The onslaught

Today
my day was to the slaughter

on·slaught (nslôt, ôn-)

n.

1. A violent attack.

2. An overwhelming outpouring: an onslaught of third-class mail.

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[Alteration (influenced by obsolete slaughte, slaughter) of Dutch aanslag, a striking at, from Middle Dutch aenslach : aen-, on; see an- in Indo-European roots + slach, a striking.]

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onslaught

Noun

a violent attack [Middle Dutch aenslag]

ThesaurusLegend: Synonyms Related Words Antonyms

Noun	1.	onslaught - a sudden and severe onset of trouble trouble - an event causing distress or pain; "what is the trouble?"; "heart trouble"
	2.	onslaught - (military) an offensive against an enemy (using weapons); "the attack began at dawn" attack, onrush, onset military operation, operation - activity by a military or naval force (as a maneuver or campaign); "it was a joint operation of the navy and air force" ground attack - an attack by ground troops assault - close fighting during the culmination of a military attack charge - an impetuous rush toward someone or something; "the wrestler's charge carried him past his adversary"; "the battle began with a cavalry charge" banzai attack, banzai charge - a mass attack of troops without concern for casualties; originated by Japanese who accompanied it with yells of `banzai' diversionary attack, diversion - an attack calculated to draw enemy defense away from the point of the principal attack penetration, incursion - an attack that penetrates into enemy territory blitzkrieg, blitz - a swift and violent military offensive with intensive aerial bombardment strike - an attack that is intended to seize or inflict damage on or destroy an objective; "the strike was scheduled to begin at dawn" counterattack, countermove - an attack by a defending force against an attacking enemy force in order to regain lost ground or cut off enemy advance units etc. bombing, bombardment - an attack by dropping bombs firing, fire - the act of firing weapons or artillery at an enemy; "hold your fire until you can see the whites of their eyes"; "they retreated in the face of withering enemy fire" strafe - an attack of machine-gun fire or cannon fire from a low flying airplane; "the next morning they carried out a strafe of enemy airfields" coup de main, surprise attack - an attack without warning armed forces, armed services, military, military machine, war machine - the military forces of a nation; "their military is the largest in the region"; "the military machine is the same one we faced in 1991 but now it is weaker"
	3.	onslaught - the rapid and continuous delivery of linguistic communication (spoken or written); "a barrage of questions"; "a bombardment of mail complaining about his mistake" barrage, bombardment, outpouring language, linguistic communication - a systematic means of communicating by the use of sounds or conventional symbols; "he taught foreign languages"; "the language introduced is standard throughout the text"; "the speed with which a program can be executed depends on the language in which it is written" onslaught noun attack, charge, campaign, strike, rush, assault, raid, invasion, offensive, blitz, onset, foray, incursion, onrush, inroad << href="http://www.thefreedictionary.com/retreat">retreat Without defense I am left battered and low of esteem 1de·fen·sive Pronunciation: \di-ˈfen(t)-siv, ˈdē-ˌ\ Function: adjective Date: 14th century 1: serving to defend or protect <defensive fortifications> I awoke without defense fatigued from lack of sleep, tender of mind. No helmet i have become worn out. Yes I am running this race but today was a hill shale underfoot and in my mind no side line water to refresh my soul Convinced that those that might offer a friendship see me as unworthy of such. My Husband prayed over me before he left. My parenting suffered and then the effects of such left me stumbling over the stones laid across my path. I could not even raise a knee to hurdle these things. A nap and then again the onslaught. Steve is going to take me for a walk around the block. My head hurts and the storms oh those storms...

Thank you all for coming by for a visit

Wow I hit 40000 visitors !!!!!!!!

Thankful Thrusday

It is now 9:30 p.m.

Wow!
Well 12 hours ago we were getting ourselves ready to run out the door.

My sweet MIlove and FILove watched the kids and I had an adventure to a distant part of the city to meet some of the most honorable women .
We all had a wonderful lunch together full of tales of the marvel of intervention and relation with and by a loving Creator.
It was so wonderful to be with all of you today.

