Wordless Wednesday

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Just in time for long sessions of physical therapy!

How to have and maintainance of a food Pantry

If you were to visit a well run restaurant kitchen you would find a well managed pantry. Perhaps you would see gallon cans to our pints but the same principle applies. My Mother had a cafe when I was a child. She made her best income on well prepared dishes that were the least expensive to prepare. The balance between being efficient and minding the costs.

I have a collection of cake pans (I make the birthday cakes for our family and sometimes for friends) on penny nails (no head on the nail) Hubby pre-drilled and set them. Also He pre- drilled and mounted very large cup hooks that hold my baskets.

Right wall/ back wall upper. I keep glass jars high up. these sauces have no high fructose I found them on clearance when a local store remodeled recently. They are normally very pricey.

Right wall second/third shelf. All of my spices and herbs are here together. I use basic main foundational ingredients. I am a mad scientist! This is where the joy of cooking comes in. I use mostly herbs good for type O or type A. If it is a beneficial there is a lot of it if it is a neutral I also have it. I try to avoid the purchase of things that are avoids for O/A types. I am not legalistic but thoughtful of this. I will splurge at times but it will not be the norm of what we consume. I prepare meals from the fundamental ingredients, cheating here and there as times can get you wherry.

Right wall third/forth and floor. Can goods are kept at the lower level here, I buy certain things and when on Lead in add or on clearance(If the dates are good) I stock up. I tell God what I have need of and then never fails I have a great buy at one of the stores on it that week. I keep a mental (once it was a paper) inventory of what items we regularly buy. I find coupon, of little use unless dry goods,,they are limiting because I seldom buy pre prepared stuff (again spoken liberally). We shop at a Costco and buy paper and plastics in bulk for a lot less (but not always less some lead in adds are smokin')

Right hand wall floor. Did you know they no longer use pinto beens to make refried beans. They use the lesser white bean. So I buy big cans of pure pinto "cheep" and make my own for a big meal and I have them for the snacking family (chips and beans or burritos for 10 cents each)

Thats the upper back wall with the glass and my tea selection. Tea is very medicinal and healing. I use teas for many different things. I keep a variety for my girlfriends too.

Upper left is where I keep the stock goods over purchased on clearance. I just go shopping here when I run out of my staples. Honey and the sugars are up high too. Not that it matters now they can reach! :) I ask for Paper bags and recycle them, dog dung, crafts, take away stuff or give away stuff.

back wall and left side. I buy vinegar in huge containers for we have hard water here and this is how to clean a glass shower stall:) Once opened the children's cereals are placed into jars. On the floor are very large jars of sugars, baking soda(too many uses to count), rice. Buy buying in bulk I have the control over the cleanliness of these things. In Arizona we have a lot of mice and illness is common. Soda cans are the worse. By washing your cans before you open them you can do a lot to keep your family safe. I use a pampered chef can opener. It cuts the side of the can not into the top.

All items on lower shelves are in Plastic containers I have recycled and collected over the years. If a food item is contaminated it is isolated and can easily be discarded (outside) but never in a house trash can. The children's milk is kept low so they drop it less and it is easily accessed by them. I buy it by the case. Once I belonged to a co-op but it proved to difficult with the kids.

Bay lief is how I keep bugs away( I hate adding poison into my habitat)! I use this in all my cupboards and under the sinks throughout the house. Just refresh it every once in a while. This container was only .38 cents at a health food store. Buy the herb not the containers at the grocery store.
I hope this has been helpful to you.
Donetta
My dry goods (plastics, paper, soaps and so on) are stored else where

Tails from the scales Weel #1

Wow! I lost 2 pounds! The scale is temped to say three.
I had my knee injection on Friday an I walked around the block Monday once in the morning and once in the evening. I Celebrate me.
My Husband declared "I eat what you eat!". Boy did that boost my success.
My eating for your type is fabulous! Feeling better and with type o you have certain things you stay away from. For some 25 years I had bowel problems, and I faced a bag at one point. I would be constipated for up to 14-18 days at a time. Then I would be so ill for 24 hours of both ends that Life was better lost (seemingly). I have kept to my type increasing in discipline over the last two years and that has gone away. Coffee had been a hard one for me for caffeine really helps when your parenting at this age. Green tea and other teas are much better not black tea. Acid is a problem for type o's so coffee is hard on us it harms our joints....
I did not do coffee this week. I used green tea and food. Yes food the wonder cure. It is just that I ate the right foods for me. I get another Synvisc injection on Friday and I start physical therapy this morning.

