A Life Uncommon: Prozac withdrawls

Sunday, June 3, 2007

Prozac withdrawls

Little dove is still awaiting the arrival of our expedited mail order Rx. Withdraws have set in and the Doc. office was demanding a 7day processing on Rx. I will take here to an urgent care when she awakes. It is now 11a.m. and she still sleeps . Her sensory integration dys. is keeping her on a razors edge and I feel awful for her and guilty that this slipped through the cracks. I know that the guilt isn't mine to own it just is. I see her struggle in her own skin.
She has a scratch on her arm that she caused to bleed and she is digressing and stressed. She slept on the sofa again last night for some reason she does not free float so bad on the couch. I also feel angry because she has summer school in the morning and the stress of it might bite her bad. She has a panic disorder that can just be crippling and I cant just make it stop or go away and I feel so helpless as a Mommy.
I cant wait any longer for some Rx for her and I'm mad that I trusted that stupid mail order company.!!! Today is a Sunday! I don't know if Fed Ex delivers on a Sunday.
More copay and double cost for redundant Rx by days end. I feel frustrated, and frightened that she might have a bad start tomorrow. I can just get her to the urgent care and buy another Rx,(trusting that they will give me an Rx) and PRAY, and TRUST God.
I gotta hold my VISTA.

1 comment:

JUST A MOM said...: I am thinking that urgent care should give you a script. She shoudl not be off htem for more then a day or two our doc said. Our pharmacy will give loaner pills when needed to wait for a paper script. That is scarry I sure hope she hangs in there. Poor baby see tha tis one of my good old OCD's I have to hand deliver our meds. hahah love ya Hang in there; June 3, 2007 at 1:32 PM

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