Thankful Thursday, Trust

Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding , but in ALL your ways ACKNOWLEDGE HIM and HE will direct your path.

Those who are naive trust easily.
It was not so for me after I came through the heavy hardships of recovery form childhood abuse and torture and the witnessing of a murder (see other blog).

I had to have trust earned, and not to be a victem and gullible anymore.
The ONE who was proven out over and over and over again was my Father , Maker Abba God.
He even asked me to risk trusting him.

Risk.
Risk needs to be managed in small steps. That is what I did. I risked trusting God in the very small things. Food for a hungry belly, Water when thirsty and shelter when I was without a home.
These things are basic.
There is a saying about me often spoken by those who know me well
"only you, Donetta..."
You see He said... "ask" and I do.
I ask for the simple things like the items on my shopping list or the health of my child. Things that are needed.
Over the years my trust grew week. We become like those we hang around and even the most optimistic of souls can be worn down by pessimism.
I am once again remembering who I am.
I am asking for the simple things.
I trust God so much more than anything or anyone else.
I trust that what is spoken of in the scriptures is truth.
I believe because like that simple risk to find food...He found me starving and fed me and gave me the food for the soul found in ..."for God so love the world that he GAVE his only begotten Son. So that all who believe upon him shall be saved."
That "risk to believe" has had the greatest of life transforming benefits.
For that I am Most Thankful.

Works for Me Wedensday, Parenting Friends

Friends for life.

This is Dove's bear and Dash's Micutoo.
I am raising the children to be friends.
I teach them that they will have each other for life, either as friends or enemy's.
I tell them that they get to choose.
One day I stopped interrupting their battles and empowered them with two rules.
No hitting and No name calling.
Other than that they need to work it out.
I teach them boundaries. "When you I feel and I would rather you do ..."
This has given them the social skills to build relationship.
They are to get along with each other or we have no play dates.
If they can not get along than they do not have others come into their chaos.
This instills a purpose and a importance that is in their currency.
Now my kids are around three years apart.
This really does make a difference.
When they hit or name call a loss of privilege or a consequence is placed upon them in order to help them remember the lesson not to punish them.
They have learned the importance of an apology and forgiveness.
When they are not able to get along they are separated to have private time apart.
We take turns with them one on one with each parent to meet their attention needs where they are full focus as often as possible.
IT IS WORKING!

Wordless Wendsday (by 8 a.m.)

wire in the soil.

He said "I like your dream"

He rolled over and patted my bottom and said"I like your dream"!
He likes my dream!
The joy over flowed in me and became strength. I am empowered to follow my heart.
Some day... Has become this day.
The loss of the forest dream has become a present day and place reality.
Just because we can not make the forest dream a reality does not mean we have to let go of the heart of the dream.
It has always been my heart to be more self sustaining. To throw wild flower seed and be surrounded in the beauty of flowers.
Dreams do come true only they are often altered to fit into reality.
If your dream does not fit into your reality alter your dream.
So I am up with dogs fed and Mr U's lunch made a bowl of sunflower seed granola in me and coffee brewed. The garden soil awaits my strength.
I love the old hymns
"I come to the garden with him"
I only earned one blister yesterday on my inside thumb.
Not to bad for half a plot. I have a 28x10 plot approximately and I will work on the second half this morning. It has more rock on the one end to remove. The soil is clean and looks to be only mildly caleche' so I'll get some sand if I need to. I'll do the soil in water test soon.
We settled on a chicken tracker. It will be able to be kept the 40 ft away from other structures as per code. It will also alleviate some of the scat issues. I am so excited as are the kids. I know this is going to be work for the work will exercise the joy that will give me the strength to do it. The egg and produce will be my reward as my family draws the fork to mouth from my own hand. It is a honor and a privilege to be able to do so.
It is a dream come true.
I am praying for the supply and the things necessary to complete the goals.
Watch with me as the provision comes in.
I have remembered WHO I am and Who's I am.
FEAR NOT neither be afraid for "I am the Lord your God" who sent you to this land, to a land of milk and honey (and eggs) :) He said or paraphrased somewhat.
Think of it walking out of a vast desert into a valley of dlight and de' life...
I have lived in this desert land with my husband for over 26 years now. I have longed for another land.
I am now seeing that this is MY land I no longer need to long for any other. .
coffee is hot and the land awaits.
Kids are asleep.
"Tis a gift to bew simple ...Tis a gift to be free ...Tis a gift to climb down where we aught to be...And when we find our selfs in the place just right ...We will be in th place of the valley of delight.
Dance ,Dance where ever you might be...
I am the Lord of the dance said He"

I really like this one it is 6ft by 5ft by 4ft I think. I asked my husband to build it for me. Any one got any extra lumber or chicken wire they don't want? I found a place to go and get the birds and learned about the needs Bantams are my choice of birds, small, quiet and prolific layers. Too cool!