Mother- Daughter Carnaval~ Eye Contact

October 01, 2007

Mother- Daughter Blog Carnival

My pal Sarah at Real Life has started a Mother-Daughter Blog Carnival,
Here's what she has to say about the Carnival:

We moms face many issues as we travel on the journey of motherhood. As a mom of three girls, I've found that raising girls has it's own unique set of joys and challenges, and it's fair share of DRAMA!! I looked for a blog carnival catering specifically to mothers and daughters, and I couldn't find one. This is not to say that it doesn't exist, I just couldn't find it. So I decided to start a new one. (What is a blog carnival?)

It will be hosted by" One Day at a Time"

Eye Contact

My Miss fiction is a very sweet 10 year old. Today she anounced that the school has given her a speech evaluation. When I asked her what the woman looked like she said she had very dark eye brows. She had only looked at the womans eyes. She can not remember anything else.
Eye contact.
A simple thing to most of you mothers a hard won thing for us. Most of you know my girl was adopted at seven months and had never been touched. So for her we had a big journey into eye contact. All of the things that are normal and expected for most of you Mothers, happen at expected intervals. Not so with a special needs child.
The one thing that causes me more of a challenge than any thing in my parenting with my daughter is the very thing that makes my daughter so charming and dear to be with.
Her heart is good. Her motives are good. My girl lives in fiction, a world of made up characters and events that even at 10 years of age become so vividly real to her that the reality of her surroundings is blurred. So many items around here are broken each day and so many role plays present present dangers that I MUST always be on my alert. It can tire me and discourage me to no wit. It also inspires and impresses me. It is also so wonderful. Imagination is powerful and she sets wing and believes she is flying. Most kids pretend they are but to her SHE IS!
How hard it is to feel like I must always correct or defer her antics to keep the peace between siblings, to have them both safe. This child would grow to make an amazing director. She feels, sees and smells as if it were real around her. All that is real around her disappears until you speak her back into the moment.

She is so athletic, I think we let her down in this. With a variety of reasons we cant keep up a extracurricular class or lessons. She is so strong. In school she would be great in sports. She being the only one in our family who would advance, or take interest in them (except the interest she compels).

She is growing up and is so cute she came to me to talk tonight while I was in the master bath. She took a favorite essence oil and we made a jar of her favorite lotion. Peppermint/Lemon was her choice she was delighted to create it. We were having a great time together . She began her bath, and all of a sudden she was in the deep ocean and the waves toped the tub onto the carpet she was startled at what she had done and felt remorse. It was so beautiful to hear her in her marine world and then the let down into the reality of (the cleaning needing to be re-dune and the candles all wet). Non of that must matter in a way, yet it can be so frustrating. I just stopped. Watching her swish her hair out under the water as if she were an aquatic mammal. She spoke of the sea and how she wondered if she came out of the water. I told her of the water of the womb she grew in. I KNEW IT! I knew I came out off the sea!...Said she.
She has a beauty that I can not hold it is like the waters flowing through my hands and evaporating onto the bathroom carpet, full of joy untill the moment hits her with the remorse of what occurred back here on dry land.
Oh the paradox, and the beauty. May I keep her spirit alive through all of this.

