Sunday Smiles

I had a nice week End. It was full!
With a yard sale on Saturday It began with a rush. At 12:30 a.m. I awoke thinking it was 4:30 and jumped out of bed and started the shower only to wake up the rest of the way shut it off and go back to sleep! That was weird! So when the sleep fell upon me I was then awaken by Dash around 1 a.m. , he had a bad dream and crawled in between us. We were both too tired to take him back to his bed. I then awoke at 5 a.m. and dressed and went to the store for lemon aide and a petty cash of change for the sale. Got back to see Mr U. setting up tables, and a yard sale "hawk" circling the sale she hurried to buy one of the drawers for her students.
I had so many teachers and church folks come it was cool to share with others who have hearts for children. Our favorite experience was a van full of special need adults came and they were in a van, well I gave this one girl a doll and she smiled! She cried out with glee MY BABY!!!
The children we there and saw this too. It was heard loudly as they pulled away...MY BABY" thank you for my baby! Oh it was just wonderful. Then a paster came and bought a crib we had for a church. We all but gave it to him. Several teachers of special needs kids came and got the school stuff. Mothers of children and so many clothing sales of the kids stuff. One woman was buying a figurine I had of a angle and two children. I was letting it go but still found it hard a bit. I told her I got that when I adopted my son. She said oh! I am just adopting a little girl and she will be ours this week. It felt so freeing inside and liberating to see how Gods hand worked in it. I was then easily able to let go of it.
We made 173.$ and many great memories. The children made $12-15 in lemon aide sales then paid me the split difference of the supplies. It was a wonderful lesson in sales. Dash was a real go getter, all but chasing down his customers. Dove was so excited and just giddy over every sale. It was the best part of the sale.

The sign is in.

The fellow who planted the sign was entertained by Dash. He shook his head as he finished and said" you have one very intelligent little boy there" . I agreed.

We have this bay back. I set the shelf and the table up with all the home school curriculum on it so I can do a Crags list later and try to recoup the costs. Bren I know I am trying to get to that point. :)

At the end of the sale I packed it all up and Mr U. loaded it and I took of to drop it off and he took off with the kids to the park. I met them at the park and the children found joy in climbing trees as we sat together on the grass and watched them.
Saturday movie night for Daddy Man and the kids me... I fell asleep on the sofa and then went to the bed at 7:30 p.m. and slept through tell 7 a.m. this morning RESTED!

Today I shampooed the master bath and we did a few things around the house. Tomorrow is the first day on the MLS.
We had a date at 11 a.m. our dear friend came and watched the children till 6 p.m. Wow time alone together. It was so nice. We went to lunch and then used the rest of the gift certificate buying BBQ sauce. We called the Realtor and met her at a house that I had showed the kids. It is vacant. Beloved and I toured the outside while we were waiting. She met us and he got to see the inside. I love that it is down the street from the elementary school. I has some needs but the landscaping is impressive. The house is doable. It is in foreclosure if we sell this quick we may stand a chance at it and for a low price too.
We then got a soft drink and drove around. We went to a mall. Walking together we realized it has been more then a year since we have even walked in a mall. It was peaceful together. I found out the diamond in the ring he found is not real. I still think it a wonderful gift from my Abba.
We then went to a riparian area and walked. We saw great blue herons, egrets and many stilts ducks and such. It was quiet! The bees and insects buzzed and you could hear them.
We came home after a long lovely walk and Jay and I visited as the children bathed. They had story time and are off to sleep.
I am feeling so SO much better the saritonin levels are back up and I feel like myself again. I am so grateful to have gotten the help.
Well now we have another marathon to do. Keep this place show ready. The children have 20+ days of school left and then It will get very interesting. Oh OH may it sell fast!

Honesty as a challlenge to fear of rejection.

It has been a very busy time around here lately.
Today after a morning start with lunches and all...I got a call from the Mr. the truck was running very badly and I needed to get the kids to school then meet him at the mechanic....Confused I thought that I was meeting him there.
Dash was home sick... So with Dash in tow I went there and then came home to find the Mr pulling up behind me. I was to meet him here.
He changed all the plugs and wires for another $50.! and now the truck seams to be running fine.
I took Dash to the Pediatrician and then had to have a x ray for a possible sinus infection for him. That was a new one but with all the resistance to anti-biotic I followed advice. He did not have a sinus infection but does have a virus (cold) of sorts. No anti biotic needed!
I came home and just had to lay down a while. The new medication I am on made me very tired for a while.
I awoke to find Daddy Man and Son playing on the couch too cute!

So I had a little refreshment of Carrot juice and almonds.

Beloved went and got Dove from school, and let her stay a few moments with another mother and her friend at the park to come drop Dash off at home.
After he went back to get her the kids watched a movie and I worked some on this post some.
I looked out the garage door to see this...

He was washing my car, my filthy can't see out of the windows! Car! I did not even ask. He drove it twice with the truck not running and took mercy :)

We have the yard sale in the morning. Just for the one day as to not over due myself. We all drove around and hung signs and used crept paper to make them stand out.

The gardeners worked Wednesday on the back yard.
This has proven more stress to try to deep every one off of it.
I walked the two big dogs around the block and have to try to do this often. They are not well leach trained so i'll have my work cut out for me.

The other day these things were found in the middle of the street. I called the number on the bag but they did not know the customer who may have had them. I asked around ...so I guess that I just keep them. They are fabric samples (the store said there was not a deposit on them).

I am here rested.

