Week end in review

Thursday night we had a new invention.
Without any bread baked and the left over chicken already cooked...

Chicken and onion (home grown), dogs.
The kids flipped over this one.
Mao and baked chicken that it.
Better than a hot dog!??????????
cool! Better for them that's for sure. We use a kosher all beef, but still this is healthier.
Homemade salsa from the garden, I grew it!!!!
That is just the coolest thing to grow the foods!

Each day last week we had early morning visitors.
These two brothers come to our home and hang out front.
They obey their parents well and never come in.
They are sweet kids. One id in Dash's class and the other a 5Th grader. The parents must be absent in the morning for work.
The boys feel so safe as to walk the block or so here.
They have a bus stop close, but rather come here to wait.
Mother of many. I got to tell you I have witnessed bigotry toward these two great kids twice it really lights my fuse! I calmly just tell the boys they did not deserve to be spoken to like that. I tell them the person was disrespectful and in error. Tell them maybe that the person was having a bad day. I see it in the elder boy though how it hurts. To few folks are color blind.
My kids are raised color blind intentionally.

The kids are respecting the "no climb rule" that was set by the neighbor. You see it was "o k" if my kids climbed it....NEVER A PROBLEM...
well when we all go to the stop the kids all respect that it is her tree.
Her property. We would never want to over weigh the tree, or be liability of a fall.
The kids were saying that the tree was sad, it missed them in it.
They all touched the tree and could feel the life in it.
The elder boy could not understand that so I placed my hand on his.
His eyes opened wide, "I asked him can you feel my life?" Then I lifted my hand off of his..."now can you feel it?" He smiled wide
"I feel it"

Despite the news of the false mrsa and the punchy health on those meds we still had a garden to water.
Steve helped me by instruction, I had to stay out of the sun. He even washed off the onions for me. I have three times as many yet to pull up. When they fall over they are ready to pull.

Lesson taught me to wrap the onion in foil and not to let them touch.
I trimmed the greens and saved them as green onions. This worked well for some easy shish kabobs. I was barley able to put this dinner together . Somehow we ate and watched a show.
Then I was spent.

So easy to do, remember to soak the bamboo sticks in water so they do not catch fire.
Drizzle a little olive oil over with a dash of seasoning. I used a Cajun BBQ.
That was dinner.
I went to bed very early.

Next morning with water dripped all over me I welcomed Mothers day with joy!
Although I was in poor health, those kids and my husband just brightened the day.

Dove waited her turn while Dash gave a gift of many very thought out images, a collage.

Dove was so patient and Dash just was an empty reservoir.
He was so sweet!

Dove was so patient. She sure is growing up.
What an amazing letter, two page, she wrote out long hand for me.
She told me of a boy who "wrote out one lousy sentence Mom! he said he did not like to write."
She was so disturbed by it. She was really upset at the boy.
She also made some cool flowers of tissue paper.

My Sweet Steve gave me breakfast in bed and a lot of rest time.
He really pulled up on the dishes too.
Kept the wheels rolling with the coop and the poop (dog) clean up.
He really covered my back while I was down. I will still take it easy for me. :)

So sweet, she worked hard on this.
She said I shined like Gold.
:)

Dash came running back with a book and just wanted to have an endless supply of gifts he looked frustrated. He explained every detail, in detail. He really thought this out.

Well this morning you could tell I was off work a few days.
Steve kept up dishes but oh the life of a working home.
It just grows like a well watered flower.

funny how it grows.

and grows....

and multiplies...Well I know one thing for sure it needs me. {:)

Here's a tip slip...
Put that sun screen but the door and squirt them down on the way out!
I have a set up by the back door too.
I have yet to forget it, with it right there each morning.

The plants flowered on Saturday( the day of the funeral).
I transplanted the cacti I had purchased for the funeral.
My nephew loved the desert.
I took it up to his mother today and got to hold my Great Nephew.
Nico...

My niece is a beautiful young Mother who is very protective and thoughtful over him.
It was so nice to see her. It had been a year or two.
I listened to what mattered to her.
Then shopped accordingly.