Tackle It Tuesday

Good Morning! After referring a dog scuffle over "blue bone", having a quiet time with my Abba Papa and doing the morning tasks (breakfast, packing lunches and feeding of the dogs) I dropped the kids off at school.
When I returned I walked around the block with my cane (just in case). Last night at the 7/8 th's point it was a hurting.

the scuffle continues right now Rena the Queen is the clear winner. This will continue for they are in one of their moods. They do have other bones,, Blue bone is the favorite.

Willy vying for position.

before

After 7:30 p.m. NO MORE WORK TONIGHT!
So happy Tackle! This is my focus today. I'll need to vacuum and dust and such. Change the linens and make the bed. This is the first time I have aloud you to see my most prized material possession (well it is on the list of the top 5) Do you see what it is? It has such a sweet story I'll have to share it one day. I made those drapes God gave me fabric $2. a yard I did that at the same time as the living room ones. It dictated the color scene. I used a color wheel . Rose was the primary due to the carpet. The whole house had that rose carpet in it. Some day I would love to get a silver gray.

This is all a mess. When we gave the kids their own rooms we confinscated this television. We do not like them in bedrooms. Including our own. However we have no other good place to store this gift. Yes, gift. When the plant closed down several of the girls entered my husbands name for the televisions that were in the cafeteria. Well he came home with it. Our other one in the living room is really the gift this is the old one that was displaced. It is in good working condition and we saved a long time for it. We gave one other one away and thought we should hold on to this one. It was in the school room then the play room. Now it is going to live here. Although I do not like a T.V. in my bedroom it has served well after surgery or when I am laid up.

Do you think I need to dust? It is a dry heat here and a dusty land! That beaded lamp I did, it took 6 months for the pair of them. That was before the purchased fringe they have now. I was young and did them with a needle. My first bedroom colors were blues and burgandy.

before
This is a mess! I have laundry but I think better of it than to try to carry it out today. I think perhaps I'll have the kids carry it and just wait. Close my eye to it and work around it.
I had hubby carry the laundry to the couch (it is much easier on my low back if I sort it from the hight of the sofa rather than sitting on a stool on the floor) to sort it tomorrow after my therapy appointment.
after...


Years ago Leann a sister in Christ Gave this calligraphy on nice paper to me. She is gone now at her own hand. The battle took the best of her. I decoupaged it a long time back and placed shells around it. It is the Proverbs 31: text. It daily reminds me of my role and to never give up on it! Making it was a part of my grieving and healing her loss. Suicide happens one failed step at a time over several years sometimes. Watch your footing make good choices. It is a dreadful road.

"Happiness is being married to my best friend"
hangs over beloveds towel to remind him what really matters most to my happiness.

We see our wedding photo every day. I keep them before our eyes in our private space.

The rocker has a load of kids stuff on it to put away.

A good meal leaves a good sized mess. I took the kids on a nature treasure hunt around the block after supper last night so this was neglected.
I cleaned that mess up an made another by cooking tonights supper, but I am just too tire to do it.

Tools of the trade. I do my own pedicure.

A pedicure for me today! I start therapy tomorrow and I don't like to have people handle me. It is real hard for me to do physical therapy. I have been forced repeatedly to challenge this over the many times of recovering from the car wreak and the surgery and such. Once again I have more to learn in this court. So if I have to play I will do what I can to help myself feel less self conscience.

My husbands Paternal Grandmother told me I have beautiful feet. I used to go and clean her two nails and soak them so that I could clip them for her. They bothered her so badly. She would lay my head on her. She was very elderly and shook from a neurological problem. She would pat my head and tell me how lovely I was.
She was the first woman who showed me gentleness and kind touch. I was in my later 20's.
She is another who I could tell such wonderful stories of. How she left to go home to be with her God was so poignant.

Well here goes ! See you in the middle.
This is a great motivator!

The Mathetes Award

"Denise", Just awarded me with the Mathetes award...I began to cry, I cry when I am loved. Thank you for your sweet release. It felt good to be loved, to cry.



Mathetes is the Greek word for disciple, and the role of the disciple (per the Great Commission) it to make more disciples. I'd like to take the opportunity to award five other bloggers with this award and badge for acting in the role of a disciple of Christ. These five all share the message in their own creative ways, and I admire them all for what they do.