You see I fell asleep and jest sept for 3 hours today... I slept last night as well. Perhaps many of you can relate to sleep to some of you it my be a stranger. For me lately is was not easy to enter into. I could not calm down enough inside to rest.
Stress is a tormentor to those of us who have stress disorders.
My life has a journey of super natural restorations, but alas I am left with scars.
One of them is a Stress disorder called PTSD.
If and when I get under too much stress I have a bio-chemical challenge. My fight/flight gets stuck on. The adrenaline will not stop pumping. It is sort of like when someone chases you and you kick into high gear. Well selling of the house was on my heals, Then the Ushers thing and the" Chernobyl" question and so on, truck breaking down... and so on ...Well It got stuck on... the hamster broke the wheel and just kept on running around the stripped bearing.
It is a common affliction know to many who develop or who are prone to a chemical imbalance. It however is shrouded in inappropriate shame. I have been really struggling.
A honest heart is a good medicine. After trying to defuse and process with loved ones and friends. I still could not get my mind to wrap around the stress. I could not control the irrational stress response and became clinically depressed. I recently felt so much pain that I ran out of coping mechanisms. When the engine is not firring right all the faith in the heavens is hindered at best. A right mind hampered by the inability to focus and function smoothly.
Yesterday I braved all the courage I could muster and went to the doctor. I had been finding myself thinking of escapes from this struggle and I knew I needed help! Today is my second day on a saritonin/nor-epinephrine andti-depressant. I am beginning to feel a relaxed mind and have been able to shut off the intensity like Mania.
This has been a very hard task to prepare this home, parent my children, deal with medical issues of my child and the financial challenges at hand. The arrows are hitting behind the line and we are aware that what we are doing is right. We are just in for the fight. Truth and freedom do not come easy.
I have not blogged much due to the negative darkness that was shrouding me. I did not want to fill space with the yucky things that were filling my mind.
To those of you of faith thank you for your thoughtfulness.
I am honored by your prayers.
I am a woman who loves God.
I know that there is NO SHAME is casting a broken leg. Mental illness is a real hard thing. So many well meaning Christians have really hurt me over my life time thinking that it is something of satan.
But...if you beat a dog enough it's tail will always be between it's legs. Cause and effect it is not a weakness of character issue. So if any of you my readers can relate. Bless your hearts.
Please don't wait to get help.
The medication is sort a like a supplement for that which your body is not able to produce enough of. High blood pressure should not be neglected either and it is not evil either. I am defending mental illness....Oh ! should I not call it that? It is not a thing to be a shamed of. It is a medical condition that occurs in so many untreated people who really suffer in silence.
Please don't suffer alone. Reach out to someone you can trust. Keep reaching out.
Today I am feeling so much better! The trees even seem greener.
I think I can see the light and the tunnel is not so long of shadow.
I was so worried I might cause someone to stumble or be hindered. I was also concerned about judgment.
Well maybe It is just that YOU there just might now...well...maybe now you might know that you are not alone either.
Be Embraced.

Autism Awareness Month

Cute!

Speaking of cute! Last night little Dash (My skinny sweet little man in a baby's body) , was getting ready for bath time. Well he got a splinter on his bum cheek. I saw the inflammation a size of a dime, I saw a black speck. He said " I got a splinter but I pulled it out" well it was still in there a little bit. So I had to pull a splinter out of his sweet little bum cheek while keeping a straight face. OH OH it was so cute! Daddy Man and I got the sweetest chuckle (out of ear shot) over it. It was just so cute!
No, I did not kiss it better :)
I better get to work.

Tackle It Tuesday

My Master carpenter
Beloved fixed the door.

It is a mettle plate.

I painted it job done.

Remember the craft and Home school drawers.

Before

after
This space is finished now.
I got it packed yesterday.

Dash has a clean room

So easy to pick up with nothing thrown around:)

I finished Doves room staging as well. We still have a half wall behind the shelf to paint. I packed the shelf but we still need to move it to the garage.

Menu Plan Monday

I have been neglecting my menu plan in the midst of all the hubbub. My arthritis is flared up as are the allergies. It is time to get back on the "eating for my blood type and stop blowing off my food allergies. So My Sweet Beloved Husband Insisted I go and get groceries focused on "ME" and my nutritional needs. I did so and now just need to implement the menu. I also need to begin my supplement regimen again slowly and remember to take my medicine for the angioderma ( inflammation) allergy problem. Now remember Dash too has food allergies...so...I have a balancing act that often I drop the ball on my needs out of poor priorities. This week I must put me first not my forte'

Filling in the blanks :)

Monday
Breakfast: Spelt cereal ,soy milk with pure maple syrup
kids have...eggs scrambled with soy cream cheese and whole wheat toast with organic peanut butter or all fruit spread and strawberries.
green tea
Lunch: freezer Egg rolls and tea
Kids p/b and J , strawberries, Dash has pretzels and Dove has cheese crunches.
Dinner:Burgundy/Pepper Lamb tips and Sweet potatoes with green beans.
Kids may or may not eat my fair, I may make some popcorn chicken for their meat.
Tuesday
Breakfast: Scrambled egg with green onions and portibella mushrooms
Lunch: Seafood salad lettuce carrots and artificial crab
Dinner: Left over lamb for me? and sweet potatoes
family...been burrito for Dash , cheese nachos for Dad and Dove with refried beens.
Wednesday
Breakfast: Soy Yogurt and Flax plus cereal, green tea
Lunch : Stir fried rice
Dinner: Jasmine rice and ? ground beef Spanish style tomato sauce with bell peppers and cumin,curry and cyanne peppers Refried green beens.
Thursday
Breakfast: spelt cereal and soy milk with pure maple syrup, green tea
Lunch : Freezer Egg rolls
Dinner: Sushi rice and ?
Friday
Breakfast: Yogurt and flax cereal
Lunch : me..?
Kids...Lunch meat sandwiches, small apple
Dinner: Salad organic romaine and veggies on hand
Saturday
Breakfast:
Lunch :
Dinner:
Sunday
Breakfast:
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Dinner: