Rest in Peace Dear Rena

Dash "I love her. She is the reason I wake up, and the reason I come home from school"

We just now returned from the vet. We put her to sleep to ease her suffering.

We all three held her hand. 

No more pain.

She went peacefully. 

Say a prayer for my children please.

 Rena our dear Golden Retriever

died today

10-23-1998~3-7-2011

Marriage Monday

~Trust~

Love never fails

"I am for you and never against you.

I am your friend"

He trusts in, confidently relies on her all of the days of his life.

I have known this love. I am living this trust. Yes even give this confidence and received it.

Trust is something earned, not simply given freely. Trust does not mean that mistakes or tragedy never happens. Trust is gained in small steps over time. It is that only God can ever be blindly trusted, that is in an instant. Even so for many God can seem untrustworthy if self expressed expectation exists. God has different ideas than we often do. We can know however, whatever the difficulty

that God is for us and not against us.

Trust in marriage is that, knowing that the each is FOR and never against the other. This dear hearts is earned. Time after time proven out. In early marriage trust is risked in intimacy, sharing history, sharing of true deep feelings for the first time. The giving of ones whole being body soul and spirit over to another. Unfortunately this step is ofter acted out upon before wed lock. The wound of the broken trust can damage lives for ever. Break ups in courtship is wrecked when the real gain could be knowing who we are and what we may or may not desire in a marriage (a lifelong mate).

Confidence is the trust gained at this risk. Can I believe that he/she will hold a confidence or blab it all over. Many loose trust early here finding an ill placed humor or slip of the tong. An argument that humiliates. Such things pose great cost in the currency of trust.

Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding

This was actually the very first scripture I ever memorized. Now Marriage is like this. Many times it is so hard to understand the actions of the other. It is the motive that is in question. If we have risked and gained it is that the other has earned enough trust that even if we do not understand...we know they are for us.

 1983 BIKE TRIP TOGETHER. 

THAT IS 'OLD BLUE' OUR TRUCK STEVE BUILT THAT THING UP FROM FRAME. OH THOSE OLD GREASY SOCKS  ;0

Once we learn each others life stories we can gain a mind of "it's no wonder they respond that way". The goal then is in being for each other. The trust is healing, empowering. We become safe with each other. We are enriched to understand more clearly a since of who we are. We belong to each other. With a mutual mission a goal we begin to accomplish a life together. That is the marriage where the two become one. In body soul (mind) and spirit. It is most often in the mind we differ. However in some marriage trust is broken in the ways of the body. Adultery, or ridicule even in withholding. Others change of minds are an issue of trust. Refusing to let the other think for themselves. It is a wonderful thing to empower each other to think things through. 

It is however in the SPIRIT that one ship is most critical. If that is in power in place then it is no longer a trust just through two, but it becomes three strand.

A cord of three strands is not easily broken.

Married 29 years March 20th

In marriage often trying to figure out what the other one was thinking is the challenge. The catalyst to argument. Trust earned takes the time to try and figure it out through discussion. Attack is not necessary or even an option. That will always be a choice. If we are for each other no need to attack we protect innately. Argument than can reasonably occur at a difference of opinion. It is those arguments that are based in misunderstanding that so often break a bond, a cord of connection. Fighting over some thing that is assumed or taken as harm in act or thought toward the other spouse.

The vows of marriage is all about being

FOR EACH OTHER NEVER AGAINST EACH OTHER

This is the core of trust.

This is the confidence built.

This is the cord that can hold a marriage through friendship, intimacy and reliability.

Oh that cord will be pulled upon I assure you.

It is critical that trust never be broken it is a terrible thing to try to restore. However if trust has been kept, if risk has reward things be ever so much easier to forgive. Even in everything we be for each other we all can error. We all can sin and do sin. It is in the risk of trust. If trust ever be broken beyond repair...it is then that the wound can soul kill. Soul (the mind) can often be restored but it is a terrible torment to the one called upon to forgive. I have witnessed this in many unions over the years. 

Trust...in and confidently rely upon

Be that mate that pays off the risk placed upon you.

Be trustworthy.

The key to a marriage built on trust.

hot Buttons in Marriage

Hello precious Sister,

Some time ago, many of you answered the survey question on this post, "What's the Biggest Problem or Frustration in Your Marriage?" Your valuable feedback in the comment box—and by email—revealed a number of areas or "hot buttons" that married couples find particularly challenging.

And I have not forgotten. So for the next umteen months, we're going to be covering the subject matter as a group. I'll throw out a single word like trust, money, or communication and that will be our topic, OK? You can title your post however you like.

Our Topic for March is "Trust"

Please accept my invitation to join us for Marriage Monday on March 7, 2011. Our group topic is trust.

As always, you have all the freedom you need to cover the subject matter in whatever way you want. You can post prose, a bulleted list, a video, a slideshow, a poem, or a song—whatever the Spirit leads you to share with us. You're the expert, and we're counting on you to teach us a few new things to apply to our own marriages.

Sisters, let's roll!

Blessings,

e-Mom @ Chrysalis

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Love never fails.