In the spirit of this award, the rules are simple. Winners of this award must pick five other "disciples" to pass it on to. As you pass it on, I just ask that you mention and provide links for (1)this post as the originator of the award (Dan King of management by God), (2) the person that awarded it to you, and then (3) name and sites of the five that you believe are fulfilling the role of a disciple of Christ. If you know of other deserving recipients of this award, and would like to start a new string, then please post a link to where you've started in in the comments to this post. I would love for many deserving bloggers to be blessed with this recognition.

I have some time tonight to pass this and another on. I find it so hard to leave any one out when I pass these on so I often like to spread it around. So very many of you are so very deserving of every good thing. I wish I could make you all cry tears of loving kindness, embracing all of your tender hearts.
Denise you so have been a light. I am humbled to be spoken to and given this by you. I began to cry like real way down open it up and let it all out cry. It is not easy to walk in the right choices, or to live in the right way. All around us we are pulled. At times even ridiculed in this world for choosing the higher road. It is often a road with the suffering and compassions that call from us everything we are and have. He provides within us and through us. It is His example that we simply admire.

"spiritually unequally yolked"
"Real Life"
"JD's DAZES"
"Tales from the Scales"
These are all people who live the life that is effected by the worse of humanity and they live it with grace.

Well now... I'm Fabulous! :)

Well now this gave me a chuckle!
Denise at "Shorty Bears" passed on this totally fabulous award.
What a sweet heart! Please visit her blog .

This award was designed by Mike At Ordinary Folk and was originally offered by Christy of Totally Fabulous.
She says the award is for
“Bloggers who are fun, cool, and of course Totally Fabulous!”.
I will be passing it along too:

"Flip flop"
"Are we there yet Mom?"
"Gumbo Lilly"
"Gracious Hospitality"
"In the life of a child"

Marriage Monday

"Chrysalis" is hosting Marriage Monday

Tonight the kids had some left over spaghetti (Oh joy!) They cheered at the news. I often give them some supper just after school. Strike while the iron is hot. They eat healthy foods then snacks can pleasure them later. With my Beloved arriving home late (10 hour days our new norm.) eating when he first gets in the door is a must. Especially on Mondays. He hold a mens support group hear on Monday nights.
I am now eating for my type (see other post).
I told him I was not sure if he would like what I fix. He said ..."I will eat what you eat"
I celebrated and even lit the bbq (this would have been a lot harder to do if it were just for me).
Well I just saw it come together and I got the heart hugs for him, We even had a candle. The kids were sweet and gave us uninterrupted time.
Now this was for Him. As he walked in I set the foods on the table. The phone rang, a brother was on the phone and needed him (he was called from a store and needed the info, I told the guy we were just sitting down to a candle light supper...) Well Hubby had 20 minutes to spend 5 was on the phone. It was not for me it was for him. I began to feel a little less than treasured as the conversation swerved toward feet smelling, a burp and so forth (NO expectation, I entered this meal with no expectations). I found myself a little hurt. Then I just had this switch inside that thought about something he said about feeling empty. Well this was for filling him up. As custom the guy arrived 10 minutes early! so we scarfed the last few bites. The guy pulled up a stool and began to talk about dogs licking wounds and spider bite wounds and showing us his burn on his arm that his dog was licking! yuk!!!!!!!!
So I stacked the plates and remembered this was ironically testing me to think about WHO that meal was for. My husband hugged me and thanked me for the Meal and then the men went out to talk and listen hopefully to each other.

Synvisc knee injections

I got the bill today for the Synvisc shots.
It cost $706.08!,and guess what!
Insurance paid $706.08
I owe Nothing!
I only have a $15. co-pay x 3
isn't God Good!

Organize your home. Affairs and life.

Kathy in WA said...

Wow - explain this amazing white board a bit, if you have time. Is this something that will stay up all week? How long did it take you to plan everything out?

Love it!