Stopped by and got some soy (I am milk allergic) yogurts to down this afternoon.
Found some things to make the baby shower gift with.
I have yet to wrap it up or set it up as it were. I'll take a picture when I do.
I
We went to get the car this afternoon they had finished it.
We dropped of the 4 runner to get it detailed . To find out that the $300. It normally costs had be waived to $150.! It was a personal favor to the shop that referred us there.
I had thanked the girl. The shop did a great job.
We have the truck there till Wednesday so we can accomplish tomorrow.
It is a very full day to come.
I just could not do any more than is set to accomplish.
We told them to take their time and not to feel rushed.
The truck will be locked up indoors all the while.

Well now your all caught up with me.
Here I come to catch up on all of you.

Menu Plan Monday

Good Monday to you!
My meal plan is a bit easy this week.

There comes those times when we just need to slow down a bit.
Well this week I am on the mend.
So tonight they daddy man and his girl will have left over pizza
Dash and I a BLT, he has been asking for one for a while
I like to oblige the kids some their fancy when it is reasonable.

I use Pinto Beans to make my chili...
cumin and curry
cayenne
and tomato sauced.

Corn bread is the best with cardamon in it very sweet stuff!

I'll use a frozen mixed organic veggies in the stir fry and basmati rice.

My pintos are home made and blended with salsa, butter, water and cumin in the blender.

The cake is yet in the design phase. It will be my main focus this week. That and taking it a bit easy.

The Simple Woman's Daybook

For Today...

Outside my window... The chickens hutch now sits and they are at the moment quiet, that means that they are enjoying the shade. The water is on the tomato plants. The dogs sit in the shade and relax on the cool of the concrete. The feeders need to be filled. The lab howls to be let in. However the dust bowl left where he sits disallows it until either the heat of the day or when my arm is able to give him a bath.

I am thinking... WOW my shoulder hurts where the tetanus shot was given. I am so relieved of no mrsa, that the infection will heal. No more sick lady from big gun antibiotics. I love my niece and how do I gift her without the other nieces feeling left out from not having their babies cellibrated in the past by me. Hard to ballence so many many great nieces and nephews. The baby shower tomorrow night. I must get creative.

From the learning rooms... Rest all is quiet for a few days. I need to recover the infection in my arm. So all will slow down there this week.

I am thankful for... Rest, healing and all of the sweet fragrance of loving prayers on my behalf.

From the kitchen... Rest... I must do my best to make Steves breakfast cookies, and Doves un birthday cake for Saturday. Otherwise slow week for the kitchen. Radical for me.

I am wearing... Exercise navy pants that have a white and green stripe down the leg, and a bright summer green hoody top that is sleevless. A white gauze wrap around my wrist. Fatigue.

I am reading... Nothing...All books at rest.

I am hoping...Be strong enough to assist with the field trip to the nursing home with the 4 th graders tomorro. Also to be able to gift the kids with an art demonstration.

I am creating...gifts for pay it forward and thankful heart gifts, also baby shower gifts.

I am praying... gratitude, stillness and rest. For my sister and the extended family as they heal from the fresh wounds left by the suicide of my nephew. I did not attend the funeral and am concerned of offences caused...Sorta sad to have missed it too.

Around the house... Let it go...It will get done. Inch by inch...keep the garden alive and the tomato alive. Tend the living let all else be as it is and as I am able.

One of my favorite things... loving my husband and children by caring for myself first.

A few plans for the rest of the week... Field trip to a nursing home to assist with the 4th and 5th graders play. Supporting the kids as they interact in a geriatric ward. It can be scary for a kid. I will miss the "thank you " party for volunteers, to attend the baby shower for little one who is my Great Nephew. I think he is the 17 plus all the others of 10 other nieces and nephews I do not now about. He must be at least my 30th great nephew...( I am the last of 8 children) wow...On Wedsneday I have an art presentation and well as tTuesday afternoon, Thurday a cake to bake and Friday to decorate it and ready for the party on Saturday.

Here is a picture thought I am sharing with you...

Life
I will get to hold him Tomorrow.

