Sheltering trees

Oh my some days are just so amazing!
As I sit and type I am listening to a lovely heart card from Denise she wrote...Thanks for being a sheltering tree for me, I love you my friend.
A lovely keyboard simply played in melody.
Today at my daughters school :when I went to retrieve them for the long ride to the city after a set of circumstances. I sat In the classroom. The teacher had called a child from the room next door , he had just teased my girl calling her "beaver". He sat , in front of the class sideways facing this loving woman who then, kindly asked the class for a show of hands as to who had ever been teased. Most lifted high and solemnly too. She then asked for a voiced of what had been said and how it had made them feel. Well after several had chance to say... She then asked ME. I told them of how I was called "dognetta" and to this day at 46 yrs old I still have to remember when I walk by a mirror that I am beautiful. The teacher spoke of how hurtful and lasting the teasing can be. I spoke up with voice and said this to the many children all with eyes riveted onto me.
I told them that they were all very powerful. I asked if they knew the greatest power they had? After some pregnant pause I held my toung in finger tips. I explained the toung can give Life or Death. It can kill or like water give life. It is like a well watered tree; we can cause growth in each other. Then we all can become a great forest. The birds approach us and are safe to rest on our limbs. We are safe for one another.
The children in her class have all just had their plants (science project)germinate this morning.

then we left...
I took the kids to the city and the psychiatrist's heard and was moved deeply. Smiled so lovingly with tear in her eye. She told the children of how blessed they were to have me for a mother. I deferred the honor back to them that It was i who am blessed. Miss fiction and Dash Hawk were given a toy. Miss fiction called me to come to assist and stand by I went she then gave her toy to a little girl "she looked like she was having a hard day momma" The elder with the child teared us and was deeply moved at Miss Fictions heart of generosity.

I stopped by the grand Parents (hubby's folks) had a visit.. As I left she said to me Oh did I give you that cream rinse? I laughed out loud Folks I have been out of cream rinse for three days making due. I rinsed out the bottle two times and then used up what I could of some leave in so I could get out of the house today.. I asked God just last night for some cream rinse. Not having a chance to care for my own needs HE SAW TO IT!

After we returned home Hubby pulled in while we were down at the corner mail boxes. We all met for a brief few moments then the men arrived for the mens group. I took the kids to the Wal-mart and we had a three hour math/ethics/social lesson where they spent the time fitting their budget around a purchase. Miss Fiction got a pink play phone (too cute she asked dag to remove the batteries so she could talk with her pretend friends). We pulled in as the men folk on the curb were saying good night. They had rooms to clean before packages were to be opened. So she dashed to task. While "Dash" fed his face the corn dog and chicken nuggets, Miss Fiction joined him. Tummies full of a late supper of sorts. Dad read story as he does nightly. I sit here amazed listening to this lovely melody. And think on how for every discouragement the enemy places before me I have ten thousand triumps that dim out the waist of his efforts.

Please Pray for Amy

"Laughing through the tears" is having hip replacement surgery.
Please pray for her children and family.
Stop over and give her a big comment hug. It would be a personal favor to me.
Life is a battle she holds a sword well, it is an honor to know her.

The Public School Speical Needs intervention process

Step One
M.E.T. Multi Departmental Evaluation

1.academic
2.communication
3.social
4.emotional ?
5.cognitive ?
she could not remember the last two,it was guessed.

They have 60 days to perform it from the day I apply. 8-23-07

They will meet and look at all 5 parts , test a part 1-5 if more information is needed.
This is where all of our private stuff came in out dated.
I took that as a big discouragement., but I'll look at it in a different light and chose not to be discouraged.

They then have 30 days to gain any of the information lacking on the 1-5 above . This means that they would begin to test. Look at history, all the forms I have to fill out, old records, and the players of the multi departmental that includes parent, teachers, school psychologist, ?private, psychologist, psychiatric, MD, Occupational therapist, Physical therapist, and speech therapist.??? I was promised a letter or report from highlighted by italics have yet to receive, now I have to follow up and call each player ARG >:{

If then it is determined that a I.E.P. Individual Education Plan ...is needed it is then that the team steps in together with me to see what need are to be addressed and how best to address them.

If the M.E.T. determines that the I.E.P. is not needed but that the child may need a little specialized access or curriculum, then a Section 504 plan can be established.

