Sunday Smiles *Choice*

Good Morning!
I had some very powerful effects over "mattering to myself yesterday".
We all wound up out on the patio eating by candle light and rain shower it was awesome. It turned into a wonderful time filled with heavy laughter as the kids chased a laser light around the dark yard with abandoned, as my husband and I laughed ourselves silly. I am feeling much better this morning.
We brought the trailer home from the rental lot.
I will work on clearing it out.
It has all our gear in it. We will be putting it up on the market next week end.
It is a bitter sweet sell. I had a sweet memory about how years ago I gave away all of the things I had from childhood. That was a lot of things. I gave away all the furniture and all the special things that were my childhood. A small home of furnishings . (I started working at 9 years of age). I did this by choice to be free of all the ties that bound me to those family curses and memories that held me in dysfunction. God showed all the wisdom in it.
I remembered being obedient in the free choice of it. I have also a choice here to sell our trailer to make way for our goal.
We have now stopped the credit card completely.
(((((((((((funny the new ones just came in the mail and we happily agreed to only activate them in a dire emergency))))))))))).
We will not go into debt to buy a newer truck to tow it.
So we sell this beautiful trailer.
My though is how wonderful!
It will bring another the same joy I had with it.
It will even bring me more joy in having a jump in our three months emergency savings fund.
I have a clear choice that I am in total agreement to follow this course
( I am a little sad of course).
The reality is that perhaps it might, just like the house full of furnishings return to me in some way (so many times over) some day.
I know that My God is able to honor choice that is made with clean hands and a pure heart.
So today I let it go, my cabin in the woods on wheels.
I pray that it bring the joy to others that I have known in it.
I trust that God delights in me, as I delight in the goal we are reaching out to achieve.
As of now we are completely debt free, the credit card is retired!
GLORY!
With the exception of the mortgage, about a third of the value of the home.
We are whittling the budget down and allowing for the reality of expense.
I am writing all expenses down and charting the real cost of living .
We have our emergency fund in place. ( per the book by Dave Ramsey)
Now we have a goal of 3 months living expense emergency fund to set aside.
Then we hit the principle hard!
Save for a long needed and desired vacation.
We have increased our percentage for our retirernment investments.
Today I smile at the future.
A Sunday Smile of worship making the right choice.

I am feeling so much better today.
I appreciate all your kind words, thoughts and, prayers.
I had a wonderful day.

just resting

Medication withdrawl going poorly please pray.

I am going to just say hello, I have been pretty sick withdrawing form the old medication. Also yesterday I had a bad latex exposure. Beloved my darling cared well for me last night. I had 5 kids and another adult here yesterday. I love my dear friend company. When the mother of my extra kid showed up I was pretty much immobile with the head ache that would not stop. If ever I thought my eyes ears and skull could just burst open and explode with massive force it was yesterday afternoon throughout the night and into the morning. It has calmed down now. the pain has the weakness and dizziness nausea and such hits me hard if I move around much. Harder than we thought. I almost thought of the ER but i knew I could not take another latex exposure.
Please pray for me this is tough.
I will go to rest ow. the kids will be home just my two. I will give them computer time and just lay on the sofa. My darling said to call if I need and he will get right home and help.

This too shall pass:)
Loving all of you.

What a ride

Wow ! What a ride the "Goose" took me on today. I love these kind of days. Just walked right into it.

After my last post I stood to see the time on the calender (9:15).
It was 15 minutes till the Doctor appointment for the follow up for my knee. I attended it walked right int he door as she stool and greeted me and ushered me right into the exam room. No wait at all...The surgeon wants me to bike or swim if I can to keep the joints moving freely. I gained 70% improvement in my left knee and 45-50% in my right knee. He reminded me that we are still looking at knee replacement within 7-10 years if I am able to hold out. I have to have the injections again in 6 months or longer if I can hold out. I have 11 months on the last injections so we are hopeful. They are like Family and we spoke fondly like old friends.
On the way home I stopped by a dear friend's home. She has been in my thoughts and prayers. She was home. We visited briefly and set up a play date or three one for each of the next three weeks. She will come tomorrow with her children after school. I told her I needed to call to get an Appointment...
"Do you think you could get in?"...she asked sceptically.
I smiled...

I excused myself and I went home and cared for the The garden. I watered by letting the hose run low while. I came back in to call for an appointment to have a medication check. Many people have shared concerns with me over the medications side effects I have endured from April until now. I thought I had only been on it for three months or so. She changed my medication to the one that has a side effect of weight loss. That is the opposite of one of the the problems of this medication I have been on. So after two other doctors and my husband and several friends urged me to go in I finally did so. I called and the girl said" how soon can you be here?"..."I said oh,... 20 minutes or so"...
She asked If I could get there by 10:50 I told her I was on my way!
While standing at the counter they were making appointments at the earliest next week. :)
I arrived having all GREEN LIGHT except one! I even did the speed limit.