We had Doves 13th adoption day this week. she is so beautiful. recently she has worked so very hard and turned a 'c' in math around to a 'b/b+' . We are so impressed that she took such great pride in her education.

this week I posted a post met with total silence. It has been removed. Sorta left me naked and alone to do so.

spending time in the front yard is so favored now. It is so beautiful. the whole of it is pristine. It feels like that little piece of the estate that is just mine to have clean and unadulterated. It is a thing of beauty. Sunflower seeds were planted two days ago. Now I wait for the knees to absorb yesterdays injections.

Annuals are due in moon phase between the 4-12 of March so once the knees stop the fuss I'll get out and plant some more flowers. I love my flowers. Once a dream was to live in the forest and walk the dirt roads tossing wild flower seeds. Like a legacy was the vision. So now they are here in my yard. A legacy left where I am. the forest is within my heart here where it is warm.

A wonderful gift appeared at my door today. My best friend! She spoke and as if a dream it was her. She and I seldom get to speak or visit. Her life is full with work and 5 kids, a stay at home husband, dog and a cat. She is a Jewel, a prized dear friend. One that a six month span can be as if just a day ago. People like that in my life hold me embrace me. It is a belonging to a whole.

My heart is silence of some recent events that have hurt me to the core. To the core. Silenced. We forgive and forebear. We breath in and out and do the best we are able to believe in humanity. To believe the best in humanity. No matter the wounds we must not let it defuse the compassion's we chose to set forth in our lives.

Sweet Dash got a really BIG HUGE lesson is tough love today. So much so that his birthday must be postponed to get the lesson across. Really tears me up to do what must be done. Love is that way you know it can just tear us up.

Love never fails though.

Jacob Lusk - God Bless the Child, American Idol 2011 Hollywood Week

Word Filled Wednesday

Hello Hope the day has given you an opportunity to enjoy some beauty. Sewing and catching up on the many repairer jobs in my Que kept and is keeping me busy in a pleasant way.

Monday dash's quilt received the last stitches of a long line of threads. It was a real privileged and pleasure to give a little love not and the date. His 10th birthday is Sunday so we are holding buck until then. I want to just to give it too him, but the gifts he will received are limited this year.

 So you think he needed a new one?

 Front of the old one lasted well but the back was torn to bit.

 Little or should I now say medium boy blue is very hard on his jeans. So I sew...the process will get posted over at my other blog 'a place to create'. This was completed today.

We have an ironing board that Steve gave me as a birthday gift years ago. It is in the Master closet. One of the fold up into the wall type. It is worn out! so I sew... A new cover for it. The heat resistant fabric a real find. hot pads will use up the scraps once I get to them.

My flowers are really coming up now. The spring seeds ready to get into ground. Both Veggie and flower. Most all of the seeds were either harvested or already purchased last year. It is nice to avoid the added costs. Most of the flowers from the seed swap failed. The ones I harvested off of the poppies are now in full force green as the forest in spring. Color is increasing daily. I am loving it! Now it takes a couple of weeks with the neighbors thinking

' when are they going to pull all those weeds'? 

It is my joy to bring forth a little beauty on my street. So after a long day of work perhaps the change of mood in my neighbors might even spark a better evening for families on my street.

"bloom Where your planted" a light upon a hill not easily hidden. 

Folks perhaps might give up on a light till it blooms...but once it shines dear Lord has mercy!

Enjoy your day.
I am going out to run over an apple. Dash asked what it would be like. :) Why not satiate his curiosity.

 predictions

back up

 predictions

pull forward

 querry

 assessment

 hadn't thought about apple juice

Now some might say that is a perfectly waste of an apple

to me the mind is a terrible thing to waste

that was fun

He was sure surprised I took him up on his question

yes...he cleaned it up and I hosed off the juice
Bringing up the children in the way they should go.

A New Knee

Well hello all of you dear hearts out there.

Today was an interesting and educational day.

After the children were off to school and the morning rest I went to visit my sister in the hospital.

She had her second knee replacement surgery Yesterday. The hospital is 25 miles one way. A beautiful drive where the surrounding mountains are close and the vast desert valley open to view. 

This hospital was more like a 4 star hotel. The public toilet even had the toilet paper roll folded to a point! Beautiful place only 60 beds all set for knee replacements. This doctor is the number one in the nation for the procedure. She and I have the same insurer only my benefits are better even than hers. We are so blessed.

This morning I had a flush of a reality hit me while standing in my master closet. I groaned out a "I'm not wanting this Lord"...then the flush was pass and the fear gone. Folks last Thursday my x ray showed that the right knee is now bone on bone. For the last four years I have been receiving synvisc injections, the first time only in the right knee. The goal has been to hold out as long as I can for the kids to get older and more self sufficient.

Standing there I knew within me 'it is time'. What a strange place I am in. My spirit has complete peace even a bit of excitement at the thought of living pain free in my knee. I understand that knee replacement is one of the worst pain producing surgeries one can have. My heart does flutter with the apprehension of what I will be up for . It is great courage that I will earn this knee :)

We are thinking of June after we take the kids to Disneyland (Lord and finance willing). That will give me time to heal before Doves first year of Jr. High. Up and able (hopefully) by July or so to take the kids to a pool.

The time to lose weight is NOW! so I must bring in all diligence and discipline.

The times or in His hands. There is a time for everything. Knee replacement will be coming soon it appears.