Run to win!

life has been a rush...
quiet of the late evening and little worthy to say or be heard. Just contemplative.
Some things weighing on us will take time to resolve. Just knowing that it will but being sorta still with it.
I love my husband so we were able to have an hour and a half date today. It is so good to know that he hears my heart. Perhaps we do not agree or understand but love is triumphant.

I have some very deep revelations to share and need to pull up the focus strength and energy to do so.

You you might chance to read this you who know how very much I focus and effort to gain understanding and implement the knowledge gained. Well so very often in my life simple perhaps only seemingly so...well all things wise fall on this the simplicity of humanity.
We are such a creation so woven and spun into these vessels emptied and filled.
Perhaps I babble. It is late.
I see a change within me coming that is one of great liberty and freedoms wholeness in perspective. I will effort my choice to articulate.

This blog was a record of the mother of two children... for in her absence they might come to know her heart in their adulthood.

It is at times a gift to you as well even though often it is in an attempt to only re-affirm to my own soul those things that I have witnessed experienced and heard. It is my hope to build up any and all of us who who might ever read this stuff.

Having met so many of your beautiful hearts and souls is an added benifet.
It would have been the day before that I might have told you that my heart is wherry.
This day I tell you of a new thing.
When a friend of mine heard me say regarding an effort she made... how difficult it must of been ...spoken sympathetically

To my edification her reply was one of....
"if I let myself think of the things I had to do..how hard it would be... then I would be overwhelmed before I began."

Let me tell you what is happening to me...I see that the things i have accomplished must be viewed by my own eyes as the missions set to competency and celebrated and rejoiced over...it is my hope that it is restored within me that no longer I bemoan at the end of hard won triumphs the woe is me...or the "man it is so hard"....no no no'
It must be that it become the
Wow it is finished, I did it! cool , I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me...not the
Christ I am tired and how can I continue... give me a break God boo hoo

That is the former way and it is that I put off the former ways of my self and become renewed into the current view that YES I am competent and that is just the way it is going to be...it is worth all that effort to be so. It is the price of success to effort more than you'd ever think you might.

By focus we magnify the outcome. I will strengten my muscel to focus on the mission what ever it might be and then just fix that gaze in expectation of the outcome being one I am glad

of what ever the view of another could/would/might be.

All right so I'm/your tired...so...whoever wins a race is dog tired at the end of it ! so... If that runner continues to run thinking about and focusing on how tired they are in the middle of the race they are just sabbatoging myself/themself.

Silly really...when I think of it I really will need all the bennefits I can find to be able to finish this race. Just hand me another cup of water gals...I have work to do.