Thank you Charlotte
I snatched these and the addresses I trust you would not mind.
Left to right is Debbie of Heart Choices, Mary at Piles of Smiles, Michele at Beelieve You Can, Sherry of Country Wings in Phoenix, Donetta of A Life Uncommon, and Marty of A Stroll Thru Life. Charlotte took this picture so is not in it. Marty took the picture below.
To the left is Charlotte of At Home in Scottsdale


The meeting was held in an area of town that caused me to pass by the first home my husband and I had ever shared.
This home we lived in from 1982-1986
This was my first safe home

I can still recall those trees and being on my knees planting daffodils as a young bride.
My I came home with many gifts
I only had wished that I would have followed the Goose (Holy Spirit) when I saw to bring some earrings to give but low my head managed to find it's way back to my pillow and a little of the book of Matthew took me back off into a sleep.
Dash awoke me very carefully setting down the Bible and asking for a Book mark.
I did not have one at hand to give him and he found a string and carefully placed it.

The sweet blue bag held my favorite vanilla candle I love that fragrance.
That was so generous and kind of you to think of all of us. She gifted us each with the bags a note card set and a sweet stamp.

Now that hat box has a tradition that Michele had started and I do believe that I will continue.
She used it for the gifts of raffle and tokens of offering kindnesses to hearts.
She no longer has the purpose for it so it will now follow the path it had set before. I believe it will have a special place.
The little book was what I chose from the hat box it as it was passed the table round.
Then at the end as it (the hat box) was all alone on the floor.
I pointed to her of it as for her not to forget it.
It was remembered in telling me the story then gifted to me to take home.
Thank you
I will remember you in it.
The thoughtfulness of a new friend.
The bookmark was provided at lunch.
Look at what she made for each of us.
So very Very thoughtful!
Thank you.
My head yet spins with all of your names it will come.
I know you by your hearts and your stories.

I fetched the children after a stop for the seed for garden planting. The spade there was $
So I passed.
My FILOve gave me HIS!
I have the spade I need now to continue!

My sweet MILove knowing my fondness for these knitted clothes set me along with two more.
Look at the beautiful color!

So After Steve and I sat for a meal of left over fair.
I took a picture and lit the candle only to have the three dollars that Dash earned from Granpa burn a whole in his pocket I took him to the drug store alone for a little one on one. I shared my concern of the consumerism with him. Asked him to think about not giving all his money to those who sell him stuff.

Then Dove had her turn.
She received a check from her Aunt and Uncle
Thank you T& L&H&A!
She was very happy.
I took her to a bank to cash it and she had a lesson in the need to prove who we are.
She got a movie yes of course the Jonas Brothers.

We are now a quiet house and Steve has retired.
It is now my turn to do the same the morning light comes all too soon.

What a wonderful life I live.
Thank you all for enriching my day with your presence and the full wealth of the company of honorable women.

On Gardening and Making choices

Can ya' dig it!

I'll post more specific on the Bee Bliss Blog
but for now suffice it to say I am just in and cooling down and drying out:)

Goodness it is hot at 8:30 a.m. I got two good hours hard work done though.

After study of the plans I see the priorities and began.
this after the morning bread loaves needed to be sliced and packaged.
I covered them with a towel overnight.
Steve said sorta like running a race and walking the last few yards. I asked him not to let me get away with it next time.

So yesterday I spoke with a fellow for higher to deliver a soil mixture.
It was after budget review that perhaps next month...
Anyhow I need to get that bed ready it would be nice to hire him for that but it is not a doable option.
So this needs to go through a process of digging it down 2 ft and amending it.
I might get some help if Steve gets to feeling better. Little by little i must be very careful.

Morning harvest the last of the moon and stars.
However I did harvest the seed from the best melon and have it drying so if any of you would like some let me know.
I only used 9 seeds for all of that.
However these cost me $3. for those 9 seeds.
Moon and stars is an old Amish melon heirloom variety.

I found this one lone last carrot he was under the melon vines when I tuned the soil I was a bit stunned and pleased too.
I'll put it in the cabbage for the slaw today.