Chicken coop

Isn’t it adorable?

Yes I am studying and researching raising a few chickens for eggs.

A link on coop ideas

Great ideas Urban Chickens

This will be very educational

Tackle It Tuesday

8:30 a.m. Half turned and clods broken up. Added the organic matter.
Dash came out and helped me break up the clods. He said to me..."Mom every morning I wake up to a garden...The earth...The earth is God's garden"....
I love the way that boy thinks.
He brought me some water.
We spoke about love languages. His tends to be of helps.

These are the treasures I dug up :)

The path will go down the center.
I have yet to measure I think it is 16' by 34'.

I moved the bird feeder over by my window where I sit at the computer.

This soil has rested all these years time to put it to work.
I will have a lot of work though to prepare it.
"Rocks be gone" well they did not go.... I guess I'll just have to do it :)
I will get the kids to help me.
Then we can make use of it for flowers.

The area under my bedroom window will make a good place to grow tomatoes, garlic and onions perhaps.
Against that wall I may put a pomegranate in.

Cortes, the great Spanish explorer discovered what we know today as Mexico. He sailed in several boats with many men committed to conquering and settling an unknown land. When they arrived, the men looked around at an undiscovered world and were afraid. Cortes, sensing their fear, gathered them all on shore and set fire to their ships. He then announced, “Now there can be no turning back!” That is commitment; a choice never to turn back; a contract without escape clauses; a battle plan with no option for retreat. Love that never gives up can hold on because of commitment. It looks past the circumstance and locks its gaze on the promise.

Now I have a shower to enjoy!
Dishes , laundry needs work.
I have some school enrollment forms to fill out for the kids.
Beading and sewing to consider.
We may have friends over.

I want to read a bit about gardening, some bible and the current events news sites as well. For now
A SHOWER!

Gardening

It looked like this when I started!
Wet from heavy rain this week the weeds came easy for the most part.
Soil is weeded and I'll set to plot.
amend and set row.

A great Phoenix reference for gardening here.

Just a little plot of soil a little piece of land. My own to sow and seed and spend so many hours.
This earth has rested 8 years except for the sunflower house last year. I have no poison in the soil. It is earth given to rest refreshed and time for seeding . I will tend a garden get the seed for my family for to feed.
I am listening to Blue Grass Mountain music. Banjo and Madalyn how fun it that for a cloudy hot summers day. I have been researching my zone (6) for what to get ready to plant.
JULY
Bush beans
cantaloupe
watermelon
winter squash
and get ready for
August
peas
summer squash
tomatoes

AND FLOWERS! Yee ha!
I am a happy woman I know where to make my home!
I long to plant an orange (navel) and a lemon tree.
I am trusting that this temporary home is just that until I go home to God!
I got a long time and a lot to do before that fine day!

Menu Plan Monday

Monday: Cajun rice with sausage and green onions, asparagus. Watermelon

Tuesday: Cole Slaw of green cabbage, carrots and home made dressing, Salmon broiled

Wednesday: Pinto Chili with fresh bell peppers, Home ground beef and cumin seasoned cornbread

Thursday: Bacon broiled, Pancakes of multi- grain flours with flax,pineapple and mandarin oranges on the side.

Friday: BBQ chicken tenders , Left over slaw, corn and left over corn bread

Saturday: mid day hot dogs or chicken poppers Supper of stir fried shrimp rice.

Party Pop cycles and home made cake.

Sunday: French toast with canned cherries over them. Bacon broiled.

snacks: muffins cookies fruit and carrot sticks, celery sticks, apples

Little Dove had her last tooth fairy visit.

Beloved found her at the kitchen table last night writing this sweet note.
Now my kids have been taught fact/fiction. They know I am the tf, but we agree to fiction and play out the pretend of a very innocent sweet childhood fantasy. She knew this was to me.

The cardboard house for the little pets was her gift. This was a big TF for she has two 1" teeth to show for it!
It came with this cute little sea horse.

She hug it temporarily on her wall. I will go in and hang it more securely. It is a little display house for the critters she so loves.
She is well today and on the mend. I will keep her at a slower pace for the next few days but she is doing great now.
Thank you for all your prayers.


Her 11th birthday is this coming week end. She has colored pictures for each guest and has a F.R.O.G. wrist band "Fully Rely On God" and a little toy frog and a activity book for her guests.
She made invitations and thank you notes by printing them off of the web sight. She colored them I need to send them out. I have called each person, but fell short of getting all the mail out. It has been a crazy few weeks!