For the state of Arizona we have this help....

www.ade.az.gov/ess/speicalprojects/pinspals

For Mesa East valley we have

Barbra Ross
barbra.ross@azed.gov

E.S.S. = Exceptional Student Services

P.I.N.S. = Parent Information network, these are contracted folks who have a qualifying or have had , child who have walked the system and are paid to help us through navigating it

P.A.L. = Parents are Lesion to Schools, these are parent volunteers who help the PINS

So I need to fill out all the paper work for the MET and get all the other reports from this summer, for they have all of the history and tests that were given the kids (for the most part) and they were all too old.
I took that as a rejection of the IEP not understanding the process.
I am so glad that I had this woman who is boss to the local school psychologist called me back. I had left a message last Friday for her. Since then I had spoken to the school psychologist and felt discouraged and overwhelmed. This woman explained it so clearly and translucently that I understand. I will go through the process because it will show many (5) areas and I will have been thorough in examining the full scope, it will either give each kid the interventions they may need or put it too rest weather they have need of anything particular, or any need for assistance at all. Of course the IEP will have to be agreed upon or at that time I can appeal.

We do perish for a lack of understanding and knowledge. I will, as I now understand, walk in knowledge. I will assess, inquire and gain all we need to help our kids to the best of my ability.

Boy do I have a lot of forms to fill out and a lot of data to gather from so many folks. YEE HAW!

Name Plate meme

The rules are:Write 8 of your blog friends' names in a unique way and post them. You must write the blogger's name that tagged you, then add 7 others. Be creative.

1. Care oh! lynn
2. Jaye DE ya! wanna dance....
3.Christine= pristeen (as in pure beauty)
4.Amy = A meen'
5.Denise = on de'knees
6.Trisha= Ta' wish a (as in to wish upon a star)
7.
8.

Family Sunday

My Nephew and his Son came for the day. This young man was a child of 6 in our home so many years ago playing and enjoying His Uncle's lessons and Love. I watched him grow up from a distance. Now he speaks of the memories of those days. The men spoke of car work the things we were doing when he was just a child. He is doing those things now.


I fixed an impromptu shrimp and pasta salad

One box pasta set to boil in sea salted water and olive oil-drained
2 c thawed (in a water bath) salad shrimp
CUT ALL VEGGIES WHILE PASTA BOILS
green and red bell peppers chopped fine
green onion dice fine
celery hearts chopped
purple onion diced very fine
broccoli florets finely slivered off the tops
1/2 cup ? Mayo
2 tablespoons curry mixed into mayo
mix all then add
frozen peas (not thawed) used to cool pasta in a hurry :)
Served on a bed of romain lettus.

Look at all the children... oops! how did that happen? One has turned into a man.
A fine young man. My house has always had so many children. What if I could remember them all? What if one day we all sat around my table once again. Perhaps one day we will all sit around in Glory... may it be.

I hung my fine things out to dry tonight. The summer heat, mild, as the coolness of the garments encompassed me. Gauze and cottons woven into a soft perfection.
I wonder if any one else ever hangs out their fine things any more? I find doing this a gift to my own heart, a way to lovingly care for those things that make me feel pretty.
Tomorrow it is off with Dash and Miss Fiction (Little Dove has grown up) to the City for a visit with the psychologist. They get to view a video about teasing. I'll have to take them out mid day.
I am considering letting go of Miss Fiction's (Dove) I.E.P. and to just see if being a regular kid without intervention for a while just might not do her the best over all good. This takes a lot of courage. I learned more about the Teachers philosophy or at least what she was referring to. It could easily sound like a "name it and claim it thing" but I think there may be a little wisdom in showing confidence in her teacher,at this time. If Miss Fiction can really do well without the special needs umbrella it could go a long way toward her self image. My instincts are telling me to give it a try. Fear of "doing it wrong" hovers. I have to trust that if I am in error God will step in and show me so. He has in the past and He has not changed. :)

Star Wars Vidio

At great peril Dash Hawk interviews in the battle of ....
"Star Wars"
***click on image***

Blogging Ethics

I had a new one today and was unsure haw to handle it.
A commenter being very supportive and kind sent congratulations to us for our video posts. He has a well assembled blog on funny videos.
If you are there thank you.
Our context is very different for I keep a PG blog.
It is a kindness offered to post a referral, but it is also a responsibility I have. When ever I give a referral to a link. I must ask myself...Now is this something I would want my name on.
Our identity is our most precious possession. As well assembled and as best fitting to another audience as their blog was, it was not something I would enjoy.
On U Tube there are filters, and their are apparently sites who can disable these filters.
Well I am a woman of filter. I like to guard the images before my eyes and mind with great care. Somethings of humor are not so to me. I have had a serious journey. Some things are to my sensibilities in poor taste.
So forgive me "M." if I do not post a link to your sight it is just not for my taste or for my community of audience(at least not through my recommendation) .
I do wish you well and thank you for your acknowledgments. I deleted your comment and thought twice that perhaps I would offer a greater kindness in explanation.

