A wonderful winters day

 I woke up the old board. Some of you might recall.

 This is organization central. It has set idle while I was recovering these last six years.

In years past this has been a vital tool in home making economics.

This tool and the use of it has saved us thousands of dollars.

 I got the gumption to do a menu today.

This is the first day in years that I have really been so active with food prep.

Years ago it was a weekly planner as it will now become again.

 

 Most restaurants have whats called a sue chief, the one who dices, cubes and such. Readying the ingredients for the dishes. Here as my own, I diced the onion, celery for the soup. Setting aside a measure for a curry for next week and some salad fixins.

 This big pot first was used to boil pasta, the pasta water was poured into the soapy sink water to soak pans. Reuse. Reduce and recycle is a motto I adored long before it was popular.

 Baked potato, enchilada, roasted root veg.

We have precious few cold days here. So the oven was set to double task.

Heat the house.

 To protect my back the plastic is now on a top shelf. The glass bake ware below.

 I buy good butter by the pound. Dicing up a bit for the week for eggs, or misc pan frying.

 By chopping up all the veggie for the soup into one large container it is all ready at the same time for the soup.

 These things set to cool on a rack.

 By melting butter I make gee, separate the whey and the solids. 

They would burn and add a bitter taste to my soup. 

There are times that the solid is best for flavor but not here.

 remove the whey or the white foam

then only use the oil not the solids

 This will not burn 

There are turorials on this blog for the soup somewhere.

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 Roasted root veggies of carrot, parsnip, sweet potato.

Used butter and nutmeg on them. 

They will be served with the lamb later in the week.

 Here is where you can use up those butter solids and the whey.

 I added water to measure.

 After the cooling the enchiladas packaged into to meals.

 Buying organic bananas letting them ripen well, peal and store them in a zip bag in the freezer for breakfast protein smoothies

 My lamb will be baked with curry, I ran out and will make some more. 

Years back when I researched curries I made note of it on my re-purposed jar.

I'll set this a side for another day.

Stevie Nicks Landslide Lyrics

Climb a mountain step by step.

Yesterday I climbed a mountain and I turned around.
I made it about a 1/4 of the way. Steep at parts but I did it.
I heard a comment from a friend that said" I am not a vessel as much as I am trying to be in cooperation with Gods will in my life."

I started IVIG in 2010 but was ill for at least three years before deteriorating. I do not even look like myself. I look like my mother when she was still with us. Strange to see my dear body so heavy. I just keep going, just keep fighting back. It is so amazing three weeks ago I was in a wheel chair. The hike was hard only in my calves very painful. My breathing was great! The tests last week showed 110% capacity! Even with still having the low IgA that protects my lungs I could climb. No pain in my low back either! Some fatigue today not much though. It was so peaceful out in nature.
This has been a long road to recovery.

Kathy and Dr Nemeh

My husband took me to Cleveland Oh this last weekend. The treatment was unconventional medicine with a heaping teaspoon of faith and hope, but mostly LOVE. Dr Nemeh used red Lazar and green Lazar along with a form of acupuncture along the meridian lines. Used also was a type of low frequency magnetic. This with prayer. Love seems to be the factor in all of  those healed he believes. It is the connection to the God of love through His Son Jesus. I do not claim to understand all things. It was not just basic mind over mater here. I have been pain free in my low spine since our second visit. It took over two hours a visit but his attitude and serine way was so refreshing.
During the first treatment it was like the pain was gathered into balls here and there. Then that night the ligaments and muscles moved. The next day the treatment went as was the day before but at this moment in time when I was distracted with fear he changed my focus with a word spoken and at that instant my back changed from a hard mass of bones to putty. I was in a sitting position and he let me down flat on my back. NO pain. My husband was so concerned I might scream out for this was not a position I have held in years.
Now I am pain free in my low spine. Other spots hurt here and there but not my low spine. Even after a long flight home in a sardine can of a jet plane.
At that instant of change in my spine the best way I can describe what I felt was ....the absence of fear. The next step for me would have been spine surgery for stenosis with nerve involvement that was effecting my ability to walk and to have continence.

Miracles still happen. 

Love God Psalm 91...he has loved me

In the Arms of an Angel with lyrics

Remembering days of yor and update.