I'll bake and freeze cake
Make frosting and set aside
Then decorate the cake at weeks end. It is so east to do your party in stages.

Sunday Smiles

These came out of my Baby's Mouth!
They are adult teeth. The dentist said if you look n her mouth although she is just shy of her 11th birthday she has a 14 yr old's dental age. She has all of her adult teeth way early.

That is a strawberry gas mask.
The surgeon gave us the nitrous oxide for free.
That was $50. gift.
God is so good to us!

Stroking her hair

I just got my sweet Little dove off to dream land. She is better some tonight. We took them to go see the movie WALL-E . The Boys dropped us off at the curb and then picked us up at the curb after they went to get the car. Dove got down a little pears baby food and pain medication.
I stroked her hair and laid quietly beside her. The boys had to make a run to go get dog food. They are bonding together this weekend. Daddy Man is so awesome with our son.
Dove is asleep on the sofa. Beloved wants me in bed tonight. I have been fighting a migraine for two days with the stress factor and weather. He does not like me missing sleep for it tends to hit me hard with the migraines. I just hate to leave Dove out on the sofa without her mom. She is clinging to my hand and gowning. Her tummy hurts a lot. I hope it is better tomorrow. Her tummy is bothering her more than her mouth pain. I stopped the big pain med and just did Tylenol. she still feels nausea due to the sensory integration stuff. I just wish I could take it away from her.

Dash asked if he could stay up a bit to help with his sister..."not because I don't want to obey and go to sleep, but because she is my best friend and I love her. I want to help you guys to take care of her"...

Wow!

Good Morning

Thank you all for your kindness
Dove was able to stop the cycle of vomiting around 9 p.m.
She slept at last all through the night. Willy the Lab awoke her at 8a.m. checking to see if see was alright. Labs are real nurse maids.
I was right there on the sofa beside her so her woke me too. I got up fed the dogs and cleaned the kitchen up. .After sitting quietly on the porch My Beloved came out only to be interrupted by Dash a moment later. Dash is feeling pretty insecure and wanting loads of attention. I think I'll call him "Johnny" today for "Johnny on the spot"!Seeing his sissy so , is leaving him VERY insecure. Some days the sponge just feels rung dry and needs to just sup up all I can from the source so I don't harden:) ha ha
Poor Daddy man went to cook an egg for Dash and dropped one between the counter and the stove! Oh that dear man. He was making Dash some eggs so I could sit here a moment and zone out. Well now it is clean between behind and aside the stove. :)
Dash pouts because he was told No to gater aide by his Daddy. Sissy is having some for her tummy and the electrolites. We call it (sarcatically) "upsetting the child gods...lowercase)
Most parents do everything not to upset them. When I'm sleep deprived I really appriciate why :)
Daddy Man is in the living room with Dove giving me a rest. Dash is here jabbering beside me. ...now he is off to his room. Very busy little guy.
She is holding down the food and pain medication so far. . Oh I need sleep.

The kids had their dental cleaning the day before yesterday(scheduled 6 months ago) We got a hard hit. Dash needs $400+ because he has to be put to sleep at the tune of $300. that is due to the sensory stuff he fights when he is all the way out! So on the 30th I get to do this again. Then on the last week of August I have my implant. Boy this is the year of the dentist, oral surgon and orthidontics.
Glad that I believe that God is our provision!
Dove had no cavities! Ya!
I am so tired I am falling asleep I think I'll stop fighting it and fo try to get a lttle nap.

Dove is finally asleep

My sweet baby and family and I all are grateful for your thoughtful prayers.
Dove Vomited all day.
Her sensory integration problems hit hard and would not allow her rest from the vomiting.
The doctor could not make sense of her throwing up so much.
I can.
I know how this baby gets so car sick and can not stop it. I understand this baby how her sweet little body just can not get a center of balance. I gave her a suppository and alas it stopped.
She is going to be dry and thirsty.
I will stay up all night with her. They used up the whole IV bag so I know she has a little fluid in her. Tomorrow I trust the cycle of vomiting will have broken.
I feel asleep with her for two hours and she is still sleeping now.
The teeth are astonishing! They are so huge (adult) coming out of my sweet little Doves mouth Wow! I was so stunned over it! I will try to snap a shot later. Lights are low and house is still right now.
Thank you all for your kind comments your support is a loving embrace for me.

Dove is out of and done with surgery

Dove had her surgery and all went well.
The surgeon was great!
He met all of her special needs with loving kindness.
We are so blessed!
He spent an hour getting her ready very calm slow paced. We were allowed (thought he does not allow parents ) to stay with her in the procedure room until she was completely asleep!.
The extractions took all of 5 minutes. She had a hard time waking up because she fought the anesthesia so hard she had a lot of drug in. She is home now doing well.

