Tackle It Tuesday Ha...Ha!

Christmas 12:30 a.m. of eve to morning found us at
Communion together, quiet and embraced.
We spoke as three Our God ,my Husband and me.
We made amends, spoke as friends those treasured hopes that do not end of all we want to be and who we desire to become. We see the mark we miss so easily and share the grateful hearts of the one who met the mark for us.
We thank him for that and take to Him all those desires of what we long to be. We tell Him of all the needs and desires and as for His will and provision in our coming year.
We speak specifically. Reverence and refreshed in Him and in each other we retired to bed

The heart of this Wife and Mother to bring Christmas Joy to her family and friends.

At Morning not yet bright with the dawn the joy of children rings us a wake!
We held them at bay until we could dress and get a drink of water.
We stilled the madness and slowed the tide today.
We had one gift before they ate and reined them in.
I served them croissants and fruit preserves and juice.
Then I served the dogs a large knuckle bone for Christmas. It kept them busy all day.

Once Little Dove received her hand held game she was gone into it.
So we slowed the pace and just let them play with that one thing for a while. I got the roast in the oven and prepared the fruited roasted vegetables.

When things were in oven we resumed the gift exchange.
Daddy Man has on the knitted scarf that Dove and her Grandmother had knitted together.

Dash gave his Daddy a rein deer ornament he mad for him in school.

By far the sweetest gift I received this year was this wonderfully rendered gift wrap that contained the most endearing "hand written" book by Dove. It was so amazing! It told of her favorite things. It spoke of her hearts desires for me and her daddy to have the gift of two weeks in the mountains. She spoke of her favorite memory with me and why.

I was so deeply touched and set to tenderness so fragile I felt a float.

Monkey loves having Dash :0 and he gave me a hug for making him.
Dash gave me some "google eyes" for crafts and some beautiful beads(they are in the box beside me), Three buttons and a wonderful (two tea bag) mug.

The Iron
This is the story of the Iron. I have no recall of this...(Every day is new with a brain injury) My sweet beloved had gone to the Sewing Guild store where he procured an iron That I had apparently told him about some time ago. A wonderful iron that he held in his mind to acquire for me. I do not remember this nor ever seeing what he described.
However, recently after some problems with my iron and he fixing it...I had spoke with my MILove about my iron and it being repaired by beloved. She had told me about an iron that is good for seamstresses. I use my iron in my clothing manufacturing for the family so it is a tool that is used heavily. I showed him what she had told me of some time ago on our date. Well he had already purchased the other one. Now he had to return it after all the efforts of traveling to get the first one I know nothing about.
My sweet beloved told me about this all late today. I am so touched that he went to such great lengths. I felt strange not to have any recall but will just let go of the fears of that challenge. He told me how I laid awake and told him all about the other iron and all of its attribute. Sure that I would yet prefer the other (even though he did return it) he kept the receipt to this one. I will have him take this back to get the original. It is yet a mystery to me. He tells me how much better a tool it is for me. I have a wrist that is tender it will serve my wrist much better. I trust him knowledge of a better tool. Having told him of it after a sewing guild meeting I am sure it must be a wonderful iron.
Yet another mystery! :)

My heart had desired another wind chime for my humming bird chime got destroyed on the back porch. I had even spoken to Papa of it. Low it came through my SILove...if she only knew she had heard my heart. Thank you I love it!

About this time in the morning I had a bad allergic reaction to some packaging (we think). I spent the rest of the day grateful for the many tissue boxes around the house for I was battling the reaction every few moments for hours with no relief. My face began to swell again. We used the albuteral and we were a little concerned of an ER visit but kept it to our selfs. Beloved and I prayed and I just tried not to get too frustrated! My nose was running like a faucet! Nothing was working. It was my sweet opportunity to overcome. For everything was so wonderful in my day it just served to keep me humble. :) sorta like the flaw bead in an Indian design.

After a while the Grandparents (Beloveds folks) and his Brother came and had a lovely visit and a feast of a meal together.

We all gathered around the computer in Beloved office to see the "Google Earth" where the WWII bases in India where FILove had served had been discovered after great efforts. We saw your place too Amritra.
We showed the folks the orphanages in Russia that we have now discovered and bookmarked on Google earth as well it is so fascinating to see the other side of the earth from a hawk eye view.

