The last of a day.

I went to go visit with my beloved while he showered. He is so kind to me. He and I took turns napping and playing with the kids. I rested a lot today and blogged a fair amount. Dash and I played "go fish". Dove colored a prince and princess and Dash two star war fighters, life size. They also helped Dad clean the house up. I just held my head against the rocker all day and played on the blog. It got so boring after a while. I got up and cleaned out the refrigerator and paid for it dearly with throbbing so I sat back down with ice.
We all watched "Fried green Tomatoes"($5, at Wal-Mart) editing a few parts. Hubby fetched Chinese food. We are over budget just to have life but we let it go. I was able to eat it tonight! What a feast after days of soft and liquid. I am bleeding a lot and it is really gross. I just got up out of bet to brush and do another pain pill. My ambition and energy have been so low lately. I hope its just this infection in my bone and that I'll feel up to pep soon. I want to be more interested in playing and teaching the children. Sewing and crafting too. I hope that this blogging is not spoiling my balance. I do enjoy it. I just get to lazy I think sitting here and not being up giving the kids more attention, doing chores and art stuff. Considering my health I 'll give myself some slack. I really need to exercise. I am still awaiting the insurance query about the shots for my knee. Oh fun...NOT.
So I laid there and listened to Beloveds voice tell of the things on his mind. We remembered years ago a fluke we visited a church one day and happened to see Alice Cooper get baptized. Our lives have taken so many turns.
I want to have my kids see our life as good. Beloved shared our daughter said that she was sorry I was having such a hard life. Oh man, that mortified me. I want to give such a different picture to her of life. I must watch my words more carefully and not let her see life in a negative light. They have watched me suffer through so many painful health things I feel sad that it must wear on them. I have so many wonderful things in my life, the children being two of them. They have piers that have much younger parents strong of health and vigor. My bones are tired and sore and I feel so worn out all the time. Maybe this tooth thing is a big part of it. Without walking I cant get much exercise. The bone on bone with my knee is a real pain.
I gave Dove a nice leg massage and joint compressions tonight. and Cuddled Dash during the Movie. They are "camping out" in Dash's room tonight. They are such a delightful part of each day. They have become more independent and Dove is really stepping up as an active participant to help around the house more without being asked. Dash is a helper by nature. They both are being very considerate. They both however need some real good attention tomorrow. I think I'll do a girls thing with Miss Fiction and a board game with Dash. I hope I feel a lot less pain with the dry socket tomorrow tipping my head forward is unpleasant to say the least.
I want to want to sew, play , craft. finish up odd jobs. Be interested and accomplish. The Pain medication is keeping me in a lull too. I guess I'm rambling. processing the flow of thought a woman has late in the night. Thanks for being forbearing.
oh funny i just saw the scripture snip it for the new day... scroll down.