Little Dove has Surgery this mornig

Please remember my Daughter and my family in your payers this morning and this weekend.
I will treasure them as fine jewels of loving kindness.

I just gave her a Valium (relaxing drug) to calm her nerves. She is doing pretty well watching a movie with her bother. I am in for a long full weekend so I will try to check my e-mails as I am able. Daddy Man took the day off to be with us.

A good friend will be keeping Dash, She and I just spoke and she and the boys are going to the movie.
Got to go now
Be Embraced

Thankful Thursday

When we do the best that we can, we never know what miracle is wrought in our life, or in the life of another.

Character cannot be developed in ease and quiet. Only through experience of trial and suffering can the soul be strengthened, ambition inspired and success achieved.

Helen Keller
US blind & deaf educator (1880 - 1968)

My sweet daughter has surgery tomorrow to remove two teeth so that her orthodontic work can continue. Sweet Little dove had a pretty tough time meeting the surgeon. She was so afraid. She had told me that she did not want the other surgeon because he had hurt her leg. So I worked it out to find another to replace him. After the interview as I was tending to the financial she admitted she had told a lie because she was afraid. Poor thing...I told her I forgave her. That it needed to be addressed so that folks did not think ill him. I explained that I too was very afraid before I have surgery, that I understood. I told her that we would be staying with this second surgeon and not switching again. That I felt good with this one. She later agreed.
It is so hard to think of her suffering. I will hold her as long as I am able before surery. She is gratefully comforted in that.
I had to give her a valarian root capsule last night tonight I have a valume for her and for in the morning to help her sleep. We filled the pain medication as well so we will have it on hand. It is going to be a full weekend. I should think of meals to do ahead today...
I will have her call the office of the first surgeon to clear it up. Sweet kid that will be a bit hard for her but I think it will build a good character (I'll be very gentle)
I am so thankful to be here to help her learn such vital life lessons. To comfort and support her.
I took them to the grocery yesterday to tend to acquiring soft foods for the weekend for her.
As we were leaving the store she put her hand on my arm looked up to my eyes ...I paused and smiled at her...then, She softly and sweetly said..."thank you mother for taking such good care of me and getting all my needs for my surgery"...
Oh a moment in time marked and felt deeply.
Thankful am I, and she is so very grateful in her character.

Yesterday I had the children join me to watch an Ophra show that had a family in financial crisis due to greed, broken hearts, indifference and neglect. The children are growing in appriciation for finicanial disapline. Beloved and I think it is important to teach these things in an age appropriate way. Thankful am I that they get it.
They were sad to see that the mom in the story indulged to the neglect of the health care for the kids. The Dad in the story neglected his role as head of the home and turned an indifferent eye and then just targeted the wife with it. Both were culpable and my kids saw it. Too cool! They said they see that if they got everything they wanted that we would be doing them a disservice. How cool is that!
Dash gave the example..."mom, he said...it would be like if you bought me a toy and I played with it for an hour and then just tossed it aside...that would be disrespectful to all the hard work Dad went through to earn it.."...I then asked what they thought we felt when we walked by their rooms to see things scattered all over the floor"...
Dash and Dove both looked thoughtful and said..."disrespected!" and both came to me and embraced me lovingly, smiled and said..."wow" we never really thought about it that way.

I want it to go so well for them in their lives. I desire that they prosper and thrive. I teach these things without inappropriate guilt. For guilt manipulation does little to instill strong character just makes a person week to the responsibility and a prisoner to shame. May it never be the motivator unless it is appropriate shame that calls for a change in behavior.
I gratefully teach tankful to see freedom grow within the kids to choose wisely. They are such amazing little vessels to be filled. I really Love them so much. I want to clear the road of their life from traps so readily set before them.
It is suppose to be a stormy rainy weekend here. It will be a movie weekend. How very wonderful that I get to hold this sweet child for days. I will be able to comfort her. Dash will need attention too. Daddy Man will be here too. He has thoughts of working Saturday to help with the budget.
Full day ahead.
For the Lord knows all these things I have need of.
This is his sweet child I get the privileged of raising. As you know we do not own them :) He know what she has need of.
Surgery cost out of pocket 100% has been covered!
Grocery is covered.
It is even going to rain and that makes for a calm relaxing sick day too.
Dove is my concern, she is 75 pounds on my lap with spinal sniosis it can be VERY physically painful for me holding her. If she fights me it really hurts. So My desire is for her to be able to be calm the morning of surgery as I hold her whilde they do the IV and such.

Dash and I are both being effected with this bad air. He is having a breathing treatment right now.
Oh life! :)

I am so appricitive of all of your thoughtful loving kindness of prayers.
Thank you.