We waited again to milk out the gift exchange and everyone was good enough to await my stowing the foods away after the meal before the gift exchange, for the children. I do not want to miss a thing! These years all happen so fast. I was so glad that the kids had the experience of waiting this year. I consider it a gift to them to show them this skill.
It was so well worth the wait for them!

The dogs were outside all day. They were thrilled for the bones from the roast as well.
Willy made short work of it.

While "queen Rena" was more slow to the effect of vanishing the evidence.

The children were thrilled to see the gifts that they had longed for from the wish they made in a catalog. I had told grandmother the wish they had her anted grandpa gifted them their hearts desire.
The assembly of the fort was a thrill.
Dove found herself over and over again liking Dash"s gifts more than hers.

Boys toys are so full of action. She even shared her gift with Dash so that she might share the thrill of the fort. They really do share well.
I have always told them that all we have belongs to God we just get to use and care for it. Sharing it is no more than what he has done for us, to share it with us.

Grandfather (Paternal to Beloved, his dad) seemed to like his foot warmer.

This is an amazing pop up book (this is engineered paper!)for the Chronicals of Narnia series. A gift from the Grand Parents.
Beloved has read all seven novels out loud to the children.
Uncle J. gave a wonderful gift card to go explore the lovely book store of plenty:)
This is an adventure all in itself. We will take the children to chose a book for them self.
Thank you, Uncle J.

After gifts and some rest we shared a desert.
The children helped Grandmother make the Whipped cream.
Grandmother loved my miser and Dove asked me to give it to Grandmother. Too sweet of course I declined it and MILove said of course not. It was touching.

In the late afternoon as the day dissolved the energy was enough to offer a dear to us family some Christmas Fellowship.
It was my heart to give my Girlfriend (and her family) a Birthday evening out and about.
We set a buffet of meats and breads and chips, guacamole and salsas. Beloved gave me a small smoked salmon fillet for Christmas and she enjoyed a few bites. Few will eat salmon with me (it is a deep sea/fresh water running fish of the Pacific). I had some sandwich fixings. We even shared a pot of tea. The children played. She and I both home schooled and our children were close. Now that mine are in school they do not get to spend as much time together. They are all now in differing developmental stages and the relationships are evolving and changing.
They played hard and we had a nice visit.
Happy Birthday Michelle!

Socks and Socks II are just tuckered out (a bit staged) :)
With the giggles and glee of two children who insist on "camping out together" during their vacation...their day draws slow. Story time and hush a byes...Good nights and tunny aches (Dove ate too much bread)...I love you Moms...then silence and the pillow pulls them into the land of nod.

Happy Birthday Auntie L.

I Hope all of you were given the opportunity to see how very blessed you are. Even in want. We are free, loved and given favor, mercy and hope.

My family on Christmas Eve

The Lamb...and the baby Jesus came to the manger this morning as the last box on the advent came open. The Lamb who takes away the "missing of the mark" (an archery term) by all mankind (sin) of the world.
The children and I had a blast walking around the neighborhood and passing out our cookies and candy trays with the card. We had thrice the perfect moment when as we approached the house they just pulled up or were just stepping out. One neighbor shared a nice tin of butter cookies Beloveds' favorite.
We spent the day continuing to rescue the habitation of the daughter who lingers in the scattered chaos that is the image of such great imaginations wildly flowing through her mind.
Daddy Man gave "great pains" (his muscles hurt, I empathize with a sweet knowing smile hidden from his view) to hang in there as I did all I could to stay away from the task.
Helping mainly at the end by preparing Hot dogs and encouragement by the cup fulls!
I was thrilled to treat myself to the stocking stuffer from my darling
Smoked Salmon a tradition of mine from childhood.
It makes me feel grounded. I do not get to see the pacific forests but I can taste them.
I had my smoked salmon with rye crisps.

Daddy man is sore from all the tasks. I think I am really understood :) . It is now that he has taken this great task to heart and duty for the first time, that he is implementing a new bed time ritual before the set story time. The rooms must be picked up. This training is well over due. I was not given such childhood training and so it is good that he will be instigating the duty. He has personal incentive now :)
Our children's rooms are clean! Of course it is a base line for I have yet to fix the messy drawers and organize the clean laundry hanging in the closets. Laundry We finished it! 6 (double) loads!
This is a huge gift to us all.
There is so much peace in the removal of chaos .
Peace.