Golden Retriever de matting.

Rena the Golden retriever, was in bad shape after her bath she had several mats on her tender under belly. I like to learn what the pros do so I don't have to pay them to do it.I found the tool that they use, the de-shedding tool cost a an arm and a leg $50.! It is a VERY well made professional tool. I think I could of gotten a better deal else where.
The Bamboo brand tool was great! It sawed through the matted hair then flipped over for the de shedding rake this really worked great for me. It was very fast work and We have one very happy dog.
I had to be an alpha for the constancy sake I held in there and she at last submitted and now she is all loving and acts like a pup again. I did not want to have to shave her. Dogs with an under coat need specialized tools for grooming. I thought I had all the tools I needed. Rena has an undercoat it sheds seasonally. These tools are the best I have found for the purpose of the undercoat.
The dogs slept out in the main house. I put the bedding(I made them big fleece pads last season) out in the living room for them. WE SLEPT! Rena clicked and clacked a bit this morning at our door. Beloved used ear plugs.
If you have dogs know that laminate flooring really is noisy!
Nobody is paying me to say it by the way . I thought if any one else out there was suffering the problem I'd save ya the hassles.

Sunday Smiles

At "Spiritually Unequal Marriage"

Poet Maya Angelou

Maya Angelou's Inaugural Poem

A Rock, A River, A Tree
Hosts to species long since departed, Marked the mastodon.

The dinosaur, who left dry tokens
Of their sojourn here
On our planet floor,
Any broad alarm of their hastening doom Is lost in the gloom of dust and ages.

But today, the Rock cries out to us, clearly, forcefully, Come, you may stand upon my
Back and face your distant destiny,
But seek no haven in my shadow.

I will give you no more hiding place down here.

You, created only a little lower than The angels, have crouched too long in The bruising darkness,
Have lain too long
Face down in ignorance.

Your mouths spilling words
Armed for slaughter.

The Rock cries out today, you may stand on me, But do not hide your face.

Across the wall of the world,
A River sings a beautiful song,
Come rest here by my side.

Each of you a bordered country,
Delicate and strangely made proud,
Yet thrusting perpetually under siege.

Your armed struggles for profit
Have left collars of waste upon
My shore, currents of debris upon my breast.

Yet, today I call you to my riverside, If you will study war no more. Come,

Clad in peace and I will sing the songs The Creator gave to me when I and the Tree and the stone were one.

Before cynicism was a bloody sear across your Brow and when you yet knew you still Knew nothing.

The River sings and sings on.

There is a true yearning to respond to The singing River and the wise Rock.

So say the Asian, the Hispanic, the Jew The African and Native American, the Sioux, The Catholic, the Muslim, the French, the Greek The Irish, the Rabbi, the Priest, the Sheikh, The Gay, the Straight, the Preacher, The privileged, the homeless, the Teacher. They hear. They all hear
The speaking of the Tree.

Today, the first and last of every Tree Speaks to humankind. Come to me, here beside the River.

Plant yourself beside me, here beside the River.

Each of you, descendant of some passed On traveller, has been paid for.

You, who gave me my first name, you
Pawnee, Apache and Seneca, you
Cherokee Nation, who rested with me, then Forced on bloody feet, left me to the employment of Other seekers--desperate for gain,
Starving for gold.

You, the Turk, the Swede, the German, the Scot ... You the Ashanti, the Yoruba, the Kru, bought Sold, stolen, arriving on a nightmare Praying for a dream.

Here, root yourselves beside me.

I am the Tree planted by the River,
Which will not be moved.

I, the Rock, I the River, I the Tree I am yours--your Passages have been paid.

Lift up your faces, you have a piercing need For this bright morning dawning for you.

History, despite its wrenching pain, Cannot be unlived, and if faced
With courage, need not be lived again.

Lift up your eyes upon
The day breaking for you.

Give birth again
To the dream.

Women, children, men,
Take it into the palms of your hands.

Mold it into the shape of your most
Private need. Sculpt it into
The image of your most public self.
Lift up your hearts
Each new hour holds new chances
For new beginnings.

Do not be wedded forever
To fear, yoked eternally
To brutishness.

The horizon leans forward,
Offering you space to place new steps of change. Here, on the pulse of this fine day
You may have the courage
To look up and out upon me, the
Rock, the River, the Tree, your country.

No less to Midas than the mendicant.

No less to you now than the mastodon then.

Here on the pulse of this new day
You may have the grace to look up and out And into your sister's eyes, into
Your brother's face, your country
And say simply
Very simply
With hope
Good morning.