I see it has almost been a full year ago I last visited this blog. I think that the long absence was a time of letting go and healing the loss of all that I used to do and be. Last week my dear friend and nurse Ashley asked if I would share my knowledge of homemaking with her.
A large part of my life was spent homemaking intentionally. It was a time of great strength and vigor. Those years set aside for a time are now beginning to speak to my soul. My strength is improving now. I have IVIG every three weeks. With the exception of joint and spine issues I am keeping healthy. Recently daily meals and food prep is coming back on line for my family. I push a little harder to keep us all fed and on a budget.
My spirit was crushed and broken those years after my knee replacement. The time in the nursing home really stole my light.
It is my hope to fan my flame and begin to burn brighter.
The teens are home for summer and with the many friends they have meals are a real challenge to keep up on.

 Now the peers drive and have boyfriends

 Becca is going to be 18 soon, she and her boyfriend enjoyed doing puzzles, an inexpensive date.

 We love our Willy boy, he is now completely blind.

 Livy our yellow lab helps Willy around the house.

 Becca is going steady with Andrew.

They spend as much time together as they can. 

He works full time as a Medical Assistant with hopes toward Medical school.

 Dan turned 14 this spring. 

He is very tall now and is loving the summer times with the sleeping late.

 Livy and Willy like to tug on bones.

 We made it up to the mountains this spring but just for the one day.

I showed Becca what I mean by watching the trees dance.

We had to come home because I fell ill.

That is so our limitations these last few years. However I keep plugging along. My great big news is a new car. The other one was not in the best of working order and a bit too painful to get in and out of. The windows did not work either. For the first time in 34 years of marriage we have a car payment. I tried to post an image but can not get it sized right.

My strength is limited so I am trying to be diligent to do what I am able to do.

Home from the UK

Hello all
We are home just over a week now. It was a wonderful trip. So many adventures. I still have my young guest here so we are yet busy with school set to start for my teens in a week or so.
I made it through all my adventures and just two hours away from home it all unraveled. We had been on flight for almost seven hours and my health failed. I had to get oxygen in flight. The flight ended with the medivac team coming inboard to remove me. I never inconvenienced so many people at one time. I had to be taken my ambulance to hospital. I spent the night there. We proved out no heart attack and blood clots. Possibly altitude illness and or possibly my pressure bottomed out. NO one knows yet why. I have to follow up with the cardiac doc on the 6th.
I was so mad that my goal was interrupted.
My ivig Saturday went well.
All in all I really did do it. I took a trip that sent me over 5000 miles from home. I was loved and favored all the way. I spent time helping others and seeing a reflection that reminded me who I am. Even getting to see that I really like who I am.
If I do fly again it has to be for shorter distance to work up to long flights. Now I have a mess of a house to work on. Getting kids ready for school and bills to pay.
Life is good and the grass is greener but the weeds still hide among every lawn. :) There are however a few things that I want to implement here.
Thank you Jaye and Lisa for the hugs.
I was hard to tell of how it all ended but I still succeeded in overcoming my fear. I am living with NOT dying of cvid. I do hope that my husband can see me now as powerful.
We took the teens all up to the Grand Canyon last week. I rented a wheel chair for the altitude still did not agree with me. We also took them to the Meteor Crater. Little trips and resting a lot. My energy was still good after almost five week interval.
So after four years of ivig I am so much more able. Still getting faced with limits but I will continue my education of learning to live within them.

Trusting the walk by Spirit not just by sight.

It is really happening. In six days my daughter and I will be boarding to fly to England!
This trip started out as an opportunity to build a lasting memory with my daughter. It was so exciting to think of all the teaching moments with her. It is an opportunity to try to instill all the things that time may not permit me. My time may be shorter that other mothers get. It is a thrill to have this chance to get to really know her heart too. She is amazingly kind and a delightful innocence not burned by prejudice, she delights in life.

I have my ivig on Monday. Most everything is done except a few things around here.

I told my daughter four months ago to dream and not to just dismiss her heart. We are invited to stay in a home for three weeks. Wow her heart heard and her faith in hope built.
My health is strong and I resting and preparing.
Listen to your heart. All around me the rules and fears and doubts almost lost my joy over the trip.
My sweet daughter does high school on line at home. She met and befriended a medically bed bound teen who also did school at home. The group of friends shared hopes and after a few months my daughter became closer to this dear young man. We skyped his parents and grandmother. It is his grandmother who is so dearly grateful to my daughter for bringing her grandson back to health. Their friendship gave the kids a future mindset. They both finished the grade yr and the young man was even able to do his testing.
My daughters heart healed another and gave a hope for a future.