Duckabush Blog

This stays here and I keep it running (it still needs this weeks updates). It has a list of things that intentionally bubble to the surface. Some things are not so much a priority but I don't want to forget them. I did the menu last night quickly for I had a guide out of a reference book. It has menu, daily to do that become priority, the honey do list,Tackle it Tuesday list, It also has the to "BE" list caring for our mind and education, body notes (appointments and self care)) Relationship reminders too. Finance is done on a different board and paper for more privacy. It is just as important to give time to the things that grow my mind, and nurture my spirit (the arts and study).

My husband brought this home for me when the plant closed. It is a wonderful old board. I have to clean it well with the proper cleaner sold to do so 2-3 times a year. Using color helps me to organize my thoughts.
This is the "big Board" Home central. Operation Central, my home is my business. Every business that is successful needs a general business plan. A plan when a habit will flow for itself in times of crisis. Our lives have been lived in and out of crisis. We are raising two kids with special needs they are 10 and 6 now. This is the old home school board. When I was no longer able to manage both home school and the home , lives and all other responsibilities the children began school locally. Thank God it is a great school.
The big board replaced my yellow pad. The yellow legal pad was what I used for 15 years or so , but kids love to take over your paper pads so after much challenge I now use this.
It is also magnetic so I can place "do it now" or use it now coupons on it to grab on the way to my purse.

It is hung centrally just outside the pantry door( big help in menu prep), near the refrigerator and half way between the other major work zones the laundry room and the garage where I have the deep freezer and the spare second hand refrigerator.

It is in view of my husbands office at the end of the hall. He can see the list of "To do" in the upper corner as he enters the kitchen.
Note the kids toy baskets outside their rooms ( I toss the toys they leave out into them) . They need to be put away, Monday mornings can be like that.

Well I hope that answers your query Kathy.
My mind on the wall. You can read my thoughts! :) Ha!

Manic Monday Orange

"Miles to go before I sleep" is hosting

"Knock Knock"

"Who's there?"

"banana!"

"banana who?"

"Knock Knock"

"Who's there?"

"banana!"

"banana who?"

"Knock Knock"

"Who's there?"

"banana!"

"banana who?"

"knock knock"

"Who's there?"

"Orange"

"Orange who!!!"

"Orange ya glad I didn't say banana!" :)

Menu Plan Monday

"State of Confusion" is hosting this week. I find this was a great motivator.

I am starting my 30 day type O plan this week and the family will just have to enjoy the fixings. I can amend a bit.

Sunday Scribblings

Sunday scribbling offers a chance to write on various topics,
this weeks is power.

For all of my life I have often wondered why folks pursued the power of control over others. Of course we all know in part it is to make them feel superior all powerful. Fear of being over powered by need, greed or want. Nothing can touch them. I suppose it is true that after a time nothing can touch them. They mistakingly think they are invincible. Yet it is usually the meek and weaker that they are empowered over. They can provide everything they want or need and force others into their bidding. Hearts become harden to others around them and they do become untouched by those they so horribly effect.
Unfeeling and self consumed.
For me I have somehow always know that the true power is in kindness. I am not speaking of the gullible week kindness that allows harm to come upon ons self. Rather a kindness that examples the very innate need that every breathing thing requires. The power of security. In kindness is the very offering that those who loose all, come to pursue.
When those who live by the sword encounter the sword they beg for mercy, for kindness.
Those who harm others are confronted with their crimes they beg of the court...mercy kindness.
Kindness is power.
I won because of kindness.
By forgiving I overcame all evil.
It is through kindness that I am empowered to grasp for understanding when everything in me is restrained from lashing out!
That is all power.
For when kindness lives in me I am exampling the greatest kindness ever offered humanity.
Even in the smallest of acts it is a simple kindness that will win over even the hardest of hearts.
Kindness will set free those who were worn by controlling people.
Those harmed by others are set free in the choice the very acts that are based in kindness.
For Kindness is Power!

