love heals

i never cried for many many years literally never cried.
this love that is given me heals me
I am crying
they say that the gift of sorrow is healing
love heals
just a few moments ago my neighbor across the street rang the bell

earlier today the kids thought her dog got out. They went across the street while I watched them, she was in the back yard and came to the gate. the dog was secure inside and the children went back to the house to play.
She loves God like many of us do. I told her my sister just ...I told her I just said good bye
she did not understand me then she asked me when that did happen in her broken english
I told her just 30 minutes ago
she held me so tenderly she held me.I had to hold it together for the kids
She gently held so sweetly walked me all the way to the door opened the door said go in and rest.

it is late now 10 p.m.
she just rang the bell and when I opened it she gave me a chrysanthemum plant
I got my flower book out for I love the meaning of flowers as in Edwardian days.
Truth...it said the white chrysanthemum is truth...it is said how amazing such a small stem can hold such a large flower...

It is more than the stem that holds me up it is love.
thank you everyone for your healing loving kindness. it is healing me he is healing me in love and through love
thank you

Machine crash results

My machine was apparently crashing from the adobe flash player my husband installed the latest bata 10.1 and it seemed to fix the full screen hulu and the issue with the blog crashing when using life at my house. Still have to shake out if it solves the image download issue

Crying me a river tonight

1. Shall we gather at the river, 
 where bright angel feet have trod, 
 with its crystal tide forever 
 flowing by the throne of God? 
Refrain:
 Yes, we'll gather at the river, 
 the beautiful, the beautiful river; 
 gather with the saints at the river
 that flows by the throne of God. 

2. On the margin of the river, 
 washing up its silver spray, 
 we will walk and worship ever, 
 all the happy golden day. 
 (Refrain) 

3. Ere we reach the shining river, 
 lay we every burden down; 
 grace our spirits will deliver, 
 and provide a robe and crown. 
 (Refrain) 

4. Soon we'll reach the shining river, 
 soon our pilgrimage will cease;
 soon our happy hearts will quiver 
 with the melody of peace. 
 (Refrain) 

i just said good bye

my niece held it to her ear
i told her how grateful and privileged i felt to of walked this path with her. i thank her for coming forward so many years ago and  that she saved my life. I told her how i know it said that those who go on before stand at the right hand of God ever interceding for us and thanked her in advance for doing so.
i told her i loved her

she had been brought out of sedation and she could hear me but not speak
her daughter said she had to hang up and go to comfort her.

I am so sad and my eyes are pooling a river though the woods
she is going home within moments.

icu it is time to go home

Today my Sweet Sister Midge was put on a ventilator...she has a DNR order so my niece will be removing it after the grandsons see her and say goodbye. My niece is in the conference room at this very moment. She will be holding the phone to Midges ear so I can say goodbye to her. I know that she has peace.
I received the call while I was out.

On the drive home a saw a hawk...it was souring over a field. The song and lyrics came to me."humble yourself in the sight of the Lord and He will life you up, up unto heaven."

I sat there at a very long light until the hawk had made his way high up into the updrafts.

I drove farther and as I turned down my little short cut...a hawk flew straight toward me along the roadway and lighted on a pole above me, There was no traffic and I stopped in the middle of the road. Rolled down my window mot 12 feet below him. I said "hi beautiful" and he flew off into the trees.

She said goodbye, The sweet Spirit said it is as it should be. To let her go and to take inspiration from her friendship and her life.

my big sister will die today  to arise with Him up into Heaven.
Good bye Midge my friend I love you...
i am sad but peace has it's way with me. I grieve for the living that have not peace. For my niece she too has peace and I rejoice in that

All we have need of

Good Morning

So far so good....

Crashed a few times but this is working so far.

You know that monitor that Steve fixed well it works and in answer to our direct prayer of request he has a new monitor, well new to us.

The flat screen on the right replaced the old on on the left.

On the left is Dashes station, Steves old monitor  replaced the old on there.

It too was giving up its use. The two old ones were VERY old.

They served us very well.