It is the kindness of her heart, not the fears of evil that is to be witnessed here. Yet those who are so afraid of error made me second guess my own heart to a state of torment. I was and have been so afraid that I was a horrible mother to take her to England. That I was putting her in danger or harms way. That is the farthest thing from my heart. I have a release seeing that I as mother to this amazing young woman am due some credit for following the spirit above the seeming rules of fear.

We are blessed to go to England and stay for three weeks as guest. I trust in my heart that this is an adventure of faith and beauty. Opening ones life to the wonders of opportunity God sets before us.
Whether for a moment a reason or a lifetime these two teens will meet in person. My daughter will be celebrated for the wonderful friendship and kindness that gained another back his strength to hope again.
Both of the young adults are looking to the future, to education and employment one day. Someday perhaps to become engaged to marriage. It may be a moment or it could be a lifetime. I have witnessed an amazing relationship where they build each other up. They encourage each other to follow what is right within their own hearts. He plans another four years education as does she hope to attend college.

After six months of daily skype they will meet face to face.

 I am highly thought of by his people yet it seems our own doubt and fear leaving me to even doubt my own heart. They are so very excited that we are coming. There are celebrations and events that they are tending to for us.
My daughter grieves that when Tom flys home with us for the three weeks that all he will encounter is suspension and assumptions that sex is involved. How hurtful and sad that that is for my daughter that she is thought so little of. These are people who deserve LOVE not petty judgements. I will do my best to example that love to them.

We are excited to take the family to the Grand Canyon and all. Toms health now is good, his family is very grateful that we will show him a little bit of America. It is Toms hope to one day have a good education and come to the US and have a good job to take care of his duties well. We have a separate bedroom for him and I will be here with them.
When we look upon another life and see evil perhaps it is the evil within us that is the true enemy to be faced. That we might face it all and learn to love our own self to become better able to truly love others.

We have shut down the garden and the chicken coop

Today was a huge milestone for me. We let go of our chickens and our bunnies. Tomorrow folks from a rescue are going to receive all my cages and hen house. I will be dismantling my gardens and passing on the goods to others.
I have accepted that gardening and hens and rabbits in the yard are now a season that must pass. I have peace about it. I cried a bit but the most amazing thing occurred
The man and his son who came to get the hens and the rabbits were wonderful folks. We all even prayed together at the end of the thing. He prayed for my health and for our family.
I loved my garden and now pass along all the gain of the hard work I once put into it all. The fellow even thanked me for all the hard work I had done.
It was beautiful
Tomorrow afternoon the other folks come to clear out a many good things.
I think I will try to sell my fence panels and a few other things.
I have peace knowing the animals are fed and watered and in no way neglected. It has been a real burden and a bit of condemnation knowing that they deserved better than I could do for them.
My children even have a peace that has rid them of the anger and sorrow of letting the critters go.

I accept that the seasons of my life have changed. I in no way give up or give in to illness. I give over to the abilities I have and choose not to overwhelm myself any further.

It is really pretty cool.
What a weight off knowing that all those tasks are no longer weighing upon my limited energies. More of me to do other things more restfully.

It was a terribly hard night for me last night. To tell ya true I feel a bit lost letting go of my garden and hens bunnies and all. It was as if I was disappearing and I was gone sorta. Like where am I now?
I got up in the night and my sweet husband insisted on hearing me out so I could process. We base our sense of self in what we do or are known for. I feel absent now. Me no longer the gardener the woman who all the kids loved to come and feed the hens gather an egg or pet the bunnies.
I gave my prized gardening veggie notebook away that contained so many years research and study at gardening at 1200 ft above sea level.
The Bee Bliss garden is no more.
The mornings no longer ring with hens begging fodder
Now the bark the rabbits tore off the trees reminds me only of dieing trees

I have said a million times to others...nature arbores a vacuum

I spoke of a hole in my heart. A vacant place. My children spent the day with my ivig nurse playing with her children. I went and had a mani pedi wore my mask and sunglasses and cried during the pedi. Spoke very little did not want to speak of it all
I awoke to my nurse and telling her of the transition and she is so startled it is all gone.

My daughter is staying the night with her, my son is home we had to get his stitch removed. I stayed home alone. I watched a movie about a healer and how she spent her life giving life to others.

I remember that God once told me He has a purpose for me.
I hope that propose fills this hole. knowing Him It will.
Just no fun walking around with this gaping hole in my sense of self. 

Thrive for this is life.