Between the two rooms we removed all of this to give to charity or other who might need it

Daddy man was working on Doves room all day .While I got the shopping for tomorrows Standing Beef Roast with red potatoes, and apricots , figs and plums. Rice and a nice salad that MILove will be bringing. She is also bringing a pie.

THANK YOU! Auntie L. and Unckie T. and family for the great gifts. They have one gift to open on the eve and they chose yours. They were delighted! That was so generous of you. The tiger cub robot (Fur Real) is amazing!

Assembling them "transformed" Daddy man. (they are Star War transformers)

We had a Christmas Eve "Walton's" movie night complete with a wonderful feast. Tacetos a rolled corn tortilla with spiced chicken in it (still in oven), guacamole, mango salsa, tomato salsa, soy cream cheese herb' ed and fresh romaine lettuce and tomatoes and organic refried Pinto beans. Corn chips too. A neighbor or two stopped by to give us a treat.
One was pretzels in white chocolate and another gave the kids a box of chocolate cherries.

We had Turkish delight for desert. I had this as a child at Christmas> I always loved it . A jelled fruit and nuts treat.

The Raindeer are left a snack as well as Father Christmas.

Little dove has marked all the carrots to see that they are not just recycled into the refrigerator.
We have explicit orders that the reindeer will leave carrot crumbs of course.

The children understand fact from fiction.
Sometimes in our lives we knowingly embrace a few hours of fiction just to escape the reality of the harsh truth.

And we...well we decided we need some fantasy too.
It is sorta well...way fun to play along.
I just heard some pitter patter of little feet...:)
It must be hard with so much excitement :)
The Children are nestled into the bed while giggles and whispers are sweet in my ear.
Soon we will begin the HO HO BEES!....
Then it is time for two lovers to enjoy communion and a time together.

Merry Christmas too all and too all a good night!

Imperfect sock monkey wins hearts

I did it! Both monkeys are done and wrapped and I am now working on the other doll house.

Photo Hunt * Light*

Sunday Smiles

This year a little nativity set filled the last few boxes of the advent. Tomorrow the Lamb and the Baby arrive.

I awoke to this. Beloved cleaned it while I sewed and packaged all the cookies last night!

Please pray for the Head of our home ...He has entered the ...Little Dove MANIA ROOM!
He came out momentarily ,rubbing his neck...
"man I feel like yelling at some one..."
Gotta tell ya, I REALLY FEEL HEARD :) .
I told Him I just walk by because I just get so exhausted and don't want to lose my temper.
Little dove needs to have all the school supplies out of her room and have very few things to care for. I need to let go of school stuff. It is so hard to discard such valuable things. He is just not willing to go through it. I have a real hard time with Hubby just tossing things I worked so hard to provide for the kids education.
I need to stay away from the task and let him do it.

Saturday...An Explosive Day

I had a very explosive start to my day yesterday. I have been working hard on all the tasks at hand and my family was undermining me at every turn (at least that was how it felt). With an ear infection and a chest cold I was just undone. I called them together to try to tell them how I felt and it did not go so well. I went and took a shower and just cussed out the walls then dressed and just left for a while. In the car one of the things that pulled up out of me was that "no one was taking care of ME"!
Well that means I need to take care of me. It is my job. I am bad about that. I tend to neglect myself and then get mad at others over it. Pretty immature I know , but non the less I was exhausted and neglected. So I took off and went to a drug store and walked around and just defused. While I was there some poignant music played and a silly toy spoke to me...twice. I just needed to step away and stop.
When I came home the family was overjoyed and excited to see me, but I was kept in the garage for they were wrapping my present.
Soon after as I went into my (quiet...ear pain) closet to tend to laundry in a quiet place, Beloved took to task to clean Dash Hawks room. In so doing he decided to toss Dash's volcano, but it had yet to be exploded (I defended it)

So he gave them a choice of boring vinegar and soda or "BLACK POWDER" , did I ever tell you about Beloveds' child like nature ...He loves a thrill. Well I was taking the pictures as he requested and I said will it be loud. Now mind you I HAVE A BLAZING EAR INFECTION THAT HURTS!