Made it to the Emergency Department.

Great news!!!!!!!!!!

The infection in my wrist is not mrsa!!!!!!!!!!!

The Doctor at the urgent care mis diagnosed it. I have been so sick on the antibiotics,,so sick.
Today I decided to go around three o'clock. Last night on the phone when I call them it was going to be a 2 hour wait. The fellow said today it turned into a 3 hour wait.

I did not want to sit around for two hours with flu and such. So I waited through the day. Spent a fair amount of it pretty sick. With having chills and feaver in the night , by three this afternoon I decided to take the trip up.

Steve droped me off and took the kids home. I walked in and told them why I was there. There was a empty waiting room, so I waved Steve off only to call him later to come and get me.

I was called to the treash within 5 minutes of sitting down!
Then while there , a man who was very angry wanted to see a supervisor. I then watched the eyes of the nurse flair concern. Girls this man came right over my shoulder and the guy was raging! Insisting to see someone in charge. The nurse was a bit flustered and had just asked history when I had mentioned having PTSD....the man was in my space!!!!!!
I looked at her and said just using the tools and smiled.

The supervisor then came out into the area with a police escort. The nurse resleased me to wait in chairs then relized she was not done and called me back to place the allergy band on. I stood up and walked to the opposite space. I had warned them of the mrsa diognosis and was really trying hard not to touch anything. I had not been standing there but 5 minutes...then I was called to the beds.
The whole thing now only maybe 15 minutes in from the door.

The PA came in and looked at the wound, he said "thats not mrsa, did he culture it?" I told him no he just said such and gave the medication oral and topical, This guy concerned me... he touched the open wound with a gauze 2x2 and then put it bakc in the drawer! I said dont put that back in there! He was embarased OPPS! HE SAID

The doc came in no way that is an infection to the burn. NOT MRSA! The oral medication making me so very ill. Was way to strong and not called for. I only had had 5 of them thank God. The emunity is a serrious thing. He told me to stop them and keep it real clean and dry dressed with just the anti biotic ointment. It is an infection of the tissue under the surface of the skin. Just gotta rest and heal. Watch it does not climb up my arm or get hot, or read streaked.

I got a tetnis shot as well.

So thank you all for your prayers ...
I was signed in and out, and released
within 30 minutes of arrival!!!!!!!!!!!
At an ER
Now Happy Mothers Day to You all

As I awaited for Steve (who had just pulled in our driveway ) to come get me the ER filled up!!!
Person after person non stop as I walked out it was full!
The guy at the desk even said how stunned he was that I hit such perfect timing
:)
of course we know why...
Better go rest
Love you, love all of you...
That was some weekend.

I cancelled the attendence of the funeral

The mrsa has spread to my ear where my glasses rest .

I had the unpleasant task of excusing myself from the funeral tomorrow.
I called my sister. I
just felt terrible to cause her any more distress or unpleasantness.

I am VERY highly (or the mrsa is) contagious.
The mras is also known as the "flesh eating bacteria".

The baby shower for my niece is Tuesday.
I do not know if I will be well enough to attend and I sure would never ever risk anyones health to an illness for the sake of hurt feelings.

The oral anti biotic is taking me low, it is a real powerful, strong drug.
It has to be. I cant decide whether to lay down or sit up. Just feel yucky...

I am so grateful to be here is America where I can get well and have the medications needed to heal.
This too shall pass

Thank you all for your encouragement about the Mothers Day Meme.

It is my hope to encourage others to the freedom gained through forgiveness.
That no matter the reason....We are able to become able to forgive....
Take courage.
All things are possible.
That being the purpose of writing the meme.

Thank you again for the sweet out pouring of kindness.
I'll be alright , do appreciate your prayers...

Mrsa Attacted my wrist

Mrsa...like MERCY!

Hello,
I am not feeling well at all.
My arm has been really bothering me and this morning it was very hot and red, with little pimples around the wound...
I made a visit to the doctor and good thing I did. My wrist has a staph infection called mrsa, NOT GOOD.