We inherited them from his old plant before it shut down over 5 years ago.

They were old and well used then.

Well they lasted until now.

His dads the flat screen stopped working.

He replaced it with new and sent the bad one home with my sweetie.

Two capasitors latter a total of around $6 we have a new monitor and a grandfathered on for Dash.

Both needs met. Dash will use that one until it is dead.

Steve can not get the full use needed out of it but Dash will just use it for homework and games.

 Doves is to the left here in second image.

Look at all those finger prints!

This room is the man cave and the game center.

This way the kids are always attended when on computer and he has set up strict guide lines.

 

I'll try to see if this will make it to post

fire fox is crashing
Denise of life at my house, I can not post on your blog. Each time I visit you my machine crashes. You know how bad I would just love to be able to say hello...If you read this please let me know. Have you had any reports of this issue by any one else. It is possible it is an attachment or link. It may not have anything to do with your blog. It is just the only one it crashes on. That and hulu if I try to full screen.

Any how Susie somehow I am not to upset by it. I see so many many things that need to get done. If I had my druthers you know I could just rest here as apposed to a tv.

Everyone is fine here I have so many things I wish I could show you but the images of photos if downloaded cause a crash as well.
Machine is fussy.

Debra I think we are kindred...glad of it :)
lets see if it posts.

virus arg!

I may not be able to post for a while. my computer has been compromized. Steve is running a diognostic. We may have to do a complete re install

I spoke with Denise for a wonderful 45 minutes. Continue for her with prayer. It is a hard thing. Her life has turned upside down. Eddie sees the doc in the a.m. as well as his first therapy. Things have effected his personality. It is a VERY hard time.

Thanks for all the kindness.
I hope to get to be on here in the near future.
Well let you know when we learn the sorse
love ya all!
Donetta

thank you

your comments of kindness are a sweet comfort.
There is a time for everything under the sun
a time to rejoyce and a time for sorrow
a time for comfort
I have a dentist apt to get my crown put on at 8:30 The kids to school and all.
very very pained in my breast from the proceedure boy I need strength for the morrow.
Love is a powerful force
you love heals me
:)
I will sleep soon
I appreciate all your sweet words of life...the tongue life or death...life a gift of words

News on my Big Sister

Sad news to tell. As I sit here with a pillow supporting my chest and my arms. My niece and her sons must be stunned. Just a year or so ago my brother in law passed. My sister will be transferred to a full care facility. Her apartment will not be returned to it looks like. My sister here and I spoke of going up to Washington perhaps at months end or at least in the late spring.

My big sister wants so badly to be with the love of her life. They were married almost 50 years. I am not sure how hard she will fight. They have diagnosed her with Pulmonary fibrosis it is a serious disease that causes progressive scarring of your lung tissue.My niece was told at most two years. I know that God is God but he is a respecter of our will. We are creatures of free choice.

I will need wisdom as to whether or not fly up sooner or later. It is bad weather up there and it would take a drive over the pass. It is wisdom perhaps to wait until the spring. The pass is nothing to take lightly. It is a long drive up to the plateau. My sister is only 66 yrs old.

She has a life of love, loss and a wonderful daughter and SIL thriving with five sons. She also had a special needs son who lost his life due to a drunk driver many years ago.

My niece would be the last of that line or at least become the elder. Her dads people have passed.

Please remember her and her family in prayer.

My heart will temper to the letting go of such a wonderful friend.

She was the one who came forward to confirm my memories. She had the courage to face the recovery of those things. My mom acknowledged her somewhat before she passed. It was a gift to both of us.

I think of the scripture passage of ...

Those that go one before us standing at the right hand of God ever interceding for us.

I wish her her hears desire. If it be to fight I am her strong supporter, if it is to go home...I let her go.

She is a wonderful sister and friend.

I am sad. 

She is suffering to breath. 

I wish comfort for her and peace.

A gift from Michelle over at Beautiful chaos

She wrote...