"Oh no It wont be very loud" He said...can you say don't listen to him! Well after that thing went off I would not have been able to hear you say it! It was amazing! It shook the house and I was wreathing in pain!
Of course I had to spend the next several moments with hot wash clothes and Tylenol. Non the less the kids had a ball that was COOL!
What a great explosion.
As will every eruption the calm follows and when I saw this

Well needless to say...
I felt heard, helped and a lot less overwhelmed!
We bantered and fused and came around to the love of a man and wife that have overcome greater obstacles. We both feel the need to be heard more and listened too better.
Funny how God id setting up next month to do NO OVERTIME!
We are both so exhausted.
Beloved said that his body hurt from the hard work of cleaning that bedroom...HEHEHE
I am understood too! Ha!
Yes it is real hard work and he feels it (as do I when I do it).
Of course I had to walk away as he tossed out things and just was so "UN-emotional" about the stuff, not like me.

With that burdon off of me I was able to follow my heart and do some baking. This is for neighbores, and other fast gifts that I might need. I had a neighbor come and give us a sweet gift of homemade soap (that I love!) and a tin of popped corn for the kids. I felt so embarrassed when I did not have my gifts ready to offer to her. Beloved said "It is easier when your not a full time mom to give thoughtful gifts" ...It is hard. I was married 16 years before we adopted Dove, now my time is so consumed (wonderfully so) and it is different to say the least. I have to let go of alot of things to be a full time Mom and homemaker. I have gained so many more of course. Chang is challenging for any of us.

The cookies made felt encouraging to me. I even made a batch with millet flour so I can have one or two.

After the kids went to bed My husband and I had some time togeather!
We burned the midnight oils, I deligated wrapping to him and let go of the outcome. He helped while I sewed on the monkeys and Doves housed. I decided to give Dash his quilt untied. But when I tried to let him wrap the monkeys without their ears sewed on I just lost all composure and just started to cry. I want so much to give my children a great Christmas. I just fell apart. I have been holding onto way too much stress over the responsibility of creating a great Christmas nad a managed house, budget, store house and family health that i was over done.
It was good to let it out.
Beloved is working on this today...

I am staying away sitting here and just having my cup of tea.
Saturday was an explosive day.
This is a new day

a day of art

First thing I made this for myself. I hear a lot about caring for myself.

Dash had his heart set on crafting gifts for a dinner we are invited to on Sunday to see his Aunt and Uncle (beloved brother) We are all going out for burgers on Sunday.

Little Dove desired to make a gift for someone.
So we made these bird houses that I had set aside.

The "Painting bug bit" then as I was preparing a cardboard for them Dove asked if she could use one of my canvases. I gave them each a real canvas to do art "for their bedroom walls.
Little Dove makes a smile face.

Dash paints me in the sun with a tree and sky.

Dash Hawk and I cracked nuts and I taught him the way to do it. We had a nice conversation about "love" the greatest force...Dash was telling me that it is more powerful than hate and war. Then he said something I have thought before but had never really shared with folks. That God must really Love satin. It must really hurt Gods heart that things turned out the way they did . Because she said "The world would be such a place filled with love if satin did not make such a bad choice.

That boy is eating MEAT, if you know what I mean.

Beloved came home at the old regular time and a little early at that. After a sweet call with Denise. We all left to go to the picture show. I was struggling with staying home and sewing but really wanted to be with the family. So I went. We had popcorn and some of the candy from home and a big water. I get a very large bottled water then ask for water cups at the register. We get a refillable Popcorn and use the water cups to dispense it. Then run and got a refill before the movie started.
We saw "Enchanted" a cute Disney flick that has been out a while. It was fun. We went to get a taco after and Dove was a ll upset because she did not get to have a soda. I did not want more sugar lowing into them before bed. It is an expense that is not necessary when we ar 5 minutes from home.
We went to the neighborhood light display., but Dash had a tummy ache so Daddy Man drove him home to use the toilet. He came back for us with Dash in the back seat with a pan ill. So we all all home dash is better after a BM and is now resting and story time is over .
I am a bit used up. Dove is grumpy with me and I have little tolerance of it tonight. Man she is going to be a teenager too soon! My kids are very interruptive and I am getting to a point that I get irritated by it. It is a real problem in my family. Even a sewing friend who was over noticed it. I am interrupted constantly by Hubby or kids. Hearing Impairment is a part of it with Dash. Boy it is annoying. Then it bothers them that I am irritable well DA~ is what I am thinking but they just do not get it. Even when the message is clear. I wish this was a issue with an easy remedy. Any ideas? Bet I have tried them... Be cool
is there was a fresh idea out there for me?