Aloha Friday

My friend over at Island life is hosting a new meme
I'm a little behind this week.
She will post a question, for more on this go on over to her place.
What one special talent would you like to have and why?

Ultimate wisdom so I could do the right thing and say the right things.
I would be able to have the words that others need to help them with life . So that it would go well for them and for myself.

Sunday Smiles

At Spiritually Unequal Marriage

(photo taken last week)
Hello, I hope this fine morning is bringing joy to all of you.
The kids are very busy this morning playing pirates.
After sleeping through the night! yes, 7 more hours after! And sleeping most of the day yesterday.
I am rested. Wow! I have not rested so well in some great time. Walking was even easier today! :)

Beloved and I laughed so hard last night. I just got my tickle bone a going. He came to bed and I had replaced his pillows for him (they were under my knee) He was a little chilled after his shower he went to lay down and startled, he quickly bolted out of bed! "What the heck!" tehee...teehee... It was the ice pack! I got to laughing "man that was cold" exclaims he! He, then he passed me the blanket that the kids left, "sorry" say I, but then, he went to lay his head down and there was the ice cream bowl with my spoon in it. "what in the world"?!!!!!! folks I just busted up laughing a man can't even get in his own bed!!!teehee.... we both just rolled I don't know why but it was just so hilarious.

Poor guy this morning is become a frustration of doing my chores and living my mommy mornings fulfilling my tasks. Nice to see that my frustrations are not unique..(teehee on a smaller scale). It is strange just to watch. Man I do a lot of work. No wonder I am worn out a bit by mid morning. It is hard to just sit here and watch. Not to get up and help is a real challenge.

I am walking a lot better this morning! Still hurts but not quite as much ya!!!!!!!!!!

Hubby helped me clear up my cash so the site will load faster. He explained how the links are slowing it down. When we are given an award for example; it links to the person who gave it to you and also the person who gave it to the and tho the grandfathered back and back to the originator. It links back to several sites. This slows us down so we need to clear our cash(we did this) this is where things are loaded onto out hard drive. we then need to make the photos local. We still have that to do. For those of you with dial up I hope this will help .

I walked several steps

Hi, I cant stay up long.
Just a thank you all.
I walked several steps without hobbling.
Amy I tried to send you a response to thank you it came back undeliverable.
The prayer are so sweet I am rich in them.
I rested and watched a movie in bed with the kids. Beloved took them to the grand parents I slept on and off all day long. Pain is getting better. I have 24 of the 72 hours over. I can walk like normal!!!!!!!!!! Well a few steps anyway. Have to close it hurts unless elevated and me being reclined.
I am so blessed>
I am rich in your friendship and prayer. Thank you every one
must close and rest.
Donetta
No suffering seems pleasant during the time but it will avail so much. I can just see myself walking with no limp or wobble soon.
Remember all we go through is only for a season. Grab that moment and gain all it has.

Knee injections making a difference already

Good morning! I'm cant not sit here long. I wanted to tell any one out there that this stuff is making a difference I can already feel the difference of the bone on bone.
Pain is substantial so I gotta lay low. I miss the community. Hope you all have a great day!

Privalidge. Knee Injections and Crown

I stand or lean on my crutches amazed.
I got the crown removed from the upper right and it was found to be one that was most likely 25 years old. it took a lot of doing to remove it. They do not make them like it any longer it had the titanium post molded right into the porcelain crown and it was very hard to remove. I was done at the dentist by 10 drove home to get the address to the ortho surgeon. I left moments after.
The injection was very painful I have to lay low for 72 hours and ice. It may take until the 3rd injection before I can begin a walking. I will be starting some physical therapy next week 3x wk for 4 weeks.
I am so privileged. I have been shown so much mercy and favor. Every one deserves good health care, I just am humbled that I have these opportunities. for better health.
I have to go back to elevate my knee.
Funny thing happened.
The dentist said try not to chew on that right side for 2 weeks.
The dry socket is on the left.........
I just started to reduce and diet. HA!

