Dash's Apointment at CRS

He again had a hearing test (it was unexpected), then we were to await the ENT (ear/nose/throat doctor.
I explained the anomalies and events of late with Dash...
The Doctor said..."That could be Ushers"...I felt like I was going to puke. Every event of CRS is no were alright but this time it was not. The Doctor asked if dash was born near Chernoble. I have no idea. I do not think so. I told him they said last week that they think not because his eyes are perfect and he said..."well something is wrong because it is not normal nor is it alright for him to be having these problems." He ordered a "Balance Test" to be done, and to come back in three MONTHS! No ear infections or fluid in the middle ear.

The blessed JUNK machines. This is the goal of the day for mom to say yes. A woman on the hospital staff (that had purchased one of my lanyards) said hello and ask how I was. I said "that I could use a hug". She said oh well I can offer that. She embraced me and I began to speak the truth God is God, Dash is his... I trust God.
God will be strong for me.
marbles tossed in my path...just marbles to make me slip and slide and obstruct my sure footing. I just got home from a long day.
I want to hug my pillow and hide under my blankets.
I ate my left over Chinese food. Sit here and have my children near me.
The flight fight is kicking in, yet...I don't have to be angry ...I don't have to run away from it .
Walk... face this life I am living and move one foot in front of the other..Dig my toes in the sand and hold on! Kick the marbles out of my path and remember that God is God and I am not.
Dash will have the testing done.
God is God.