I have found a wonderful support network. It is called Daily Strength. They have an easy hundred different topic groups. I am meeting a few who also have this rare CVID.

Life within our sweet walls is good. The children are happy and healthy. They are doing very well in school.
It is hard to write here, this reminds me of who and how I once lived with such vibrancy. I am working on accepting life on its terms. It is a good life even if it is so very different. Grieving the change has come closer to acceptance. My garden looks like a deserted wild west town, as does all of the flower gardens.
I have two spinal procedures within the next few weeks and perhaps I will be able to toss a few seeds and tend them. We are eating together at the table so this a huge accomplishment. Dove is helping me wanting to learn. She came to me, a 16 year old now, asking me "mom can I do the dishes?I want to learn how to be a good wife." Wow am I blessed or what!

Dash is good he is choosing good character not an easy thing in this world. Steve and I are happy and doing our best to lean into being our best. We still have all ten hens, three bunnies and two dogs. Oh and a gold fish. Many lives here.

I hope the lives of you who read this thrive.

Invisible Illness Week (Sept 10-16) : 30 Things Meme

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30 THINGS ABOUT MY INVISIBLE ILLNESS YOU MAY NOT KNOW – 30 THINGS MEME
1. The illness I live with is: Common Veritable Immune globbulin Deficiency with low IGa the defense in our saliva, a Primary Immune Illness, Fibromyalgia, Post Traumatic Stress Disorder and Joint and Spinal Degenerative Arthritis, pulmonary issues.
2. I was diagnosed with it in the year: 2010 two weeks after my sister died of it.  With the CVID three years ago after several miss diagnosis left me totally demined and humiliated. The Later stages of CVID untreated acted like MS., seizure and several bazaar systems
3. But I had symptoms since: All of my life, infections and strange illness plagued me.
4. The biggest adjustment I’ve had to make is: Is having to mask in public, IVIG every four weeks of eight hour infusions of plasma. Slowing way down at my duties of homemaker and mother. Staying away from large gatherings of people, like church or gatherings.
5. Most people assume: Once infused I am immune to getting ill for four weeks. That is not always the case stress or fatigue can make me very vulnerable to airborne illness not having natural immune defenses.
6. The hardest part about mornings are: Removing the CPAP and breathing on my own getting past the eye opening pain and standing walking stiff.
7. My favorite medical TV show is: I think I tire of medical watching it on tv is just sad.
8. A gadget I couldn’t live without is: Under the cabinet jar opener.
9. The hardest part about nights are: Pain. Laying down increases it and taking the muscle relaxer and tramadol is disliked. I wish my day would have been more productive. Keeping a good attitude for a new day is tough. Meditation nightly really helps.
10. Each day I take 1 pills/vitamins. I do not take all of them each day, I just cant. So I do the most important ones.  vitamin powder b stress tabs and the ones I can stomach. When on the antibiotics and steroids they are taken and the supplements are reduced.
11. Regarding alternative treatments. I study and supply myself with needed items. I am eating for my blood type and doing a cortisol connection protocol to help the effects of the PTSD. I do get very discouraged when I get sick. 
12. If I had to choose between an invisible illness or visible I would choose: The port in my chest often reminds others that I really am sick. I helps me to remember all those donors of plasma that help keep me alive. My sister died in the indignity of invisibility. I live. The mask I must use makes me very visiable and is a hard thing to do. Some times I think that it is nice to blend in. I go with out the mask at great risk. Last time it left me sick now for almost two weeks. Physical invisibility is different from emotional invisibility it is the harder to have all these feelings all alone.

