Do appriciate your thoughts of dear sweet friendship

tired girl
very very tired girl.
Working so hard to keep above water and to catch up on all these months of listless days.
The garden in also going in with the heat of Indian summer
 almost there.
So much to do.
Please pray for Dove she is so showing her special needs. She a 13 year old is well...not 13. Two years younger are her peers. Yet the tantrum she tossed in the track we were walking in tonight would of made any mom, even the most seasoned just blush and stand startled and amazed. Please pray for Dash he at 10 is so beyond Dove now and beginning to surpass her in several ways and he sees it. He goes from utter frustration with her to playing stuffed animals with her. Too cute really and sweet yes at home so beautiful.
In the world...Lord Lord keep me from even thinking about it.
I walked one mile tonight. We all went to the high school track. Steve walked /ran, kids on bikes and running around on the bleachers. ie Doves apartment and Dash was not allowed in...see what I mean. then he went over to the other side and she came over and locked him out! She was being a jerk! Told her so...well not too proud of that
just pray it is challenging.

My next infusion is Saturday.
A week early to get on a better schedule. This will place me before each holiday infused and with greater immunity when I will need it most.
Still coming to terms emotionally with a grateful yet grieving heart. The effect of the $4000 a month life time need has just over stressed My husband for the future. No retirement in site for him. Insurance is a must.  At 65 I will have his medicare but if lay off we are terrified. Makes me crazy cause I trust that it just has to be in the long run ok. It has always been that God has favored me for his reasons. Just can not imagine Him changing. He is always the same never changing consistent even though I am not.

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I'm blessed
just human and flawed