Thursday Thirteen

Thirteen steps of a "perfectly orchestrated day"!
Let go and let ....

1. Wake up at 7:15 to a dog crying to go outside (as apposed to going on the bedroom carpet :)
2. Arise to children who adore life and thrive in the joy of a morning at home with mom, we made crafts and had a very educational edifying conversation.
3. I made a good breakfast for us. Rested until 10 a.m. or so and just relaxed.
4. A call, child care for Dove. Who is to be dropped off in 20 minutes.
5. A hot shower, getting dressed and out the door in said 15 minutes.
6. while in the shower the list given in my head. Get all the records. Christmas cards, Keep pens ( for the staff at the hospital), drawing board for dash (to use during the financial meeting)
7.On the road and good traffic arriving 15 minutes later to a curb drop off (via a cell phone recently given to us) a call to tell her to meet me. a short cut to a freeway gets us moving right along.
8. Some how I made it to the first meeting within two minutes of the appointment (freeway traffic was heavy) That appointment lasted from 11:46 to 1:15 it was supposed to last 45 min. Well I made too much income and could not meet the criteria. It looked a bit of a loss and as I pulled out the work I had done and apologized for not having it all done the girl looked at me and said " are you kidding ? I never see it even look anything as complete as this." I then tried to work toward the numbers and they were just short a thousand $ or so.

Santa appears and Dash is the first kid to get to see him, no one else was there or knew he was. Santa was so good. This very real looking (no fake beard) man has Dash at knee and says to him ..."well have you thought about what you want for Christmas?...Dash responded...Santa then floors me with .." Well Dash I need to speak to you about this issue of towels on the floor...Dash's eyes BIG as pancakes... panicked ...deer in the head lights... looks up at me. I am all but splitting a gut.. straight faced listened on. "(Santa) Well are you going to do something to take care of that? Dash" yes sir"... Very serious...Then Santa said to him"let me ask you one other thing...If I were to come over to your house right now what does your room look like?...Dash;;;"well not so good"...Dash" how did you know?" Looks at me "did you tell him?" "No"...say I Dash turns to Santa "how did you know"? Santa ..." I have two special elves who make it their business to know and they report it back to me...are you going to go home and do something about that today?"... "Yes sir" said Dash Santa then gives him a gift and Dash thanked him and they gave me a tube of candy for sissy. I was laughing so hard inside it felt like such a stress relief. They then came back and got Dash to have his picture taken with the Big Guy! Too perfect! I gave Dash a card and a keep pen for Santa. Santa thanked us for the gift. He was sweet.

As all this is happening I am going back and forth with Beloved faxing new pay stubs and trying to sign papers and such She then told me she could make a way. She said that if Beloved did not work any overtime for 2 pay periods (4weeks) that we could easily be within range with deductions to spare. We are now at 100% out of pocket worse case is we are out an the Speech appointment today?? The doctor appointment is covered. I have to visit this again in one month and I have the medical expenses already calculated so I just bring in the same bag and the 2 new 80 hour pay stubs. Do it one more time and we will again be covered at 0% out of pocket! God mad a way!
I was able to pass out the keep pens and cards the girls were all so appreciative to receive them. The clinic is very minimally funded and the pen was a needed thing to them
9. Dash walked off without a melt down and did his speech therapy! While I was working through the finances. That is huge the first time he has ever left my side.
10. We got to have our appointment with Dr DIDI DOLITTLE! yes that was really her name! She was awesome! Her nurse noticed Dash had rubber bands on his wrist and that he had a flag on his chart for latex allergy because of mom. Well the nurse pointed out the rubber bands were latex! God watched over me again. The gift of a bag of rubber bands from a friend is a hazard to me, I would of never caught it. Dr Dolittle was so good she even got a sheet on hidden latex allergy info for me.
Dash had a good report at the clinic. Some concerns about head aches when he tilts his head or during movement. He has a review with the ENT in March and another Eye test in June. It is always so dark a blanket when I face the thoughts of the ushers syndrome with the blindness and deafness threat. I know I KNOW that God has Dash no matter what I KNOW THIS!
11. I left and had Jaye meet me at the urgent care with Dove. Our appointments were at 3:15, 3:30 and 4:00 pm I pulled into the driveway of the urgent care at 3:16! It was only $46. in copays. 4 Rx's were only $57. Dove has allergy clear chest (zyrtec and cold syrup). Dash has sinus infection very red nose inside and a cold (anti biotic, zyrtec and cough meds) He did me last and stepped back and said ..."but you...your the worst, your chest is rattly just short of bronchitis and a blazing ear infection (funny Willy pointed at my ear today) and a sinus infection...( ear drop antibiotics and pill antibiotics too) So all cared for 4 days before Christmas we will all be better real soon. America land of the fortunate! I dropped off the prescriptions at the drug store and took the children out to a "fast food" supper and too run it out in the playground at the "jack in the box". I called (on the cell phone) and left a message for beloved, grabbed him a burger and had 45 cents left over!
12. I grabbed the medications and the pharmacy tech. spoke with me and thanked me for the card I had dropped off the day or so before. We spoke of community and I shared my gratitude for her good service. I pulled into the garage moments after beloved with his meal hot, in hand
13. A man from the mens group stopped by just after beloved finished the last bite and I had told him the good news about the CRS coverage. After the men took care of the business at hand, this dear man (who is a nurse by trade) put the drops , that were very painful in my ear and taught beloved how to do it properly. TOO COOL!

