presentation, then on to a third grade class (Dash's) to assist a girl who needs reading techniques presented I think in a way to help her with dyslexia. Then another presentation of Art Master. Then Dash and Dove will ride home with me to go get Dash his second allergy shot of the week.
Thursday I will get Dove and take her far to attend some Physiological testing and then to see the Psychiatrist. Feed her and get her back to school before the class returns from their lunch.
Friday well a medical appointment at 11: for me. Then home to tend to tasks. Perhaps a little grocery shopping.
Saturday...an early matinee for I won the drawing at the allergist. We ware our t-shirts each time and have a ticket placed in the pool. We won! $25. movie tickets and a free popcorn. So then it will be a 30 mile drive one way to take Dove to a sleep over at a friend of ours the kids are good friends. Then back to attend the Arizona Bloggers Tea that is here near my home. Now I learned just as Dash was tucked into bed that at 4:30 he has a party to attend at a skate rink. So I must see to getting a gift before then. Sunday I rest! Then drive 30 miles one way to go get Dove home.
Enough said...ha ha
Sunday, March 21, 2010
Older women likewise teach the younger women...
• how to love their children
• how to be self-controlled
• how to be pure
• how to be keepers at home
• how to be kind and submissive (not subservient) to their own husbands. (See Titus 2:3-5)
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By Maya Angelou
That a man should have to seek Him first to find her.'
When I say... 'I am a Christian' I'm not shouting 'I'm clean living,'
I'm whispering 'I was lost, Now I'm found and forgiven.'
When I say... 'I am a Christian' I don't speak of this with pride.
I'm confessing that I stumble and need Christ to be my guide.
When I say... 'I am a Christian' I'm not trying to be strong.
I'm professing that I'm weak and need His strength to carry on.
When I say.. 'I am a Christian' I'm not bragging of success.
I'm admitting I have failed and need God to clean my mess.
When I say... 'I am a Christian' I'm not claiming to be perfect,
My flaws are far too visible, but God believes I am worth it.
When I say... 'I am a Christian' I still feel the sting of pain...
I have my share of heartaches, so I call upon His name.
When I say... 'I am a Christian' I'm not holier than thou,
I'm just a simple sinner Who received God's good grace, somehow!
Words have power. Here are a few of my favorite sayings.
- A warm cup of tea is like a cuddle with a friend.
- The North American Indians have a more eloquent word for ‘friend’ than we do in English. In their language, the word for friend literally means, “the one who carries my sorrows on his back.”
- Return with Honor
- The sage anticipates things that are difficult while they are easy, and does things that would become great while they are small. All difficult things in the world are sure to arise from a previous state in which they were easy, and all great things from one in which they were small. Therefore the sage, while he never does what is great, is able on that account to accomplish the greatest things."
- "HOME IS WHERE YOUR STORY BEGINS"
- “Live so that when your children hear these words they think of you… Fairness Caring Integrity Honesty Love Trust.”
- "O Lord help my words to be gracious and tender today, for tomarrow I may have to eat them."
- "No man has ever been shot while doing the dishes"
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This was given to me for the third time in just a few weeks.
"For the LORD your God has arrived to live among you. He is a mighty savior. He will rejoice over you with great gladness. With his love, he will calm all your fears. He will exult over you by singing a happy song."