The Alligator known as "Capitan Jack"

The care and feeding of the alligator "Capitan Jack" and the
"Capitan Jack" tour... $.25
Click on image to see the videos
Miss Fiction (Dove) and Mr Dash
From an old "Leave it to Beaver" episode.

Revised

Standing in the Gap.

Meet the Intercessor.

I made this figurine for myself many years ago. She is perched high above the entry.
We once had a sweet little shop in town where you could buy green ware. Now they are out of business and a fancy ceramics store is at the mall. Years ago it was so much more simple, presented to the artist and homemaker. Green ware is so fun to work with. You just clean it up (all the mold lines form the casting) and have it fired to bisk. Then, if you like you, glaze it and fire it again. The intercessor is not glazed she is bisk. I love the character of bisk it is closer to the clay, with a living texture.
She too has a story.
It was years ago ( 26 years) when I had just met the Masters Son. At the rocky shore of San Diego's Bay I stood like this over a fallen woman who was on the rocks flat on her (previously broken) back. She was safe un-injured. She had only a few stitches on her arm. Other wonders happened in that hour by the sea, other wonders that taught me a lot about who it was that lived inside of me.

Mother and Daughter Blog Carnival

Russia 1997


Half a world away



The image of a daughter, My daughter...Who I would have to wait months to see.
Real Life is hosting a carnival
"Somewhere out there if Love can see us through... someone is thinking of me and loving me tonight..." popular in 1997 was the children's movie "Fivel goes west"
Another song was within me during those long months "ode to Joy!'

Oh my Dove, Sweet Little Dove how you have grown. Your very name means captivating, God's gift and so you are and always have been.
Now you are 10, 10 how did it happen... 10.
Waiting those 16 years for you in my arms always knowing you would come from the womb of another. Now I see you, your smile, you are my own child.
Tonight reading to your brother surrounding him in all of who you are you shone.
So vividly your glory, your beauty of spirit shines.
Your broken wings whole, your caged life freed. Your flight restored. Peace surrounds you. I believe in you. So many hours sacrificed to save another, your little brother. You shared us as few children ever have to do. Never will you be alone it is our hope you will always have each other.
Developing into a pre-teen I can hardly believe my eyes. All around you is your glory entering into the you of your lifetime. You SHINE.
I need so much wisdom whether to proceed with intervention for your academic success with I.E.P. and all the other players I am missing just you and me. What ever I do now, I do all for your life your future. Putting aside the hours and times you must spend with others. I lay me down child with great humility. I miss you and all those hours lost to others who helped you restore.
For it was given to me this awe inspiring charge to be held: Mother.
I need so to see you and brush away all of the disabilities that hound for interventions. They clutter the view of who you are. I just want to be...Mother.
Your imagination astounds me the artistry of drama and prose. You are doing so well in school. Your ability to function is thrilling me to no end. I am so happy for you. Miss fiction my Dear.
Songs fill you and joy peaks then it explodes. I wish so much loud sound was welcome and painless for me. Your voice song is glorious and beautiful and innocently pure!
You have the most amazing golden eyes, a face so sweetly embraced with the kindness of pleasant appearance, freckles I see so cute honey... I love you . I know your hair is fair and you wish it the same as mine, your skin is pale and against my arm a difference is there, but you are my child who I simply adore. I wanted so much more for you. I never want to remain in regret that I could have done more. Knowing I have done and am doing all I am able to do. I hope that when I am old you will sup at my table.
I am so sorry you lost me for a time when you were three to illness and strangers coming for tea. All those Mothers and Sister the Aunts in the Lord who kept us and kept you while my health was restored.
Oh child, it is a part of God's plan to make you who he created you to be, I wish I could erase all the hours of tortured pain with you away from my lap . Dove I regret it, I missed out on those few years Dear Child. But you are mine. I am hear. You are near and I will draw close to you and you to me. For more than just a few years before the teen times of pulling away. When if I succeed independence you will have gained, a life of your own. Able and strong, free, walking wise and brave into your future.
Dove I have you today.
Today and tomorrow and every moments life breath. My daughter.

Photo Hunt...Happy

The orphanage directer with great respect handed me this birth image of my Son moments before I took him out of the orphanage. My mind could not process what I was seeing. In Russia they put the IV in the head.
This gift... I am forever Happy.
I waited 20 years for Our Son. DOB 3-06-2001

A $50.Give Away from Olive Kids

Go visit Kailana over at Island Review.
Olive Kids is doing a give away

NO BROKEN BONES

Husband narrowly escapes nasty consequence!
However crutches demand usage. Sprained and bruised!
Dog survives :)
Son tells father..."I don't like you kicking my dog, I guess this gave you a good lesson Dad!"

