A different perspective.

While I was out mowing my lawn this morning I was thinking about fear.
A thought occured to me there is a passage that says; "the thing we fear most will come apon us".
While many ,even I in time past, feel a dread while thinking about this, I felt another more loving interpratation.
What if.........for example.......My daughter, who has Social Conitive dysfunction, who is vonerable to being bullied, or worse yet as the doc tells me this is the kid who is in danger of being raped etc. We must watch her with dilligence. What if this; being my worst fear ever for my girl, is the very thing I needed to deal with the wounds of all the rape I suffered in my youth.
What if the gift is to learn to stop being afraid.
What if ......for example when Dan came home with hypothyroiism and the scare of retardation and dworfism we delt with for three years was to learn to stop being afraid. What if the sleep apnia and his asthma was a chance to trust God for every bredth. What if the Ushers Syndrome (Deafness/ blindness in adilecence) threat is the same thing to learn to stop being afraid. My husband when adopting had the worst fear of a deaf son. "how could a male child succeed and have a prosperous life?" Afraid for the child not himself. We are older and will not survive to care for these kids into thier later adult years.
All those years I delt with my own hearing loss and surgeries. Learning sign language and being humiliated by my own hearing impairment.
What if the reason I was'nt soo afraid when Dan was haveing and is even now facing more possible corrective surgeries is because I had to face down those fears already . I SAW GOD THERE FOR ME>
I CAN MORE EASILY SEE GOD THERE FOR DAN IN THIS>

Being able to see God there in our lives is the very part of TRUST that removes all Fear.
So What if it is a real gift that the very things we fear come upon us so that we can learn trust.
Trust in God to be made BIG in the midst of all this big stuff.

I used to fear that God would reject me: so then even at my worst he proved me wrong. He proved fear wrong. The very thing that we fear might just be the very gift that we need to prove fear wrong!