Good Day!

My dear loving friends. This year has really been a changing point for me. The study I did has helped me move from Feelings of dread and fear into a place of knowledge. I know what I believe and can think clearly through the feelings over what I experienced in my youth. I do have freedom. It is as if a veil is over me today and I am doing remarkably well. I have had no PTSD today No triggers or flashbacks either. I am grateful for all the loving prayers I feel bathed in. Sleep was absent last night ,but due to the steroids not the terror of the visions that once haunted my mind.

Well this is the day that the Lord has made and I am Glad in it.

No longer a victim of years past I now stand firm in the Knowledge of why I believe what I believe and the fear is greatly diminished. I had a wonderful in depth conversation with a young man who does some of the therapy on my knee and back. He asked some really good questions about the difference between religion and relationship with God. He asked to know what I thought of this holiday. I was ready with answer, for the first time not locking up in a false sense of threat. It was awesome!

I had a busy morning with the children at the school. I am so surprised that a good 80-90 % of the costumes k-6 were gory and gruesome and I was alright. I just kept looking at the eyes of the children thinking why would any parent in their right mind dress their precious kid up in death? The children were not very original at all. Maybe 10-20% of them had a little imagination in the dress up.

Dash was a hit! His robot drew shouts and comments in every room we entered. His face beamed with pride and he really felt good about himself. The parade wove in and out and back and forth through the school. His robot was the most original costume there. It was just a robot!? It was almost all witches, gruels and goblins and a few Elvira type. One little girl was an angle and a boy was a motor cross biker ( I liked that on a lot) ,I used to ride dirt bike in my glory days.
Sweet beauty was joined by several other Dorothy's but not so real the dress was so pretty and the others were costumes it really looked different. I stayed with the class Dash was in to help the little ones stay on the course so I missed out on Beauty today, I have to catch up with her when she gets home. I saw a bit of pride well up in me as room by room my boy was being raved over. I made that robot and people liked it. That was sorta exciting.

You can see these were the kids that marched through his class they had some cute thing on.