Thankful Thursday * the gift of protection

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Miss Golden Eyes my little Dove came home happy.

She played with the camera as you can see.

Too Cute!

She had a good day, not thrilled that she had to talk with the principle but satisfied so far with the outcome.

The bully absent of course the easiest way to try get away with it.

Read more about it here

After a nice relaxing hour I started in on the Living Room

Almost finished the tree, my knee is hindering me from being on the ladder.

I will try to get some help with the top part of the tree from Steve later.

Several ornaments the kids put on could use a little fixing but that is done little by little to protect their creative heart.

If I tinker with what they did it would not be a good example of acceptance.

Yesterday the bows and ribbons on the packages were completed.

Today I was able to get the lights on the lower part of the tree.

 

 This year I was able to find new clothing the children needed at a greatly reduced cost.

Many of the packages are just that.

I just put one item in each box to make more packages to open.

We also got new bedding for them.

Few toys at all just one major gift for them to share.

TBA later

 

 The cresch set up on the center now.

Using batting I had the snow capped mantle of sorts was created to give a more holiday feel.

It was such a day of joy for me to have stood for my children at the school.

To see all the bounty of Christmas we have been able to come up with for them blesses my soul.

The gifts under the tree were things that they needed.

It is my hope that by receiving them in this way that gratitude will be instilled within their hearts.

Many Children just take for granted having nice clothing or linens.

They will not be left disappointed, the big gift they will share will bring the family together.

Well now that the living room is so beautiful, the kitchen and hall is a mess!

like a big balloon getting squeezed

Ha!

Bully my kid I DON"T THINK SO

Yesterday

A child under the umbrella of the group headed up by Doves nemesis approached Dove as if to loving hug her. Dove was startled receiving the embrace then felt (said child) "A".  rub her hand on her back.

As "A".did this the other two girls stood by and when the action had taken place laughed at Dove amongst them selves.

Dove then asked a child standing by if  "A"  had whiped something on her.

The child then exclaimed that she had wiped snot all over the back of Dove's shirt.

This reported to me

I will be keeping written records of any future action and supply a copy to the school as well.

I spent two hours with the principle this morning 45 minutes of it with Dove in there we were empowering her to feel safe to stand up for herself and to get help.

It was awesome.

I gave written notice on the event and a copy of the AZ state laws on bullying.

I think we shall have some action and I think that my girl will make a change in the way she responds.

She will become a STRONG woman, just like her Mother.

I discussed with great character and poise my position and the next steps I will be taking in the event this is not addressed.

Gentle as a Dove but strong within the Lion

Joshua fought the battle of Jericho and the wall come a tumbling down

I found this site Stop Bullying NOW
very helpful as I was struggling with the anger of the Momma bear in the wee hours of the night. I circled those walls until I was able to just blow that horn and watch God knock em down!

A touching morning

I was talking to Dash earlier in the morning. He shared that his friend had so many presents that it took his parents four hours to tell him all of the different sizes...I told him that the boy is very fortunate.
We were later sitting at the table eating breakfast...speaking of water I told him how fortunate we are that many places on the earth they do not have water that comes out of the tap clean. That it is the kids job in the morning to go and fetch the water often walking great distance. I told him that once daddy and I shared our money to help drill a well for a community.
He asked me if he was born in Moscow. I told him no, Penza Russia. He asked me for a jar.
He got paper and tape.
" Mom I want to fill this jar and send it to the orphanage that I came from. We have enough stuff."
You just know we made that jar. I sent him into my room to get my change dish. He asked if he could have a dollar of my change. I gave him the dollar and he was putting it in the jar. I was putting all of the rest of it in the jar..."Oh mom it's alright that is enough you do not have to give all of it." I told him I wanted to. I told him I will contact the folks that helped us adopt him to find a way to get the money to the orphanage. I told him I would take him to the neighbors to ask if they might like to contribute.

 Later...

While signing Doves homework binder I read the paper she wrote on MLK I have a Dream.

This was the topic of her paper...I have a dream, it is a three part dream. 1. to build places for old folks to live where it will be nice 2. To talk to Obama and tell him to stop making our taxes bigger cause it is hurting people, I know cause it is hurting me. 3. to make it where no kids ever have to be hungry.
That is what she wrote...