I took the oral antibiotic and the ointment on a cleaned wound covered.
I within 10 minutes found myself violently vomiting at the thrown. You know that place where you earnestly pray :)

All research I read say it is human to human, probobly off a counter at the store.
cover your wounds...Big Dummy Here thought it better to let it dry out.

I am not another 10 minutes out from getting another antibiotic down me. I am feeling pretty bad.

Sure would appreciate your prayers.
Thanks.

me thinks I angered the darkness...
The LIGHT PREVAILS!!!!!!!!!!!

Mothers Day

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A Lesson in FORGIVENESS
In 2000
I had done a bible study on The commandment
"Honor Your Mother and Father in the Lord, this with a promise that it will go well with you upon the earth.

I was to be made ready to do one of the most courageous acts of Obedience in my Christian Walk.

On the Life Restored Blog is much of my life story...
Lets talk a bit about
Ruby Marie my Mother...

A young girl who at the age of 4 saw her white K_K_K father murder her Cherokee mother ( a slave in the hills of Tennessee in the 1910's) and cut her up and bury her in the yard.
Evidence was far to easy to hide in the hills.
My dear mother would be beaten if she ever went near that played....

Hard stuff yes.

My Mother told me at almost the last visit to "tell, tell all"


She told me that after I had visited her once...
Then a second time.
I was estranged from her for many years so that I could recover those things I suffered at her, and many others hands.
Hurt people hurt people...often those people happen to be their own children.

At 13 she was sold to a man who was 32.
She was sold for a house full of furniture.
That man was a leader in the 3K's and he had a 18 month old baby that was left after his its mother was deceased.

My Mother gave birth to twins soon after where the first born male was found dead on the kitchen table after on of their "meetings"
Not an uncommon event in those days.
For he was a part of ceremony.
The infant was part Indian.

My elder sister (the twin) and I are 18 years apart.
It was she who came back into my life while I was in hospital with flash backs.
She was the one who really saved me she confirmed the flash backs were a reality.

My Mom had sought healing in her last couple of years.
The therapist was working with my sister and refused to work with my mom at the same time.
Understandability.

My mother went on to bear 8 children in all
Marriage after marriage I think 8-9 in all.
She out living her last who was a Veteran.

So here I was after years of vowing She would NEVER touch my child...
Asked by God to forgive her and to even go to her at the nursing home.

I obeyed acting as if I was visiting Jesus himself.
That is how I began the maturity of healing with this spirit of a human.
Who had been locked into the darkness from such an early age.

I literally pretended I was visiting a prisoner.
After two visits it was Christmas time.
I allowed Dove this close not any closer to her.
I cried a river.

She got to see my daughter but I never allowed her to hold her.
This a vow I had made to God when He gifted me with Dove.
I was still healing for the things at her hand are unspeakable.

I forgave her.

I honored the OFFICE of Mother.
The woman I could not honor , But that was not what I was asked to do.
The scripture taught me to honor the OFFICE so that it would go well with me.

In doing so I was freed to become the best Mother I could be.
If I would have held hate or un forgiveness toward that office
I would then have disgraced it.
It would have taught my children to disgrace it also, it would have passed to generations.

As you can see by my posture it was excruciating for me to be in her presence.

She repeated what she knew.
She set me up to so many pedophiles that it took many years to recover.

I am telling you this for it is in seeing through "the human doing" that we might be compelled into the holy of holiest where we can see the heart.

This is my Daughter during that time.
Little and I kept her from my own Mother.
My skin would crawl in her presence.

Obedience is far more important than sacrifice.
That obedience set me free to forgive.
Never to forget, but yes forgive.
I saw her consequence of choice in her life.
The execution of hell tearing apart any hope of a life from her very beginning.

I had the support of one brother.
He was a help.
He understood my boundary and guarded me my vow.
I was kind yes, but kept distant.
How I wept the loss.
I never had a Mother.
I had a wounded child rise me.
A Mentally Ill Mom.

Dove was her second to the last (Dash being her last) of almost 30 grand children.
She never met Dash.
She spent her later years estranged from almost all of her children.

Dash was born two weeks after her death...
Ironic isn't it.