13. Regarding working and career: Dreams are less actualized but still fun to imagine.
14. People would be surprised to know: How sad I am for my caregivers.
15. The hardest thing to accept about my new reality has been: Future and the end that may come me.
16. Something I never thought I could do with my illness that I did was: Go out in public when the infusion is going on. My wonderful nurse and I go get mani pedi, or shop. People stare at me. 
17. The commercials about my illness: Except for the copd or the arthritis nothing is on. It is a rare thing. Dont see to many commercials about donating plasma.
18. Something I really miss doing since I was diagnosed is: Gardening and growing flowers. Working with my body.
19. It was really hard to have to give up: Gatherings
20. A new hobby I have taken up since my diagnosis is: Keeping the infusion kit organized, watching a lot of HULU and netflix.
21. If I could have one day of feeling normal again I would: walk for miles in a cool misty rain.
22. My illness has taught me: That to some my life is only valuable in order to finish raising my kids. To me my life is valuable to me to live it for the life that I deserve to live. 
23. Want to know a secret? One thing people say that gets under my skin is: "mom do you have to ware a mask?"
24. But I love it when people: Forget that I am sick.
25. My favorite motto, scripture, quote that gets me through tough times is: Psalm 91 God loves me because I love Him.
26. When someone is diagnosed I’d like to tell them: Study and go to the Primary Immune Difficantcy Support group. Keep trying to reach out even when it is hard.
27. Something that has surprised me about living with an illness is: My nurse is here for me every month. She stopped all other patients and part time patients but me.
28. The nicest thing someone did for me when I wasn’t feeling well was: Bring me a home cooked meal. Made my chores easier. Kissed me on the forehead, and told me He was here for me. 
29. I’m involved with Invisible Illness Week because: I am trying my best to get out of this dark lonely cave I have been held up in.
30. The fact that you read this list makes me feel: scared 

LADEE Heads for the Moon

LADEE

Ya! A three year project that My Mister has been working with hundreds of other good folk has successfully launched! We had the kids watch. It was so good to show them science in action. My husbands company along with NASA has set new laser that might one day communicate inter planetary. Fascinating stuff well it is on its way to the moon.

Good Job all of you on a successful mission. In a few days time the orbit will come so close to the surface of the moon that it could be like looking up at a plane in the sky.

The cooperation of so many many highly skilled people is an inspiration.

Plasma Protien Therapies

http://youtu.be/Px7NrecWseU

To all of you who donate plasma I thank you. Perhaps this is a good example of how it helps those with Primary Immune Deficiencies. Common Veritable immunoglobblin deficiencies IVIG.

getting back into life

This has been a full month for us here. Getting the children set in school and helping a friend during a surgery kept me busy.
My health a challenge as well. Bursitis hit my hip helped by an injection, with the MRI and such my low back showed some need for attention. Injections into some muscles in my mid back have helped with some muscles that were not willing to soften. The low back will be tested with injections into five nerves to see what one the stinosis is effecting. This in hopes to gain more mobility.
With my dear friend giving me power of attorney for a few days the task proved too much responsibility to be accomplished without a fair amount of stress and strain. Then I was exposed to a sinus infection through my son the day before infusion. I have been ill a week now. Monday found me at the ER with a pulmonary issue. Thank God no pneumonia so a stronger steroid and heavy antibiotics has me slowed this week.
I am however finding strength in dressing how I want to feel. I went to a thrift store and found a few nice things. Making jewelry for each outfit is a pleasing addition.
My loving husband sat with me during the ER stay and it could not have gone much better. We arrived to only one person in waiting room. They had been slammed all night, but we had decided to try to go to sleep. I awoke not being able to breath and arrived by five a.m.. It was so awesome we went to a new to us hospital where my friend had had surgery just the week before. We had a team familiar with power ports due to a cancer center next door. Great doctor and wonderful nurses and respiratory tech. I did not have to go in patient. Thanking God we arrived home to the children only being awake an hour or so.
I rested today and did some laundry, beading and an easy supper of baked potato.
The back pain has me up, but my mind is so full of creative ideas. I am at peace.

This I believe about medical challenges

Living life with medical challenges gives us pause. We often wonder about the battles we face.  Many who suffer procedure after procedure, indignity after indignity tire. We are left wondering if it is worth the battle. If we see our life as living for the next medical issue to arise, is that a life worth while. When what we have to look forward to is more pain, more surgeries the costs to our families both financially and emotionally "why?". Why fight it? I have battled the CVID now for almost three years. With the fear of job loss=insurance loss always hovering.
For every moment. Every moment that we have matters.

Last evening I shared my heart with my husband. I told him how it is to have such seeming unfairness. This week after finally overcoming having both arms reattached at the shoulder labium now another issue is resurfacing. I have been successfully addressing the PTSD cortisol syndrome. I have been able to get back into life and be active at home. Pain again accosts me. After not wanting to face another doctor office for a few weeks, I was forced to, or that is at least how it felt. I am now with bursitis in my right hip, lumbar sprain, stinosis is worse and the disc is degenerated between #4 and #3 vertibre. I will get an injection in hip next week and after the MRI  an injection at the least in the back. There may be a bone spur. The sciatic nerve is being pressed as well as my spinal column. More PAIN! ARG! I had an injection of anti inflammatory medication and patches for it as well. I am unable to take the pills they make me sick. The patches are so expensive but are working pretty well. Insurance is such a blessing. I never knew that the patches for inflammation even existed.