Christine will bring the children home from school for me. I am in a hurt. Pretty painful.
I'll go rest now.
Look around today and see all the privilege that surrounds you. It is so amazing how much favor we each have been shown.

Thankful Thursday

I stand amazed.
I am so grateful at how very fortunate I am.
I am comforted.
Though a bit fearful and apprehensive there is excitement.
Tomorrow I have the privilege of a replaced crown and an injection in my knee.
I am offered a new hope of mobility.
My Beloved it encouraged over some events today at work that just may show hope for near future prosperity and reward for good service to his employer.
He is encouraged.
I am so thankful for that glow of hope infusing his heart.
I am so thankful for HOPE.
My children will soon begin the testing that will give them the hope of help to be able to achieve at their height of ability.
Hope deferred makes the heart sick.
This hope has been awaited for some time.
I am grateful that our hearts are being refreshed,
with
HOPE.

Thursday Thirteen things that start with B

Christine over at "are we there yet Mom?"set this up.
13 of my favorite things that start with “B”!

1. My daughters name here

2. Beads

3.Books

4. Believers who live the life of LOVE

5. Baking

6. Balance

7. Berries

8. Butterflies

9. Belief in the Word

10. Broken Hearts that are being healed

11. Behavior fitting honor

12. Breath it sustains me

13. Beef , char broiled

scream!!!!

I'm home with my pearly whites visible, (the dental hygienist was a lovely Woman who was very gentle and kind. She was very careful with the socket and did not use the suction tool to protect the clot) due to the screaming over the fact that these will be going into mt knee (the needles are not included, due to people trying to INJECT THEM SELFS>>>what are they nuts!!!!!!!!!). This is a real privilege I know few will get to take advantage off.
Can you say "chicken"? I have been called a few things .... Now I will have "chicken juice for cartilage" should I to start clucking pick me up and brush off!

Thoughts to empower me!

I can do this because I am tenacious vivacious fighter for the right. I am more than an overcomer I am a conqueror. I have been victorious in fighting for my life in every other way. I have been to Russia twice I am raising two special needs kids! It is now they are congruent and I am going to receive support to help them I have more left to take care of me ! I am an excellent wife for over 25 years. I can speak up and let others own their stuff. I don't have to swallow stuffed feelings anymore! It is my turn now for my focus to be placed on the furtherance of my restoration physically. It is the last of the goals for my own true restoration! I deserve this because I deserve to have the best life possible to enjoy the family I have fought for the mental and spiritual health I have fought for. I am beautiful! It is time my outsides match my insides. I deserve to be free from the fare of being assaulted for looking pretty. I don't deserve to be fat to be safe from perverts. I can and will be gorgeous again and I deserve to take the anger out instead of in. I matter! I don't have to look pretty for others JUST FOR ME!
I deserve to be fought for!

Set course and preparing for the journey

I am getting ready to set course and preparing for the journey. I will be following a plan set out that had been placed before me now for several years. It was a plan, that one year ago, just after surgery, while in therapy, once again... after praying about trying it, a man at therapy , out of the blue said Have you ever heard of... He told how he had lost over 100 pounds by living this way. I have several of the weakness listed for type O. I a type O with the rh negative factor. The theory is that our bodies sort of get poisoned. Having the rarest of the blood types. I do not do well with the food stuffs available to the general public.
I will begin on Monday. I am studying menu and prepping for the extra work to do a lot of preparations. I do feel a little overwhelmed. The dentist called I have a 10:30 today to get a cleaning, tomorrow to have the crown started at 8:30 and 11 a.m. to have the injection in my knee! So I'll have the weekend to overcome the dentist and knee thing. Monday I set sail in earnest.

After spending months of study on this it really makes a lost of since and I have based our supplements on this as well I have one child who we are pretty sure is a type A and one we think is an O. Hubby is an O as well. By following this understanding we now have one child off her Prozac! We us sub-lingual b12 and other specific to typing nutrients and have watched in amazement several of the neurological problems minimize. So I am sold on the theory.