The rolls were good I had one with my coffee.
It was whole wheat with only the butter/brown sugar, raisins soaked in OJ and the walnuts crushed and thin chopped.
simple and yummy a little plane for I forgot to add the spice or well just did not add it. Some days I just do as I do. Not a recipe for them just the doing of it to the other side of the project. There is no cinnamon or spice...they are a nice pure flavor of the walnut and raisin. Went well with the coffee.

You know This zero balance budget is so cool...The old me would of just had that soil delivered (still might later) but the thought process and the goals tend to make you really look at the options and search for the solutions that would just be left aside for the simple.
The quick and easy, simple and fast has sold us into slavery ya know.
A free man has options, choices and opinions.

That made me think of the gift given by my husband so many years ago...
The tool to use when your making a choice.

List the pros/cons on top of a sheet op paper for each option.

example
Yellow or Blue

yellow
pro/con

blue
pro/con

You will soon see that every choice has its pros and cons
The choice will depend on what your willing to give up to gain

Or what your willing to gain if you let something else go.

Choice it is a wonderful thing.
Now seeing the cons that involve issues tender...that is the evidence of where maturity is needed what to focus on in your personal growth.
Then Study to show yourself approved.
Some risks well they bear great costs and once you have made the choice that has cost you dearly....
You can look back and remember that reason why you chose to do it.
Some choices are so very painful even when it is the right choice for you to do.
Remember though to do your best to explore every option.
Many times the color is not just a yellow or a blue to consider but the whole of the spectrum often reveling options we would have never even considered or that we were blind to.

garden and bread with a loud scream added in.

Look at that Water!
At 5 a.m. it began to thunder and lightening striking hard
by 7 a.m. .55 or 1/2 inch of hard rain in my area
gotta get that tank hooked up!
It may rain again tonight

Little man got a rain by plucking the clothes lines over his head

Yes that is water!
eureka!

Filled the bird bath
this was the first good rain in some time.

Well after studying the layout I am just fickle but I am not liking that height
Even single height it is too hard to reach back to the wall.So I tried a couple of methods.

Dash was so happy with the soft straw underfoot.
He is having a hard time understanding why I am dismantling the garden.
Time is come to begin again. We still have one large watermelon and a small one, one large musk melon too. They will need to be harvested soon.
I have to remove all that straw to prep the right side bed.

My though here was to set the grape plants into these like a planter to keep the nitrogen levels at the appropriate levels.

I am in the market for a short handled spade.
It is to set this bed up for the squash summer/winter, cucumber pickling and slicing and tomato to the far right.

The trellis will need to be shifted to the east side wall for the next crop of beans.

This is not going to work for me I am going back to my original plan.
So often this happens and I prove an idea out and then often go back to it.
So where the grass is killed in the center lawn is where the bed is going.
That gives access to both sides and the lawn cut with a weed eater.
Steve pointed out in agreement and mentioned that the heat off the wall might prove harsh anyway.

Now watch out panda bear is on his way to Mars to hunt the polar end caps for water...:)

Look at that wasted space even if I did this It would be hard on my back to bend and reach to the wall.
I have decided one layer high will be much easier.

Even with this configuration I am just not happy.
I think I will go back to my center bed with access on both sides.
It was thought the mowing of the grass would be an issue yet either way we will need to pull the weed eater in there so It is back to the beginning plan.

Later an hour of that this morning spent me.

Missing the morning deadline I began the breads a bit late.

Dash came in the room and I pointed the dough out to him and said" look that dough is sure happy"
He said..."a little too happy if you ask me"

I got a kick out of him.

half whole wheat
three loaf and some sweet rolls

Hamburgers for the late lunch set for happy children.
The other loaf is the daily bread for the kids...it is a white loaf.

So I sit and relax a bit...
the kids watching a movie make for a moment of me time.

I tried a sweet roll with orange juice soaked raisins and walnuts with brown sugar and butter. So with all this tucked in I will be baking in a higher price time of use. With all my good efforts ...perfection will not be a demand upon me.