Supper Santa just gave me a loving hug good night

The children have been dosed with their medications. One will help them sleep well. Another to clear their heads and another to kill the infection. Now I rest! I think I might just go pull up a cover and get into bed.

Little Dove just lovingly came in and hugged me good night and asked to take my picture.
Am I blessed or what!

Good night:)
Love you all.

Cool e-mail I just got

Who Started This Christmas Stuff?

A woman was out Christmas shopping with her two children. After many
hours of looking at row after row of toys and everything else
imaginable; and after hours of hearing both her children asking for
everything they saw on those many shelves, she finally made it to the
elevator with her two kids.

She was feeling what so many of us feel during the holiday season time
of the year. Overwhelming pressure to go to every party, every
housewarming, taste all the holiday food and treats, getting that
perfect gift for every single person on our shopping list, making sure
we don't forget anyone on our card list, and the pressure of making sure
we respond to everyone who sent us a card.

Finally the elevator doors opened and there was already a crowd in the
car. She pushed her way into the car and dragged her two kids in with
her and all the bags of stuff. When the doors closed she couldn't take
it anymore and stated, "Whoever started this whole Christmas thing
should be found, strung up, and shot."

From the back of the car, everyone heard a quiet calm voice respond,
"Don't worry, we already crucified Him."

For the rest of the trip down the elevator it was so quiet you could
have heard a pin drop.

Thankful Thursday

This is a wonderful morning with my children. We are all a bit under the whether with colds, yet we are together. This has been a slow easy morning. I have been visiting with them sorting colors for them and lout lining Coves dog for her.Dove told me I am a good Mother. It was sweet. I asked her what she thought made me a good Mom. she said"because your helpful and kind and sweet". Wow that is really something to be thankful about. To see myself thought of that way by her. She said that" everybody thought so at school". It really felt warm.
We spoke about character and truth and a little about sex and good choices. We spokd a bit about peer pressure. At this age they are so exposed already. They spoke about teasing not being fun and other ways to set boundaries with kids and anyone teasing them.
I am over joyed with the gratitude of all goodness that I am able to spend such slow moments with them.
I am thankful for the opportunity to do CRS and the coverage we have had up to this point. I know even though we may lose the same % we have enjoyed it will turn out alright. I am most thankful to now hear my Beloved having this tone as well. He is expressing that same peace and trust in Gods provision. I really love that example of strength. It is wonderful how he is strong when I am weak and visa-vera. What is most wonderful is that we are both in this place of GOD is our strength and we are weak/strong in Him. That is so cool. Hard won place to rest.
I am so grateful that I got medical appointments at 3:15.3:30 and 4pm. So as soon as I get back from the city and the tree appointment there ( finance, speech therapy and doctor review check up all for Dash) I will get back to this side of town and do three more appointments. God is so good to me to have a nice morning of rest.
I am going to go have a hot shower. I am so fortunate to have HOT WATER.
I know that my sinus and ear will heal in time and that my Son will be alright and that My Daughter will recover her cold. How wonderful to have this sweet assurance this sweet optimistic outlook.