A gift from Denise over at shorty bears place

Denise Writes:
Rodney Olsen of The Journey has come up with a great idea. He's calling it "Thumbs Up!"...and it's all aimed at highlighting positive things in the blogosphere:
"The blogosphere can sometimes be a pretty negative place so I reckon it's great to make a habit of accentuating the positive."I want to link to a number of bloggers who are writing positive posts each week."Do you want to be a part of the positive? You can post a thank you to someone, a list of reasons you're thankful this week, or highlight people doing something worthwhile in your community. You don't have to post every week but it'd be wonderful if you're prepared to make the effort to write a positive post most weeks.
Denise Writes..
So, now I can write about someone in my community, or something I am thankful for ...... but I have chosen to give out an award to someone, who I see as very up lifting!! I would like to give a great big thumbs up to my precious friend Donetta, over at "a life uncommon"she has been a real angel to me during my recovery from surgery. She called several times to check on me, she was such a comfort to both Eddie and me. She gave great advice to Eddie, about things he could do to help ease my nausea and pain. She has been in constant prayer for me, and I truly felt her prayers. I am honored to be able to call her my friend, she is a true heart blessing to me. Thank you Donetta for your kindness to me, I will never forget it. I love you my friend.
What a nice day to get a hug. There are those days when all you can do is keep focus.

Hear ye! Hear ye!

Hear ye! hear ye!
I am thrilled to announced that my Dear friend has accomplished becoming a Published Aurthur!
Michelle at Life in the midst of Writing has accomplished it!

buy it here!

On Humor. Carnival of Family Life.

Dogs are not gleaming quite so brightly today.

Carnival of Family Life Hosted by Sandier Pastures

humor...
I have been enjoying the uplifting, light kindheartedness of laughter this morning. It comes at a very timely phase.
I think one day that we will laugh about this morning. I was thinking why not today. Well for one, I would never want to be unkind over another suffering. My Beloved told me that it is often humor that gets him through the challenges of our "life uncommon".
He is home now sleeping on the couch. This is, in our 25+ years of marriage unheard of!
He is awaiting a doctor appointment later this mid day....
Well that is where humor could come in... It would be at great risk however, being so close to the storm.
Oh My Sweet Hubby!
I had one of those mornings...
You know the ones that you wonder why you need to bother to react to it at first because of the grove in the record. Don't know why you keep setting the needle down when its gonna do the same thing. For those of you youngsters who can't relate we used to play albums, you can look it up in an encyclopedia. In my youth when the music skipped we just bumped the player and it would skip to the next grove and the song would continue. Well that's the norm come morning in our master bedroom. Flanked on the floor of each side of our bed we have a large dog. Willy Wonka bar J. and Rena the queen. We have kept them in our room, even though, the album keeps getting in the rut for several reasons. The effect of their presence has been like having a infant all over again for the last two years of Willy's measured life.
As the album of our mornings slip into the annoyance of dogs scratching , Wills' jowl slurping and Rena biting her paws Hubby will snap his finger, SHISH them, demand no quiet and all manner of efforts to get that morning tune back, so he can return to sleep where he belongs.
Due to the laminate flooring if we try to put a different album on It would be awakening to "heavy metal"(as in what you doing mom?...oh, sleeping...) blaring with the audience (kids) hurling through the sky's (of our bedroom doors) and no end to the concert till 10 pm that night would be achieved!
There is a definition that comes to mind here..." doing the same thing and expecting different results :{ ", but dog gone it by the end of a day who has the forethought to change that old album!

So this morning armed with all the useless tricks, sent well into utter frustration, without forethought, the dog met foot with terrible effects...(dog is fine). Hence Husband sleeping on couch because he was in too much pain to walk back into work after lunch.
Sleeping now he is. So are the Dogs flanking me feet. For I too have to remove the needle off the grove to get some peace and quiet that the wounded man needs.
I'll keep you posted as to whether it is broken.
Mean while they will sleep in the bathroom if they don't just find another (whine) grove to disturb or slumbers song.

POST SCRIPT his foot was not broken ,sprained and bruised. see post

Friday Feist

{Featured Flickr Feast by Oh! It’s Max!}

Hosted by Christine

Appetizer
Say there’s a book written about your life. Who would you want to narrate the audio version?

The Poet Maya Angelou

Soup
Take the letters from your favorite kind of nut and write a sentence. (Example: Perhaps every avenue needs understanding today.)
almond

All Love must overcome novel demands.

Salad
If you could go back in time and spend one week in another decade, which decade would you choose?

