"I do not know how you do all of what you do?"

Many of you sweet folk will often make mention of this sort.
Perhaps it is time I address the HOW of it.

Sheer determination.

You see so much of my life was lost in my youth (see a life restored) due to the control of others
and well...with the threat of the Alzheimer's/early onset dementia over me with the demilenation in my brain....
Well I just do not want to let anything take away even a moment I have here now.
I have fought so hard for my life and I just have to live it to it's top.

Although I am only 48 I have faced death in the eye several times personally.
That helps one to gain a greater appreciation to extend the strength of ability.
Ability is often taken for granted.

I have also stared down the eye of the death of so many dear friends and loved ones along the way.
Lives and promise lost.
I am who I am and live as I do not only for myself but for all those others who's lives were cut short often due to the hopelessness that overtook their reason.
I live on for them too.
My life was given back to me.
I fought so very hard for it and the darkness did not win.

It is that determination that compels forward.

The hours upon this earth are so short.

Organization, Ergonomics, Education and Study all play a key role in the logistical
HOW DO I?
It is by that unmerited favor that shines upon me that is the real key.
I am loved that is the fuel.
I spent the first third of my life not knowing what it was to be loved.
The second third of my life learning how to receive it and believe I am worthy of it.
This the finale the third part the stanza that will be remembered of me...
I am living it.

I just want to grab life by the tail and hold on for all I am worth.