So tomorrow I change medications. The big dread was withdrawals they scared me. I was tired of challenges so I have been putting this one off. She encouraged me I would switch right over and may only have some nausea from it. I sure hope she is right!
I came home moved the water and gave the dogs a yard break and ate a salad.
I took off to the school. I considered it more valuable to do. I crept up on Dove while she was walking on the play ground. She looked up an with triumphant joy exclaimed.."Mom"! You came!"...She was crying with joy. Her little friend pipes up..."I told her you would, she has been all upset thinking you wouldn't but I knew you would!"
I taught a group of 4 students who now have tools to comprehend and score better on the testings.
Two kids approached from last week showing me they got a 90% and a 100% during the week. The scores show the kids now KNOW HOW TO FISH. I spent a lot of one on one time so as not to just give them a fish. It paid off big for them!
I recalled what God had called me while I was forgoing my chores to go work with the kids...
"Mother of Many"

Skate Party tonight and I offered to give this kid a chance to go. Mom did not have the gas money to take her (said the child). They are all out playing and having fun. The teacher approached me and gave me a FREE PASS! She said "are you taking another child with you? this might help defray the expense!"...
Again God's provision

I tooled a few pair of earrings. With many more to do I may well work on them after the kids do home work. They had early out today.
I will give them 15 more minutes then It is homework time for all of us. It is so cool to see how they respond when I sit there to and do my Bible study. It is called Wisdom for Mothers. They are totally impressed. So sweet!

The Giving Tree

Good Morning!

I just returned from the bus stop. I grabbed the latest gift out from under the giving tree.
Monday I did all the floors here at the estate. I had wished for a junker broom to use out on the front porch just in a passing thought.Knowing full well that probably if I searched the garage I would find the one out there. Yes you guessed it. There under the giving tree was an old junker broom.
Monday (the day I did floors) when Dash came home from school he had a new library book. This book we also own somewhere out there in those boxes. The book..."The giving tree". He read it aloud to me. He is now six months ahead of his class in his reading and has surpassed the first goal.
I had an extra child Monday the girl who has a hard working single Mom. So we found the broom late Monday night as we were seeing them out..
I have been studying recently about who He (God) is, and Who I am in Him...I know what kind of friend I have in Him. I want so desperately to live the life worthy of the fight I put up for it. I want so much to thank Him and please Him with my life. It is like being and adoptive Mom...I want to give back so much more for I know the measure that I have been given is above and beyond. It is that way with my life. I have been given so much above and beyond. So many have died at their own hand other have faded off into addiction or obscurity and madness. Some how I made it out.
He knew me, called me by name and adopted me . Why not the others?...
I think of choice as I tear up. I just do not understand. I know my choices , but it could not really be that different...could it?
Fortitude? Courage? tenacity...all of this came from Him.
The season is upon us once again. I was guarded from it as I realized I needed to rush yesterday and totally missed the displeasure of the hollos eve isle. I glance at it and thanked Him for the need to exit the store. I dont feel scared... no rather it leaves me ill to my stomach and spinning in my mind. It was here on the blog, last year that a great offence occured due to my views and responce to this upcoming season.

I have a temptation to just go away untill November.

This is my blog!
This is the gift I give to myself to chronicle the life lived, that I may have record of it for recall. That my children might have knowledge of my heart after I am gone from this world. Not that I have plans of an exit :)
I awoke to my sweet son's lovely song as he swung outside my window. So sweet a joy is he to have. He is a delight to my soul. Some twenty years of waiting for him now seam a flash in time. All that longing wrapped up in a little boys song as it flys through the air a light on the wing of a prayer of gratitiude.
Dove she so glorious. She came to me today respocibly having me sign for her homework. I told her how proud I was of her for being so responcible to gain her knowledge. How her prize it freedom. She has faced strong temptations to defray her duty and she declined them with a wisdom far beyound her peers. She is growing coy as smiles with a playful defiance as if I know it is wrong... I am just pretending to be naughty. I scold her lovingly as that is what she expects with my smile revieling that I am savy of the game. A huge hug from each and they are off on the bus. Waving as if going on a jurney into farr away regions and distand lands. Dove strongly desires me to attend her class and help other children today. I am told that if I do not come...
"You are letting them all down Mom they are all so excited to get tohave you come"...
Who could risist that?...even if my room does need tending and the chores do need doing? So off of here to walk into me day.
I will not go away: It is just a real hard season and I so appriciate your prayers.