I would love to go back in time to a simpler homestead with the work of keeping life for ones self. See my husband work a beloved skill, Parent my children in an age of innocence.

Main Course
Name a song that brings back memories for you.

Black Bird by the BEATLES

Dessert
Do you prefer to wash your hands in cold water or warm water?
I love Hot water the warmth is soothing and feels like it kills all that I don't welcome to live upon my skin.

Passing it on...

Christine from "are we there yet mom"
Wants to take me for a long walk in the woods.
I think that we just got to make that one happen!

Charity Grace This is a very nice place to visit. Come and enjoy the simple pleasures. She keeps a slow paced beauty that I have come to admire.
Gabi's World I have found a lovely place to go for a visit. She is an amazing woman who has a flair for life that is full of zest! I spent a lot of time here just enjoying myself and relaxing into her voice.
MoM of three girls I enjoy the posts of this dear mom. She has a very kind way about her posts. Knowing that kind = nice. I would like to pass on a little kindness her way. How pleasant I find my visits to her world.

8:40 few.... I just got in. Anyone know about "the Secret"

Hi all , Just got home from my 11 am exit to the city with dash.
My my ...my!
Before I left I was able to type the formal IEP request of testing letters. I spoke with a secratary at the special ed department. The guy in charge never called me back from back in May. Summers over into the end of the second week of school . I also left a message for the phycholigist at the local school. I informed both that it was my understanding that they now have 60 days to begin the testing I am requesting.
I got a call shortly before left and my Hubby's Father offered me a mid trip or end of trip respite of hospitality.
As I flew out the door the school psychologist called to tell me that it will not be until the 60th day that a 30 day extended slot will be a common norm until the kids are actually tested!!!!!!I let her know that it was federally obligated to happen in a order that I will be informed about. She proceeded to tell me that that does not gaurentee any intervention she strongly discouraged the speech therapy. I simply said well if there is any problem I'll just appeal for It is my role to get there needs met.
Having said all of this I asked her if she could please call dash to the office to meet me for I was now pushing the clock to get to the city and thanked her. I got to the school with copies of the formal request in hand. delivered them and signed Dash out gleefully to a happy meal and long drive.
We had a good success getting across town. Got a meal and then onto St. Joe's. I took Tuesdays paper work with me. We had a great meeting. The CRS psychologists was great. She was stunned at Dash and my repose. For she said "in all her 20 years she never heard a Mom say ("this is not an option but, a requirement")" . She had drop jaw as Dash respectfully walked out of the room peacefully and sat over at a play table just outside the door. I think I was startled at her. It is just the way it is.
The folks received Dash and I after I had spent several minuets trying to find an address for a place located dead center of the city I gave up and headed to there home to rest. I was running on empty and had all my paper work to get mailed out. I finished the paper work and napped 10 minutes ate and headed back at 6p.m. for the 7 p.m. Teachers conferences! I arrived home 6:45 out the door. Family together.

Now it is 10pm I just debriefed the day with hubby.
What happened at one of the teacher conferences blew my mind and I am miffed! I was told that if I just lived by "The Secret" that all of Doves problems would just work out fine!!!!!!!
Well more on this tomorrow. I am sure there may be truths to be had but talk about dismissals. I did however acquire the papers to get testing requested. The teacher who was on board last spring thinks we don't need an IEP that she can do what my child needs better than those who might be used to pull her out of class to intervene. AND that she knows who will teach her next year was a response when I told her that my kid will not hallways have her. IT IS SO HARD TO HELP MY KIDS!
Ya! Dash's teacher is helpful about the IEP and testing him.
Tired folks my sword is hot from all the wielding through the air today gotta let it cool!

Any one have knowledge about this...?
"THE secret" ?We saw the book on line. We saw some clip of a movie too.
Teacher says I just have to read it, that my child is feeding off of my negativity! She said that I need to just see all the good in her. It is so hard to focus an it when the needs are so glaring. Dash is not glaring the same way( of course I am getting help with his needs). It left me feeling really dung like :) ARG!!!!!!!!!

Good Morning, Up from the grave He arose!

Hi, It is 6 am I think beloved put me into my bed around 6pm last night.
I am doing better, we think the oven cleaner may have set this one off.
That was a bad one. I still have pain around the edged and feel sorta weak.
I have to take Dash to the city around 11:30 so I'll just do minimal, lunches and breakfast for every one. The dogs kept coming to me and pointing me. It is so amazing they can see or sense the migraines energy. I thank you all for your prayers. Sometimes it is a little scary when your misfiring brain takes you for such a ride. I was seeing 2-4 inch shadows of images around things and loss of balance well, any way lets focus on what I want to grow....