Tails from the scales Weel #12 maintained

193 starting

191 week one

191 week two (at 189 on Friday) First Synvisk Injestion

193 week three Second injection

190 week four (189 peeked at me) Third Injection

192 week five

188 week six

189 week seven

192 week eight (most of it lining my colon)

189 week nine

189

189

189

O.K. some goals.

Remember to take care of ME

1. Drink more water and tea
2. Do my knee exercises and core strengthening.
3. Walk or ride bike every day.
4. Stay away from avoids (wheat,dairy, corn and candy)
5. rest better set myself up for a good nights sleep.
6. Pray for all of you and myself that we all resist the temptations that would so easily take us off course.
Maintained at 189
Stunned I did not gain! I thought for sure I was in a real regressive pattern and ready to just let it go.
NO!
Can Not do that. I guess I did not spoil it too bad through my neglect. I did try to watch out for the wheat and such. I did have a lot of candy again. I have been drinking a lot of green tea.
My knee exercises have fallen by the way side must get that scheduled and stick to it.
I need to take the kids and myself to the doctor today we all have what I think is a sinus infection. I am sure the intake of candy sabotaged our immunity.

Please pray for Bob he had a heart attack today

Pray for Bob

Written by his wife.
My husband, Bob, had a heart attack yesterday. He called me in town when I was taking the kids to school and told me to stay by the phone, he wasn't feeling well. Then he called right back and said that he was having chest pains, labored breathing and was sweating. I hung up and called 911. We live 25 minutes from town, so, the paramedics got there before I did. They were working on him when I arrived and quickly moved him by ambulance to a hospital nearby.The doctors found blood clots in both lungs (Bob is not a smoker, never has been). Last night , he was moved to ICU and by noon he was in cardiac arrest. They went in and put shunts in a 99% occluded artery. He is on blood thinners for the clots, which are small and will hopefully just dissolve. His prognosis is good, as there are no other badly occluded arteries.
Thanks be to God, who brought him into the hospital with blood clots so we could save him during a heart attack. They say if it had happened at home, we probably wouldn't have been able to save him.

Please pray for Olivia

Fellow blogger BIG MOMMA writes...She has requested Prayer!

It is bacterial meningitis. And it’s a rare form. The doctors aren’t sure how to treat it and don’t think that what they’ve been doing is working.

They are meeting with an infectious disease specialist in a little while who will hopefully have some answers.

Please pray for wisdom for the team of physicians, healing for Olivia, and peace for Kristie and George.

Olivia is two months old

Resting at Beloveds Insistance

Beloved is serving up Daddy oatmeal tonight as I sit and rest a spell at his insistence. He worked on the kitchen for me as I swept the sandy floor, how they could learn to empty the shoes outside!
I will continue crafting after the kids retire. I am so worn out this evening. Hubby said" I need to go to bed!" I am maybe gonna do so. I'll see. My head hurts and I just well got a real stuffy head. The kids are coughing a bit in the evening. Dash is concerning me. He has a bad stuffy nose. I should of taken them (all of us) in to the doctor I think.
I have to go to the city for the CRS clinic. 11 am for the financial stuff and the appointments are at 1:00 and 1:45 I'll have to drive home and all too. Lunch out tomorrow with the kids. I'll need to do the rest of the receipt search (in the morning) for tomorrow's appointment. Gotta come up with another ?$2,000. in deductions. I think it is there but I just have to list it and sort it out. I have to go through the debit slips. Our Quicken crashed and it has been a whole year of no quicken Yikes! New Years "to do thing"

Beloved came home with an EMPTY basket!
The woman who brought home made traditional tamales
asked if she could take home the last 1/4 of the basket and if she could have my recipe.
Beloved was so tickled to tell me so. He had looked forward to telling all the way home.
An artistic talented baker gifted me with a home made cookie.
Wow! What a treat to have a well prepared cookie at another's hand. It was perfect. No flavor red in the frosting and a perfect butter cookie underneath. ( I know it was naughty) :D

My children are home now for several days.
Oh, how I have missed them.
They are so full of life and vibrancy
and unfortunately very loud.