Pray for India

Demon worship has a price. We are watching the effects once again as the misguided souls worship demonic forces.

A request has gone out for prayer as we become aware of the dangers faced by India's Christians. Pray for the souls who need Salvation and a way out a way of escape from the prevailing cultural taboos.

Like lambs to the slaughter.

NEW DELHI, India (CNN) -- A stampede at a hill-top temple in western India killed more than 147 people and wounded 55 others who had gathered to celebrate the start of a religious holiday on Tuesday, police said.

Victims of the stampede near an Indian Hindu temple are carried away from the scene.

More than 25,000 devotees were trying to reach the 15th-century temple through a steep and narrow pathway when the stampede occurred around dawn Tuesday, officials said.

The Chamunda Devi temple is located inside a fort atop a hill in Jodhpur, the second-largest city and a popular tourist destination in the Indian state of Rajasthan.

Authorities do not know what prompted the rush, but state Police Chief K.S. Bains rejected as "baseless" reports that it was triggered by rumors of a bomb.

"But one thing is clear that a cascading effect did take place as it was a slope where it happened," he said.

India has been on edge in recent days after a string of deadly bombings across the country.

The crowd had gathered to celebrate the start of Navaratri or nine nights. For nine nights and 10 days, Hindus worship the various forms of a Hindu goddess.

Rajasthan Home Minister Gulab Chand Kataria told reporters that police had planned for the event and deployed "enough" officers for crowd control. But the massive numbers overwhelmed them.

Following the stampede, devotees -- some in blood-soaked shirts -- carried the limp bodies of victims on to police vehicles, while emergency officials frantically tried to tend to the wounded.

Temple stampedes are not uncommon in India during religious festivals.

Last month, more than 130 people were killed when panicked worshippers tried to flee a crowded mountaintop Hindu temple in northern India. That stampede, which occurred on the second day of a nine-day religious festival at the Naina Devi Temple in Himachal Pradesh state, apparently was triggered by a false rumor of a landslide on the hill above the crowd.

And in January 2005, more than 250 people were trampled to death during a pilgrimage in the western state of Maharashtra

Tackle It Tuesday

My old friend (yes my
dog did chew it up). Of course, I did not pay head when the Spirit had warned me to bring it in off the porch that morning. The Lab ate the word and drug it over into the sprinkler to see if he could get it to grow. He had read that living water thing :)
Women's Bible Study this Morning. I think I may not offer hospitality today for I need to get some tasks accomplished. I will as you know follow the goose though. He just might have a different idea on the day than I do.
My home work is being cone when the children are doing theirs. The see me doing it and really raise their own posture and take their own much more seriously. Dove even asked me to review hers, her friend told her to say she was finished and she felt upset that she did not set a boundary with her for now she is concerned of her grades becoming bad. Cool thing tohear her say on the walk to the bus stop.

I made the kids a treat this morning for breakfast.
They were sweet and really enjoyed it.

Last evening I was able to get all the eye and head pins set in the laid out earrings.
Tooling them and carding them will follow, perhaps today.

Laundry on the line will be a big part of my mid day. The children brought their hambers to the washer for me this morning.
Big task is the master bed room and bath room. I need to do the floor and the shower stall too.
All the wass art is stacked on the floor against the walls in there and I would love to make my sancuary beautiful again.

Monday, Monday....

Tom Sayer and Huck Finn went fishing this mornin'. They were playin' hookie (before school of course). Huck done caught himself a "dog fish". That thing done snapped his line a more than a once.

Tom Sayer retrieved it for Huck but that dog gone dog fish just a kept a comin' back for more of Hucks bait.

Then it was off to the moon! Moon walkers kiddie ride Tom and Huck thought playin' hookie and all they would go have some 'musment.

Tom left huck with a bit of a bump!


My day was spent on the floors.
By clearing all the floors of everything first it is a process that gets the job done well.

It felt so good to have clean floors.

The dining room chairs have felt pads on the legs so I clear all the dog hair and sweep it with the micro fiber mops. My floors here are mopped with just water. By using the micro fiber mop I just rence it out every so often. With asthma we avoid all harsh cleaners.

The tile was almost black from the dogs. Bar keepers friend scrub works instantly to clean the tiles with very lettle elbow grease. It has been a long month and a half that the floors had to await my ability to scrub them due to the knee injections.

With this brown ball of fur the floors might last the day:)

I love the clean floors.

Hanging the laundry on the line has become a pleasant time to me. The breeze was an excelent balm. The silence was golden. I'll do more today.
I had an extra kid yesterday so today I will have more eviening time.
The laid out earrings recieved all the head and eye pins and accenting beads. I'll have to do some tool working on them to finish them up.