I stopped blogging in part because of the tendency to resend into a cave when I am hurting.


 My dear husband sent me this today. Click on the link. It really set my mind in a better state of courage to face the next thing.

this i believe

Life at my house

Before we went to California on vacation at the end of June, Steve and I got together and trimmed the tree. We took a few hours each night for a week. He did all the climbing. We cut it up into small pieces and disposed of it over two week. He worked so hard. We saved the $400 and used it to buy the puppy.

Good Morning

Just as the alarm went off the clap of thunder greeted us awake.

 Welcome home, come sit a spell it has been a long time.

 You would be rushed at the door by the labs. This is Olivia, Livy for short. She is our new addition. Busy Little girl. Our dear Willy has Valley Fever so he is is a bit under the weather. He is also going blind. Livy we hope will become a seeing eye dog for the dog.

Grandma had a birthday and we got together for a photo op recently.

 Dove and her best friend, these two are very good friends. We took her to Disneyland with us last month for Doves 16th birthday gift.

 Grandma had her work cut out for her trying to get these two goof balls to pose.

 

 O.k. seriously now.

 

 

 Daddy's little girl.

 In love after all these years.

 We see the years in our faces. 

We don't mind it though.

 We caught them being sweet.

 The folks came over to gift Dove her $$$gift. She is setting it to savings in hope of getting a truck one day. She wants an old 1970's or 1980's truck lifted. She will be working of her drivers permit soon.

NO HURRY !:)

 

 Livy sat at Grandpa's feet with her bone.

 

 Dove loves Arial. She got a dinglehopper brush from her brother. 

We picked it up at Disneyland when we were there.

 She loved her new dress Steve and I got for her.

So grown up.

 The pretty flower for her hair was from her friend.

 I made her a bracelet of wire worked sea glass and charms of the sea.

The girls both want to become Marine Biologist.

 "sixteen candles"

After a $5 movie and lunch out we came home to ice cream cake.

 Livy is so proud to sit now.
This is while awaiting breakfast this morning. They both sit so pretty.

 

 The rainy morning was the perfect start to my new day.

"I know how to sit"

"look at me, sitting"

 We lost one of the apple trees. A bunny enjoyed the bark and killed it.

 Livy was distressed by the rain. She went and told Willy about it and he took her out to the yard. He is such a good dog.

 That is our big success achievement. A New Train Air Conditioner paid for in cash. We saved up and made the goal. The bill is lowered almost a fifth.
My place really missed me this year. Everywhere it is neglected. Three major surgeries on three different limbs, in a year and a half, will do it.

 All the critters are getting along well. They tend to hang in the chicken run. Livy runs after them a bit.

 I have been working here the last two weeks or so making things to give and to sell.

 I have also been doing a lot of couponing to makes ends meet better in the budget. Food bills are 35-75% covered in coupons and lead in adds for us. It is a part time job that pays very well.

 Today will be the final visit on my shoulders. The left was reattached in Aug '12 and the right arm in Feb. '13. The long haul of it gave me better results than the surgeon expected. God restores everything the locus eats. Even if the restoration is not easy. The sewing center is long neglected. I can just now sew some.

 I made a dress last month. Still have the hem to do. 

Infusion is this Saturday and perhaps I will hem it next week.

I decided to get off the pain and muscle medications for the fibro and study how to help myself holistically. After a good bit of knowledge this is now my morning start and the days end. I am doing better. Lost three pounds this week. The cortisol connection is huge for me with having P.T.S.D.. I wrote about it in the recovery blog.

Life is good here. My health is slowly improving. I felt well and energized enough to actually do a post today. This is an encouraging sign. Everyone is still asleep. We have an extra child almost every night.
School starts soon. Both children are registered. Dove in 9th grade will be doing online studies. Dash is in 7th grade he will be going to the local public Jr. High. They are both healthy.
Steve is wonderful. We are in the parenting trenches but very little war time. We are having Steve do cataract surgery soon. He really needs to have some relief but he is healthy and happy.
I am showing my work at a nail salon and keeping my nails done with acrylics so as to stop biting them. It is a good option for me. Keeps me healthy. My IVIG numbers are doing well and staying in the good range so well as to labs only need to be drawn every 3 months now.

I hope love comes in and overpowers you with kindness and peace.