Dove you are a wonderful child.
She was so hoping to have her friend sleep over (not something I offer normally) but the sweet child with a loss of security had to go home with her tummy in knots.
We were dropping her off in an apartment complex and a huge pickup came barreling into the driveway...I screamed! I thought he was going to hit the car head on with the kids and I in it and the mother and other child just to the passenger side. I really startled myself I had been talking to the mother and then just looked over at that moment. I really frightening me.
I said to the mother...
"that scared the bee jee bee's out of me!"
She replied
"I know I just saw those little bee jee bees fly right out of you and twitter off in a hurry"
It really was sweet and well humored. Saved face. I really screamed loudly.

Me thinks a bit of the PTSD was lit up. I have had a headache all day and rather lethargic. It showed me I am still scared inside. That and that truck really just caught out of the corner of my eye with a headlight right in my face...was going WAY too fast.

It may rain again tonight.

My Sweet Husband

He has been feeling poorly with extreme fatigue for some time so off to the Doctors at last . Last week he went to have blood Lab work to test his levels and see if there were any indications of illness. The lab work came back abnormal. I was able to get him in this morning and the call just came in from him of the findings.
His thyroid is very low. This is good news for him. Ironic in some respects this is the same condition that Dash had when we got him from Russia. He had to have blood work every month or so until the levels were right. Now Dash is recovered and no longer has it.
Hypothyroidism is treatable and we are so happy that he is alright. You see we received a letter Sunday evening telling us of his abnormal results being thyroid. His elder brother had thyroid cancer a few years ago. We had several hours of concern over this. This morning has given us good news.

Thank you my friends I could not speak of it until after His folks were brought into it. We did not want to cause them worry so until we had more news I needed to be silent of it here. Your prayers bathed us even as the rains came and lasted all night long. So did the good rest we received. We were well able and set with peace. His appointment was at 8:30 this morning. He even got to sleep in and go in late to work afterward. Of course he will have to stay late this evening...

So thank you. He will have to get the medications regulated over time here is hoping that the medications are very easily regulated.

Tackle it Tuesday

This is my big tackle
You can find it over here at
Bee Bliss Gardens

A work in progress...

building blocks
:)
well Dash plays with Lego's...

The Simple Woman's Daybook

For Today...

Outside my window... Bright intense heat, quiet chickens and dogs in the shade. A lonely yard awaits the evening hours when those humans dare to visit.

I am thinking... How nice to have a play date the kids are so happy and interested in their day.

From the learning rooms... Study to get the rain water harvesting tank hooked up, fall gardening preparations, fang shua (sp)?, Esteem Builders, menu study of recipe ideas

I am thankful for... The health of my family, the provisions met and the friendships around me.

From the kitchen... hamburger buns and hot dog buns along with bread loaf to make, melon harvested this morning.

I am wearing... A white knit cotton dress with turquoise and blue shells all over it. Dolphin earrings that I made with clear weather glass beads on silver bare foot. A dark blue head band and my glasses

I am reading... Eldala by Michele Gregory see my side bar...beautiful Ciaos to order a copy. Good read.

I am hoping... that my husbands medical visit brings possitive results.

I am creating... a blouse for myself

I am praying... many folks who are in trials great and difficult

Around the house...kitchen clean, kids bathroom mopped, children playing and the calm of the day.

One of my favorite things... peace

A few plans for the rest of the week... a live performance of a play tomorrow, results of my husbands test tomorrow, esteem builder exercises with the kids (play date child wants to join in)finishing decorated and cleaning



Here is a picture thought I am sharing with you...

This Mornings Harvest

Run to win!

life has been a rush...
quiet of the late evening and little worthy to say or be heard. Just contemplative.
Some things weighing on us will take time to resolve. Just knowing that it will but being sorta still with it.
I love my husband so we were able to have an hour and a half date today. It is so good to know that he hears my heart. Perhaps we do not agree or understand but love is triumphant.

I have some very deep revelations to share and need to pull up the focus strength and energy to do so.

You you might chance to read this you who know how very much I focus and effort to gain understanding and implement the knowledge gained. Well so very often in my life simple perhaps only seemingly so...well all things wise fall on this the simplicity of humanity.
We are such a creation so woven and spun into these vessels emptied and filled.
Perhaps I babble. It is late.
I see a change within me coming that is one of great liberty and freedoms wholeness in perspective. I will effort my choice to articulate.