Donetta is one of those friends i have in real life. i met her in 2001 when we were starting the process of adopting our daughter. she was very helpful with the little details. over the years, we've become good friends. we try to encourage each other often. when she started her blog, i had no idea it would touch so many people. i don't think she did either. she blogs about life, gardening, recovery, mothering, cooking, sewing, and beading, among other things.

Michelle,

Thank you , you true heart.

Go take a visit and enjoy her creative writing.

All benign

LADIES GET YOUR MAMMOGRAMS!


Hello dear folks
I had the mammo and ultra sound done, they did do the aspirations. 10cc on the left and 5cc on the right. Real tired and sore. Rejoice with me it will all be well within a few days time. I did not bleed or bruise.ya!
Oh explanation I have fiber cystic breasts.
NO CANCER!!!

I'm back

The schedule of the last two weeks is as follows...

 Every day full to it's top!

Life is so full!

12/18 9:30 yearly apt got forms to do mammo and ultra sound. I have to have aspirations on both sides.

 Then the remainder run at the elementary (I arrived within 5 minutes of the start)

 

12/19 Sisters surprise birthday party

 

12/20 Ladies High Tea here

12-21 Sisters birthday took her and two nieces to lunch and had a 3 p.m appointment

 

12-22  8:a.m. apt for Dove at the pediatric phyc. 2 hours, took her to lunch

 

12-239:20 a.m. appointment for the allergist for Dash and he had the scratch testing,

 

 

then met friends spontaneously for a movie right after at the mall.

I finished the glass candy and we all went out to the neighbors and passed out the gifts

Then we all walked down the way to the Christmas display...

 

 

12-24 family day

 

 

 

They were VERY happy about the Wii

 

The family played so much the arms hurt and the game was a blast.

 

12-25 had presents in the a.m. with the kids, served formal lunch to 7 here, had time with my BIL and really enjoyed the garden time with him. We all played the Wii and then left for my sisters. Had Christmas night there. Came home late and full of Christmas cheer. With some exception having to do with the well being of a great nephew.

 

Well clean up

 

12/26 guys and kids hike I think that day, I went shopping and just had me time.

12-27 We tried our new church for the first time. We went out to lunch too I think or to dinner?

12-28 9:45 appointment neuro, Went shopping and got myself a new dress

Thought I had 1p.m. appointment PH.D. found I did not , and a 3p.m. appointment with the phyc and a medication eval. with terrific good news. Left here at 9:20 got home at 5:30.

12-29 9:10 ENT and the news that I qualify for a hearing aid on the right side. I have to redo a nerve test for my right side to see if it is still valid the last was done in 2005.

 

12/30 Painted Doves room for 12 hours

12/31 My friend and I  took Dove to the mall with her best friend.

 

 

1/1 morning home time, then the kids to a friends. We had a 3 hour date. We hiked in the desert. I was able to hike a mile and a half. I sat in the sun and felt restored

That night movie night with the kids. Pain pills :)

 

 

Remember the old 1957 phaff

At the meeting I was given these parts many fit some so not.

Those are steel bobbins!

That is a walking foot a good $90. part!

 

1/2 Attended the American Sewing Guild meeting at 10 a.m. with Dove and my sister. Took my sister home and bid my niece and baby fairwell.

 

Took Dove over to our friends and the girls played while I did fung shui on her home and helped her clean and decorate it.

cleaned up this morning a bit then...

Look at Dove in my shoes!

1/3 Went to church, Steve is rebuilding a monitor that his dad sent this way it died on him and if we can fix it...well then my darling has a monitor that We prayed for ...what ya say can you see it working already:) 

toes kept warm

 

I received a very nice devotional from Angie

can you se the humor?

 

Set the pot on the stove for the pasta and then went out to the garden for a salad

 

 

 

So now as my busy little children are out side washing my truck

Gotta go check on them

Love ya all!

hi

sorry folks every moment is taken.
the kids are back in school Monday
I might just get a few moments in the evening. Wow full days

Good News On My Sister

NO CANCER IN THE LYMPH NODES

Surgery was late into the night.

We are awaiting the results on the lung biopsy 72 hours

Thank you for all your sweet prayers for her.