The Gift to be Simple

Today I practiced some new things in my morning schedule, that daily thing we do from when we open our eyes.

Sometimes I just forget who I am.

Do you ever feel that way?

I was refreshed today as this wonderfully awkward process is chugging along.

I have learned so many liberating things that have continued to build my character and stance in Becoming.

I think some misunderstanding and even perhaps a bit of religious judgments made. Well I am right where I am supposed to be. Healing those very deep lies that few practice the courage to heal. Makes it sound so dark and gloomy but ya all tell me that you don't hide some wounds that have an impact on who your heart tells you you really are.

The garden is all tucked away for the night.

A wonderful supper of Spanish rice with home grown zucchini diced fine and left a bit crunchy added in.

Some basil also. That is cut back for the frost bit it hard. I had to hang all of the cloth on line to dry.

We lost the rain water for a pipe came apart in the system, I think it was just and oversight on Steve's part.

I have had an absolutely lovely day.

That tending me first in the morning really set the stage for a progressive morning of parenting.

We had extra time to even do a bit of the Esteem Booster questions on security.

The kids opened up and shared their minds a bit.

LOVED IT!

So many accomplishments around here inside and out.

The master bedroom with all clean linens.

Pictures hung more to my liking and candles at the tub.

You know that called for a hot bath this evening.

ME>>>taking time to just take a slow bath?

Mercy! this could really catch on

:)

Today as I was ...I danced

I am going to do my best to explain the things I am learning and just hope that folk don't misunderstand and think I am far from God.

Oh No we are just walking this thing out together.

Gods ways are higher than ours.

I have lived with some pretty non scriptural religious ideas of what I should be like or able to do.

Lord knows I did my very best to follow those ideas to the letter, trying to be a good believer.

Those Pharisee things that just don't much lift a finger to help really.

They become more of a thumb pressing down to keep you in check all the while that heart of yours is saying I'm a faking it tell I make it...I must be doing something wrong is the lie.

NO maybe ya just need some practical help to understand what stops your ability to do so.

It is my hope that the honesty and transparency will remove stigmas and assumptions from the "church" community as to what it might look like to become.

It is not by pure belief

WE HAVE TO WORK IT OUT FOLKS

Now if your working it out and ya think that folks...

other believers, might think your faith weak or less than do not let that stop you.

There are so many who lift that finger and add the hand reaching out to lift ya up.

You who do not know Christ

know this His love is not like those rulers who set lots of rules on folks and then sit back and condemn them when they do not think or pray or believe themselves out of their chains.

Loving Christians truly do add a heart not only full of prayer but also practical solutions that just perhaps nobody ever bothered to tell ya.

You speak up ask and if there is any shame placed on ya for doing so Dear Hearts just you shake it off.

His peace is within the storm.

This life is a storm that only He can calm the waters of.

When your strength gains up and the next gale blows know you did not cause it, there is a battle going on.

It has been against you from your first breadth, satan-evil-darkness- the war began a long time before the beginning of time as we know it.

God wins, that's the good news the hard news is that you been on one side or the other.

Those folks who raised you were one one side or the other.

Even when on Gods side the trickster can so easily circumvent lives by simply twisting truth, lying so folk don't even know whats right from wrong.

So many casualties of childhood walking around in grown bodies just really trying to make folks proud.

Can't even find a safe place to risk being humble.

Left not even knowing who they were intended to be.

Feeling like you just really never belonged anywhere.

Stumbling at every misson you set your heart too because your wounds sabatage your efforts.

Leaving you feeling incompitent at life.

That is the intent, the mortal wound.

Hope this is always a safe place to be...

Hope that you can be yourself, unashamed, unabashed, true heart even if wrong willing to turn round right and come on down to where ya ought to be.

I am becoming free from battle scares of my childhood.

That does not make me a victim, a weak unbelieving Christian but a warrior for Christ.

tis' a gift to be simple tis' a gift to be free

tis' a gift to climb down where we ought to be

and when we find ourselves in the place just right

twill be in the valley of love and delight

ya know...?