Dash's teacher called me last night. I was so touched by what she told me.
Dash is very kind at school so much so that all of the children are wanting turn to be at his table or as his partner. He is emerging a born leader. He is so on top of it that the teacher finds him making sure everyone has what they need. She said it is in no way like a controlling thing. He is just very business. School is a privilege and a responsibility to be taken as so and the teacher to be respected and honored.
She asked me for what she needed to have an eye for. With the Usher Syndrome (possible blindness/deafness at adolescence) we have to keep watch for visual anomaly's, blue lip with asthma, head ache and fine motor.
I must begin these IEP letters.
She said that she will be happy to work with him a little one on one so that I can get his 2x weekly city trip started up again. (it has been nice not do the city trips) . I have to take him to see the phycologist at St Joe's this noon.
I told her about the foundational work I have done with character training and she said the most amazing thing to me.
She said that I need to think about what a wonderful ob I have done and who that all that hard work I had done is now something that she and the others around him are benefiting from.
SHE said to ME..."You should feel so good about all that you have achieved".. I just sat there on my bathroom floor, with my head against the door and cried. It felt so good to see that I did succeed. I have felt so bad about not being able to finish the dream of home schooling. I did succeed. The kids are set well.
Dove is having some affiliation problems. The some kids have called her weird, beaver (she had to have surgery last year there was a maverick tooth in her upper palate that grew against her front teeth and had to be removed , she is due for braces soon. They call my baby beaver on the play ground and I am so hurt to think of that happening to my little girl . She is so sweet and loving. She is also so fanciful that I am concerned about her mental status. She is a 10 yr old and some of that must just be the age. She is so sweet. Her kindness yesterday was poignant. Her teacher really likes working with her. I have to get her visual tracking exercised and her IEP letter done too.
I have to do the lunches now it was nice to have an extra half hour but I gotta go to chores .
My love be around for you.
Be embraced,
Surrounded and encompassed.
The song "up from the grave he arose" is ringing in my thoughts, I can feel this monster coming on. I got to get it tamed. the city drive is at 11:30 my time. I might try to get to the school with letters. If I can get them typed after I drop the kids off at 8.

Migraine bad

bdloved geting me to bed im holding walls toniite
rejoyce i win it hutrs gor dash tooooceit y
thank you i do rjoyce in you intercession
i win iwin iwin iwin i nw
it hurts Good night
shower ved meds sunglassed and ear plugs
enemy firering behind my lines tonight
I win

A gift from Christine

Christine from "are we there yet mom"
Wants to take me for a long walk in the woods.
I think that we just got to make that one happen!

You have just gotta hear this....

So... I am in the door all of 2 minutes heading for my bathroom with some urgency: Dash stops me at the couch... "
Mom, I got something to offer you, (he begins, so serious that I pause to hear him) Mom if you let me work for you this is what I'll offer you... You see Mom I have $5 well a little more I will work for you one hour and you can give me $1, and if you'll let me work for you two hours you can give me $2...(This goes on and at ten he said)... and if I work for you for ten hours...he paused, well no maybe not thats a lot of hours.I don't think I'd be wanting to do all that( I cover my mouth cause the cute factor had a way of pulling up on my cheeks), but what you think Mom will you accept my offer? So what work do you have to offer Me Mom? I'd be willing to start right now if you have a mind too. :) "he smiles like you know you want me...:)

So all you praying friends... we spent the next hour at it. Dash said sorry your head was hurting you today Mom.
Dove gets an ear full of encouragement and he presented his case, and she joins in. They meet me in the master bath and hauled all the laundry out to the couch and Dove lifted it up (wow I wish I'd of thought of that long ago it was so easy to sort. I usually sit on a stool and do it) on the couch it did not hurt my back so bad. Then Dash carried all the trash cans to the kitchen and played with the dog. Dove vacuumed the master bedroom. We separated their two loads and the kids turned them out. Dove separated my kitchen load. We all folded the laundry kids putting theirs away without being asked !!!!!
They each cleaned their bedrooms and the received $1.50 each for a good hours work. When it was time and they thought to go to the store they choose to wait for if they do more tomorrow(!), they gain more money toward the $10 toy Dash has his eye on. HE knew he did not have enough yet. Dove complied and agreed to get more earnings after school toward a better toy! NO BRIBE just fact presented.

Oh my friends Migraine day.. Please pray for me.

Thank you.
Kids are home soon and the sound HURTS really like a stabbing knife. I do not want them to ever think of them selves with a knife for a voice. It is so hard. I am so hoping that "I" can be enjoyed, and enjoy them this afternoon. They are such great little people and they need me.

