Day of Sweet Solitude

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The family and another Father and Son all went Spelunking (caving) today up in the North country. A time for the Fathers to take their young ones on an adventure (for all) of courage and daring (especially for the Fathers ha ha).

Little ol' me...Well after a morning hour nap I followed my hearts desire right to my beading station. I have no camera today for the Men took it with them. Mr U ( my sweet darling) took treasure of my hearts desire and moved my table. I have not even had an interest in a while to bead. After some prayer I realized it was too dark of natural light (a priceless commodity) and all the lamps in the house could not satisfy the need.

I had a vision of the table under the far window. Mr U moved it for me . IT FIT WITHIN A 1/4 of an inch!!!! He and I both had a romantic moment with our God grateful and acknowledged his loving presence. As we did just before they all pulled out today.

After packing everything up and re assembling the whole room (let alone the whole house) much pleasure is found in creating it the way I would of had we really moved. When you gather things for years they just sort of fill in the places available. I am now placing the item just where my heart would of always desired and setting things up in an ergonomic professional way.

I have been thinking about what happened with a thing that could of been joy but turned sorrow and grieving.

In my church there was a invitation for a fellowship of beading once a month. I was almost overjoyed to tears at the opportunity of being with others who could share knowledge and even receive some from me if I were able to offer it (this a life long dream). It did not turn out that way.

First meeting she shared a cup of tea...then tried to include us in a pyramid purchase so she could earn another cup and saucer she desired...I over looked it. She shared wonderfully her skill and knowledge of soldering. It was wonderful and she shined...but no one else had any opportunity too. :(

Next meeting She offered us $30. of her product if we opened our home and invited all our friends...to her, so she could do a show to sell her work... :( grieved...Then she showed us "her wonderful idea (it was) for a lovely "gift of the spirit" necklace very cute. Conversation however was halted when I shared some idea about movement adding to one piece a real character. Leaving the necklace on the table with two or three others she then said ..." they are $25 if you are interested...and that is a really good price"....

"and the Spirit grieved"....I wept that night and have been so very sad at the loss (both hers and my own)

Next Monday night...I think I will stay home and set the time apart to bead with Papa. It is so good to be with a "friend" with clear motives.

Today He and I are having a lot of fun. You know He really loves color, order and silence. It's good enough with Him if we just hang out. He hasn't even tried to sell me anything.:) He has showed me some really good ideas though. I even shared my heart with Him, and He liked it!