I was a newly wed bride, she and my sister moved here to be close.
My husband had to set a boundary and disallowed me to speak to her for two weeks.
She had total mind control over me.
It was unbearable.
It was the best thing he ever did.
She would have bled us dry in so many many ways.
The dear woman was a master manipulator, but she was able to get her needs met through "victim Mortar"

We tried a few times to share our lives but every time it would lead me to a very tenuous emotional state.
I had to part ways.
I thought I would die.
I had to walk away from my own Mother so that I could stay among the living.
Think of it.

This sweet kind Jeckle and Hyde was my dear Mother.
The pain, fear, anger, sorrow,and guilt of being her daughter
has made me an amazing woman.

She gave me that!
Her kind side is where my hands learned to be open.
Never a Veteran would ever go unnoticed.
To this day I hold that as a priority in the presence of one who served my great country.
I am one patriotic woman.
If our Flag ever to fall I run to stop it from touching the ground.

I got that from her too.
When she was 12 her dad refused to buy her shoes to be able to attend school.

It was in the early thirty's that the Nazi's came to hold groups in the cities trying to recruit kids after the depression.
They would hold great rallies where they would salute hitler
(lower case intended)

She was terrified.
It was understood that if the street gang knew you were not with them...
Well strong 3xK's in the area.
She knew what her dad and the group were capable of.
There was no escape for her.

My parents shown here divorced when I was an infant.
I took pride in doing the "right thing" and invited them to our wedding.
It was the first time they had contact of any manner in 20 years.
It was the first time I had been with her in a two years.

I honored her at me wedding.
It was so hard.
Do you know the bigotry against fat people...
I was raised with it in my ear!
I still have to hear it now and again and I hate it!

Growing up was hard
She worked at the gas station 12-15 hours a day and my step dad was a violent man.
He was crazy. Yes literally with an illness treated with penicillin.
I turned hard...
I worked from the time I was 9...Now I can see she was trying to keep me attended.
I slept very little, was not allowed to do homework...
Now you know why My Education is so important to me.
It is a promise I gave myself.

It was not always that way...
I tried to be her friend...but I was an extension of her beauty.
She had no self.
I was her, I had NO self.
I was paraded around as if she deserved (thirsted for) all the accolades.

I was called by God to go to her again the following February.
It was Valentines day...
It was a tough day...I could not find her and thought for 5 minutes that she had died, but they had moved her into another room.

She was incoherent.
I told her that we were going back to Russia to get Dash.
she began to relive the "dead son of hers, she said that..."the Doctor said to just keep her pregnant and she wont miss it (the baby)."
My mother said ..."I did not kill him, they did."
Dove was with me and so I left to get her away from there.

A few days later I heard God say Get prepared she will be going home soon...
I called my MOLove and asked her if...she was available to care for Dove.

I received a call.
I rode with her to the hospice...

The Gift My Mother Gave me...

"Momma if you can hear me and your with God tell Him what you might like me to sing to you...I can hear Him"
Out of my mouth came.
"She'll be comin' round the Mountain when she comes...
She'll be comin round the mountain when she comes...
She'll be comin round the mountain
She'll be comin round the mountain
She'll be comin round the mountain
when she comes.

We'll all go out to meat her
When she comes

We'll kill the old red roster when she comes...

We'll all have chicken and dumpling when she comes...

She will be riding six white horses when she comes...
This I came to learn from an elder sibling some time later was her favorite song.

Then...
My dear readers she gifted me with her last word...

Donetta, God Bless You Donetta

She is my Mother...I love her...

I am a Better Mother having known her.
The spirit of a shell of a woman.
My Mother...

Thankful Thrusday

Thoughtful kindness
it wrapped me up
words so sweet tied me in a bow
Sent through the air like a song on the wind
it was a serenata to my soul

Thank you for all your kind comments.

Seeing all those years of my life
gave me a day paused in anger of it all.
I suppose it is in that, a gift of strength
I was given
not a pleasant day for me...

I pushed through the day
This my goal
I found every trinket
a symbol of life
Those days that I knew.

