never be the same again

there are these times that mark time. days when you really know you will never be the same. Looking at my beautiful leg, swollen and pained...by the end of this day it will never be the same again. forever changed morfed into steal and stapels.
ya know it will be all good.
we searched and found a good rehab Health South place it is on Shea and near 96th street in Scottsdale. 10-15 days. we searched hard yesterday wow there are really some terrible dives that have the audacity to call them self a rehab center

The surgery is at 10-11am this morning. I will be at the Scottsdale Thompson Peak Hospital for 3-4 days then rehab at the

The kids are cared for by my Michelle and my sister and grandma when she can. The house is covered so pets will be as well.

A good meal or two for the family could be nice, the freezer is full of what I call junk. they could use the nutrition of salads, fruits and so on. You know more the living foods. They will do fine. Dove is covered at school for the month of lunches.
Dove is ill...a sinus infection, as is Steve I started anti bio-tics on Friday. Dove started yesterday. Her sweet face broke out and she is really emotionally effected. My daughter so sweet and tender. Dash needs the diligence to do well and be self motivated.

I tossed and turned got up it is now 6:30. The peacefulness of feeding the hens some oats and sitting here is calming,
Thank you all for the loving kindness. The lap top may come with me if I am up to it.
i am good, enveloped not even sticky (the envelope thing) :)
Everything is as it should be. Courage needs stay mustered as the banner raised high I will forge on through this fine morning. I am honored blessed to be envied that I get this chance to walk one day free of the bone on bone pain of the last 5 years. I made it to the mark.
Hard to stop typing for the energy and the words they fill me up. I will need to fill them up soon.
the day is a gift lets go do it!

The new body

why wait!
There are promises of a new body some day when this one passes away.
Well in the morning I will be stepping ahead of time.

So many amazing things these last busy several weeks of getting ready.

My surgeon has spoken extensively with both the immunologist and the other ortho surgeon that I have attended all these years. The two surgeons met at the hospital and opened lap tops discussing my case in detail. I am told by my infusion nurse that this is unprecedented.

Thursday when getting cortisone injections in both my right shoulder and left knee I was told of this. I was also stunned as the doctor of 5plus years tentativly asked me...
"at the risk of offending you may I as something. Could we pray together over your surgery?"
I was so deeply touched at this gentle kindness.

For $60 I was given over $600 worth of walker, wheel chair and riser arms for the walker so as to protect my right shoulder impingement and the injury of late to my left wrist (a torn cartilage).  It has been a trying season for me.

All around me however are little kindness that blow even seasoned believers away.

I will have surgery in the morning, kids over at the Michelle's, for the night. Steve will be able to stay with me. They will only allow him on Monday as to keep infection risks lower. Infusion went well yesterday. I slept around 5 hours then a good 8 hours over night.

I know that many people are praying and for that my heart is full of gratitude. The kids are beginning school and so they could use it too.

I will be sent to rehab at a care facility for 10-14 days or so once out of the 3? days in hospital.
I am suppose to stay calm and this lap top is stressing me out. It is heavy on my knees too.

I'll close and go rest a while.
In all things his presence is palpable. It is good with my soul.