Wordless Wedensday

Time Travel Tuesday

Annie
Is hosting this week.
You're 21.
What's going on in your life?
Who are you spending most of your time with?
What's favorite things to do? eat? hobby?

I am newly married only three months. I am settling into nesting into my very first home. All of a glorious 900 square feet of paradise on earth. I am being loved like I could have never known was possible. I am being taken all over Arizona for camping and week end trips, My new husband plays the guitar for me every night and sings to me when he returns from his night shift job.
I planted daffodils under the two baby trees out front after I dug out the dirt. I am washing my clothing in the new (used) washer my new brother and lister-in-law gave us for our wedding. I hang them out to dry. The home is now no longer a bachelor pad so there is a lot of elbow grease poured out to make it nice.
I pack lunches and cook home cooked meals with joy. I am so very humbled to have a man that loves God that I am in shock.
I eat . I eat foods that fatten up my rail frame. I like it! We have popcorn the way I make it in the oven under the broiler I brown the buttered and salted kernels.
I have a large new family all around me. I see myself as gutter trash in the new family that, I believed I was accepted into, only because, "he" choose me.
I learned that the boyfriend I had left months before is dead.
I spend all the time with my new Husband, or with a sweet kitten named "Jasper". I work hard on the land and inside the home to create the very best out of it. I have plants hung from the ceiling and growing out like a sun burst across the sky. I Quilt a blanket for our bed out of the fabric scraps of my youth and of his youth. My new Mother-in-law gave them to me. Life was amazing. I had little to no contact with my family it was good. I was safe. It was Christmas everyday!

Tackle It Tuesday

Two cans say it all!
I wiped it out once. I sprayed the bottom again to let stand another 2 hours. It is actually a blue/slate gray interior! Ha! It is a self cleaning oven so being in the desert and not having ventilation I have not tried to use the self cleaner again after the first time (I thought the house was going to burn down).
Now they have this product said "safe for self cleaning ovens". I waited many years for this oven so I am sorta cautious about what I use on it.


5:30 Well it sure was not "FUME FREE"
Hubby walked up and shot me in a bit of pain trying to finish,my knee and back were not to happy with me, but I'm stubborn. Beloved made the famous oatmeal dinner of his.




Part way done.... Paper work is a long, time consuming job.

The last of the studio mess to be sorted and deposited around the house.


My aprons have full pockets to sort and deposit into various places.



So now , When I posted this I was committed,
or maybe you should commit me for posting it! HA!

Paper work to fill out and also a few bills for utilities to pay. (have yet to get to this)
SEE what a great
motivator!!!!!!!
Come join the motivated fun over at...
5 Minutes for Mom

God's recent Provisions. His Eye on the sparrow.

Hubby came home with this it had been sent to his folks house for him by mistake. Well I recently looked at a new razor and discovered how very expensive they are. I was delighted that day to find razer blades for my old personal touch. They were the last ones on the shelf and they were very cheep. However God just gave me this very fancy new one FREE! Beloved uses an electric shaver.

California King 360 thread count set for $15.,
A wonderful new Huge Mortar and Pestal $8. I have always dreamed of having one,
My very BIG splurge/ investment ...an 8 qt. aluminum clad Calphalon (made in America) soup pot (no more burned bottom) that matches my old set, that I collected, (I waited for so many years for) for $58. This is a $180.-$200. pot!! It has stainless steel handles that are beefy and high quality> YE PEE!!!!!

Tell me what God has done for you like this recently? How many ways have you been blessed with provision? Tell about it. It is said that this is what we are to be speaking about. The things that we have heard and seen and experienced in HIM.

Laundry Room tips and tricks.

I keep images of WHY I DO IT above the machines.

Sorry side ways image here,
I purchased a large pour spout dispenser and refill it.
By pulling it out slightly All that needs be done is to open the washer soap door, push a button.
This is a ergonomic approach. Save all energy you can to do the things you love to do.
By keeping an old cloth diaper under it all drips are absorbed.
The cloth gets washed every now and then.

Arm and Hammer (I can find lead in adds for this item half price) is a purchase I make usually at least 6 ( this week 2.99 for 32 oz.) of them at a time that is three/four months laundry. I have a storage outside for extra soaps, light bulbs pantry papers/foil.
A & H has no perfume or harsh ingredients (we all have sensitive skin).
After many years they now have a Downy that is fragrance free ( try to find it on sale it is not often so however). With allergies and Asthma under our roof we live preventively.

How do you load your Dishwater?

Show us your dishwasher!

I think it would be cool to learn from each other.