While I was out with the family the night before they took me to the
Hobby lobby
All charms 50% off so I got 8 of them (2 for a $1.50)
The rest were a collection acquired over so many years.
So yesterday just for me I set to task
With a broken pliers
I pressed on, 6 hours I spent doing...
No chores no duties
just sat and created this
My gift to me.

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Dove called it all of my talents
She is so perceptive it really nailed it.

I have been nursing this burn on my wrist all week.
WoW it is a painful wound!

On tuesday afternoon my children took the phone into the bathroom
A covert opperation
Hubby comes home half an hour early...

Well I ,(embarrased) grab the chicken out of the refrigerator and put it in the sink to prepare to bake it.
He reaches over and touches my hand...

The kids and I thought we would take you out for your birthday tonight, instead of tomorrow...

When asked what I would like for my gift I tought ...
Well I do have a tree in the budget for the yard...We need a tree...
We went to three nursery's...all were closed.

When we were on the way to get a meal out... in conversation...
Steve proceeds to tell me of a radio show where a business just gave all of their employees a 10% raise!
The company much like us were living on the principles of NO DEBT...Hobby Lobby!
My heart flipped!!!!
Hobby Lobby! He looked at me and I blushed...he asked "would you like to go there instead for your birthday gift?"

Oh. Oh. Oh! yes I would!
So off we traveled, to our surprise we were only about a mile from there.

Steve took the kids for a walk,
I got to just peruse the store for a good 45 minutes,
choose what I might like for my birthday...
This is what I chose.

It was so cool all of this 50% off!
Within my self imposed budget.This is for my pans.
My back is so sore sometimes getting down to get them out from under...
It is not an easy thing when you can not bend down on your knees.
We had talked of looking into one of these some day.

Isn't she beautiful!

These for the front door
When we had our house before this it was a Victorian (Edwardian) decor.
I missed the doorway I had created and this is my way of saying "this is my home".

Thank you for the sweet cards...
I had a better image but it showed too much :}

This morning a child's mom stopped by to say hello.
She is old of work so I shared some food with her.
We had a nice cup of coffee together.
Please pray for her family, her mother had a lung removed Monday and she is having complications.
We do not share the same faith, yet we are able to enjoy each other.
She really likes me a lot and like to take tame and be with me.
If We can shine "light " into each other.
I know where my light comes from...
She respects that and still enjoys being with me...perhaps one day.
I do show her and her culture respect and do not provoke a divisive "re-action" to our difference.
We are able to have a level of mutual respect and pleasant conversation.

I puzzle her. She does not understand my resiliency.
When she has ear I will make it much more clear to her.
It was a nice time of mutual support.
She had gifted me this box.

Funny....
two days ago I had one in hand at the dollar store.
I told God that I would let him supply it;)
I told he I had done so.
It meant a lot to her.
HIS ways are above ours.

OH MY GOODNESS!!!!!!!!!!
Excuse me , but I just got a call from my BIG brother .
He called to wish me HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!
It has been many many years (6 yrs) sence we have spoken!
He then had to excuse himself to call me right back for he got a work related call..
I better get off of here for when he calls back.

He called back and we had a great talk.
Wow He loves me...

Thankful on this Thursday!

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He has numbered my days...

“Before I formed you in your mother’s womb
I chose you.
Before you were born I set you apart..."



Indeed I am composed and quiet, like a young child carried by its mother

I will make you a fisher of men...
Suffer the little children to come unto me,
For theirs is the kingdom of heaven.







When I was a child I thought as a child...

I will restore the years the wormwood has eaten.
The two shall become one...

I will create in you a new heart and a new mind the former things will all pass away...






You shall be called Mother of many...
For this thing He has promised you, he is faithful in fulfilling...I will bring you into a new land....

I have come that you might have life...
and have life abundantly...

I am Glad I was born...
Today is my 48th birthday.

Like a vapor it passes
If by reason of strength 4 score and 20...
And yet it fades like the grass...

I have known you
I have called you by mane.

I have given you a new name...

Tenacious Vivacious White Raven.