Its time to clean house!
1987 This is who I looked like under the load.
Good Morning all!
I have to pull up my energies, (make a pot of coffee), take a multi vitamin and a b12.
Its time to clean house.
The camp trailer is out front and has to be secured. I want to remove the fabric (curtains ,bags and, towels all that stuff), and wash it. It has never been washed and although I have only used it a very few times in the years we have owned it. I want to make it mine. We have gone back and forth weather we were going to keep it. So I have never really "made it mine in my heart".
I have a child turning 1o! ,on Friday. Man time will fly. How It was not long ago when I first held her in my arms at 8 months of age, NOW SHE IS 10 DON'T BLINK folks they'll be gone.
My house is in need of a good cleaning. With summer here the love shows :) Floors need sweeping , mopping, rugs need a good vacuuming too. bathrooms ,playroom,bedrooms wit the sheets too.
Most importantly and with grate courage I add.
My physical house needs cleaning! I have allowed it to be neglected and even despised for far too long. Its time to fess up clean up all this heavy baggage of extra weight. Today I "mothered" my own self and began to fight for my body to get free of this embarrassing load. I walked again this morning and I think I will begin a food diary. I am so ashamed of how I look in the photos from the camp trip. There is an extra little person on me. I have tried before and have given up out of another surgery or medical challenge. I have felt be trade by my body and all the stuff it has thrown at me. So I just gave up with a resentment! I have been taking the anger of it all out on me. My body the target. The roots of it all are varied and deep. All I now know is that I want me back. I want me free of this load, I'm tired of carrying it around. I am ashamed and embarrassed. The gift of shame is to make amends and do it differently. I don't deserve to stay in this state of shame any longer. I'm scared to venture out into this maze to accomplish this. I'm more terrified not too. I want to feel beautiful again on the outside too.
6 comments:
You are already beautiful my dear, you are a daughter of the King, that makes you a princess. But, I do understand what you are saying. I am proud of you for walking. I will be cheering you on. You can be successful.
Yes, you can still join tales from the scales sweety. It ends in september. Here is the link:http://www.talesfromthescales.net/
Donetta, for the past two months I have been doing some 'spring cleaning' myself. Although beautiful as we are, once the pounds start rolling off and the energy levels are starting to restore --- the joy of lightness and freedom makes all the hard work seem so very worth it! Success to you on your journey!
:) LaTeaDah (-20)
Donetta, please visit Gracious Hospitality when you have time. You have been awarded The Reflective Blogger Award!
Thank you for blessing my life!
LaTeaDah
Dear Donetta,
I have just found your blog I agree with Denise you are beautiful my friend. Nice to "meet ". I have enjoyed my visit to your blog.
Angel ():)
You are a very beautiful person inside and out.
This heat has zapped me to point I do very little cleaning. I wish I had half the childrens' energy to whirlwind clean it, as fast as they get it messy!
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