My Role as Wife, the silent business partner,

Today the awareness was re-awakened within me that I am a business partner here.
With the kids in school now and a sabbatical from all the kids therapy interventions it is as if I am coming out of the comma of doing to much. I succeeded at home school but with a very great price to our families financial success. God has certainly been generous to us and we have not done without, yet we are living to the top of our income. I remember the days when I had the accounts receivables and expenses in my cross hairs and could just by a whim re-allocate funds to meet additional principle or chose a major purchase debt free without hitting our savings. I used Quicken for years and then it fell into a ruin. I was consumed when Becca came home from Russia so ill. Then the 22 months of therapy all three disciplines for 22+months before I was able to breath. We sold our home of 16 years when the freeway stopped in our backyard (literally). Moved into this house drove 22 miles one way for three years for Becca's therapy 2-3 times a week. During that time so many surgeries for the endomitriosis. Steve took over the finances but not really not like I knew how to.
We decided to bring another child out of the orphanages. Dan was conceived in our hearts. then 911 stopped us from getting him out. Thanking God that we were not on one of those ill fated flights. We had a new son in December. All of his illnesses and surgeries.
Motorola closing the pant and a year of unemployment. Some of our adoption expences were covered through Motorola adoption reinbursement. That saved us. The car accident that put me out or several months. Knee surgery this year
It is amazing that we are afloat!
I feel a little panicked this morning thinking about what I might do as a business (of our family) to help our family, to lighten my husbands load.
We went from a few years till full vested retirement, to 1/3 of our income. My dear husband pulling in side work keeps the tally close. I have been in such a blur. I see now about the "crisis" see speaks and the pressure he must feel as the full time provider of funding for this fine estate.
I want to be more effective and so now that I have 5 more hours in the day to do so the urgency is before me. We are not a young couple now. Thankfully we have kept disciplin not to get into debt. Our cars are paid for and we keep up the maintaince ourselves.
Meal planning and prep, efficiency and maybe I can get rested up enough to do a little E=Bay selling. My jewelry I'm told is a gold mine. I may go to some local nail salons. That really intimidates me! The Gallery in pine is a far trip now and it barely paid for the gas. I did enjoy the trips up though.
I must spend all the less and keep doing the lunches and meals. Thank goodness I'm a good cook and homemaker these skills have and do make a lot of difference. I'll sew mor for the kids too. I have a lot of fabric. I remember the "little house on the prairie" of my childhood. How much I greatly respected that womon and her industry. She was so beautiful in her dignity.
I'm beautiful too. I'm strong like her in my character. Its like a challenge to battle my courage is welled up within me. I must use my own intelligence to partake in this career and succeed.
We women of the home are the warriors of our families. I stand beside Steve and fight through the many voices into the path that meets the needs at hand.
Now I wake up to see that by the grace of God our family finances were preserved during the drought that was my absence from the accounting. We are O.K.
I am needed in so many ways I am vital.