This blog was a record of the mother of two children... for in her absence they might come to know her heart in their adulthood.

It is at times a gift to you as well even though often it is in an attempt to only re-affirm to my own soul those things that I have witnessed experienced and heard. It is my hope to build up any and all of us who who might ever read this stuff.

Having met so many of your beautiful hearts and souls is an added benifet.
It would have been the day before that I might have told you that my heart is wherry.
This day I tell you of a new thing.
When a friend of mine heard me say regarding an effort she made... how difficult it must of been ...spoken sympathetically

To my edification her reply was one of....
"if I let myself think of the things I had to do..how hard it would be... then I would be overwhelmed before I began."

Let me tell you what is happening to me...I see that the things i have accomplished must be viewed by my own eyes as the missions set to competency and celebrated and rejoiced over...it is my hope that it is restored within me that no longer I bemoan at the end of hard won triumphs the woe is me...or the "man it is so hard"....no no no'
It must be that it become the
Wow it is finished, I did it! cool , I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me...not the
Christ I am tired and how can I continue... give me a break God boo hoo

That is the former way and it is that I put off the former ways of my self and become renewed into the current view that YES I am competent and that is just the way it is going to be...it is worth all that effort to be so. It is the price of success to effort more than you'd ever think you might.

By focus we magnify the outcome. I will strengten my muscel to focus on the mission what ever it might be and then just fix that gaze in expectation of the outcome being one I am glad

of what ever the view of another could/would/might be.

All right so I'm/your tired...so...whoever wins a race is dog tired at the end of it ! so... If that runner continues to run thinking about and focusing on how tired they are in the middle of the race they are just sabbatoging myself/themself.

Silly really...when I think of it I really will need all the bennefits I can find to be able to finish this race. Just hand me another cup of water gals...I have work to do.

Happy 12th Birthday my gentle Dove

Dove was celebrated today
Not her actual birthday but as close as we could accomplish it and keep up with all the weekend events...
We four went to a morning movie (gotta love those matinee prices)
It was so fun!
Ice Age 3

Afterward we went for an errand to Target we had a half an hour to use up and napkins to get. She noticed the fourth of July napkins and I wanted to get her napkins that were special. They had run out of them so I got some blue napkins

Mc Donald's was next stop where we met up with Her Aunt (my sister) and the Grand Parents for a lunch. We were also thrilled to have my BILove join us after he had helped a friend fix a head light on a motorcycle. It was nice to all be together.

Steve and I dashed back to the house and the kids were in tow of the Elders.
So we made a few mad dash last efforts and wrapped the gifts.

She really enjoyed herself as well as all of us I believe.

gentle and thrilled with her cake

She was so happy with Dash's present and that just made him so happy.

We got a DVD of a Jonas Brother Concert and after the party we all sat together and watched it.
It was pretty good. The music was alright of course I grew on on rock and roll.

Dove received a purse from the Folks

A framed photo print of "Nick"

Auntie gave her a pillow that she was so very thrilled to have.
Auntie even concidered the Dash Man and gave him a Lego building toy to make. He had it finished and about 15 minutes he just sucks that sort of thing up like a sponge.
I thought that was so sweet of her to do.

Now the folks awaited the last moment and last gift and gave her a comforter.
This a VERY generous gift.
She was in Jonas heaven!
Oh these pre-teen years are so cute!

We all were still full of our lunch so cake and well wishes
She wanted the face of Nick

I let her light the candles as a right of passage
Now look at the agony!
Oh mom don't cut him...
It was then that it was pointed out that I forgot the 'e' on you're opps...

She did not eat her cake!
It was just too upsetting for her...
:)

After all was done and the guest departed we all sat together to watch the concert.

Half way through I fell asleep on the sofa only to awake as it was ending.
The fun had caught up with me...
Hahaha

So now I will rest this evening out.

I posted a tutorial photo post on a
Place To Create.

Home made fondant, it will get words another day...