Gratituesday

Good Evening

This sounds like a healthy new meme for me.

This day I was so fortunate to get into the neurologist at 9 a.m.

I had called yesterday on the way home from the appointment with the other care provider.

I spoke at length with the Neurologist.

He stands in wonder at my survival. He asked me about the severity of my sexual abuse and the murder that I witnessed and as to whether my parents were involved (they were).

He then told me how the brain gets so damaged by the cortisol that it can sever the sections of the brain from storing memory and information properly. That felt somewhat encouraging.Perhaps that may be the cause.

He has actually educated himself on some new findings of how Post Traumatic Stress Disorder can effect the brains functions for a life time. I must say it was wonderful to be respected. Although we may still be facing the big "d" it may not be that, or as he put it there are many types.

I had the blood work done today, a full dementia panel. They will have a person come to the home for a special test for the DNA marker for those who have a marker showing potential for Alzheimer. This is as he put it being through. I must lay it down. I am so ....trusting God (I am working on this here) trusting God to protect my health care coverage.

I will receive a call from the MRI department to set that up once the blood work proves I am healthy enough to have the contrast dye for I have one MRI with an one without the contrast. This is to see if the lesions on my brain have changed again.

The appointment for the EEG will be held on the 28th unless a cancellation comes through. I will have to be sleep deprived no more than 4 hours of sleep no caffeine!

How wonderful it is that I am so well cared for .

The young woman was so very very kind!

She went so far out of her way to expedite the testing so that I am not left in this unknowing for any longer than possible. Every time she said that word.."d" I just shudder and felt like it was trying to knock me out of His palm. Yet I remained there.

Once all the reports come in then I will be sent back to the specialist who will then know what battery of psychological testing to do. Depending where the damage is located. We will have to attend the report with him. My husband will also be interviewed.

Then I go back to the neurologist, the psychiatrist and the MD.

It will be at that point we will have the answers that I so long have neglected myself from obtaining in my disobedient fear for the last two years.

How very GRATEFUL I am to have the way of escape in being lost in the palm of his hand. Letting go of it all.

My big sister told me "Lay it down...If you lay it down you live in faith"

That is faith to lay it all down.

How amazed I am to hear that from her.

Perhaps she has come to know him.

My husband came home from his full time job with an offer from a company that wants to hire him part time! This may be the very way God provides for the savings and budget to get accomplished. We so desire to follow with our goals. $1000. cash fund for emergencies, 3-6 months saving of income. (Dave Ramsey Plan). Then we get to have a vacation!!!!!! the first in so many many years.

I am concerned of his absence and health.

I love my man and I will really have to lay it down not to miss him so bad. It will also call upon me to pull up the slack of his absence.

To whom much is given much is required.