Good Morning

good morning I have posted over at A Life Restored this morning and am off to tend the garden and the chickens Hope you all have a good day

Sweet Sunday

Hello Dear ones

Did you have a good weekend?

Today was both a wonderful day and a tough day.

Upon awaking I spend several hours on the floor in the bathroom.

This happens sometimes when allergies hit hard.

My belly swelled up so that I looked pregnant.

Too much wheat and the latex thing weekend me too.

After sleeping a while on the floor a shower and a tearful prayer refreshed me.

I had to get up

for there was a birthday party Dash was invited too and I was going to take Dove with me and pay for her entry. Inch by inch with coaching from Steve too I made it.

This was a big deal to everyone and I was iffy if I could do it.

I listened for the coach in my ear to press on and on.

The children were so happy to go for it was at a very wonderful place called Amazing Jakes.

Oh they have everything! Rides an open extensive buffet, games go carts, bumper cars.

Only Dash tried rock wall, there is also black light paint ball, goofy gulf, carousel and the list could just go on and on.

It is a very expensive place to go. With Dash being a paid for guest it was right and doable to take Dove.

It was $9.99 for just the open buffet and $18. for buffet and all the rides you can for three hours it also included $5. on the card for the token games..

They had a ball. Dove got to drive little brother in the go carts.  It was wonderful, Dove did a pass in a driver maneuver passed a teenager! I wish you all could of seen it.

I was able to relax and let the children do the buddy system.

This is a bit new for me so I am relaxing and letting them have space.

A sweet lady did a post about a fearful mothers effect on her blog and the issue with the kids at the school pointed out that I must pull back more to let them develop more of a sense of safety and self.

I am doing it. That was the tearful prayer.

I see all these parents who do not even check up on them and so a balance,

they need to have a touch stone. I will never tend to ignore them but I was not panicked the whole time either.

We made it home at 4:30 I went straight in and got some soft clothing on and went to bed and slept up until 7p.m.

I am a wrung sponge made able to get through the day with pleasure in motherhood.

It was a wonderful day.

That latex thing really set me up.

Man I need to chill for a few day.

My deep thoughts lately have been a real treasure in the progress of becoming.

They are very humbling and tender.

So if I seem distant in my blog it is that tenderness guarded until my feet are firm in what I am learning.

Above all standing firm in the faith, in His Love.

Steve was able to get a quiet four hours of work done for the job that cam in last week.

He actually had the house alone.

I would appreciate any kindness of prayer for I am not feeling too well yet and it really was a lot to ask of my body. I did not give up though.

A good day

Good Evening!

So here I finally sit to say hello.

This last few hours spent creating a necklace for myself out of an old center finding my mother gave to me many many years ago. Tonight I took the time just for me to assemble something for it.

 While I was beading my cold toes were gifted a heater by sweet husband.

Well today was a full day.

Doves BFF and her mother came for the day.

It was so wonderful to see Dove so very happy.

I really enjoyed the relaxed company of her mother.

She has become a close friend.

We took a garden tour to take off the blankets in the warm of the day.

Look at those tomato!

 

 But alas by the end of day all was covered over again.

 

 Last nights freeze hit the basil the worst and got the cap of the blue lake green beans and a few of the leaves on the contender beans.

 

 I have had these long yardages for a long time even thought to discard them so glad I kept them they are just perfect to save the garden

 

Our golden loves oranges...she was so happy to get to play with the kids

 

 as was the chocolate

 

 bff

best friends for life

dove is 12 the other is 10

 

Oh how the kids played and had a wonderful time.

Her mom made a video of the brawl.

It was a lot of fun.

well off to visit all of you.

I know I am not real talky right now. I have a lot of deep thoughts steering and so I let the pot simmer as it were.

Please remember my sister in law

Her father was found dead on the floor by her younger adult sister this day.

It is a hard thing to be sure.

Thank you for your Kindness.

I will share these deep thoughts when they are better flushed out of what I choose to believe of them.

We have not because we ask not...(sometimes we ask amiss)

This time it was given so sweetly!

So here is an answer to build up my sweet man. He sometime ago rebuilt this computer I am on and it is more than twice as fast as his. Now he is the one who makes a living on His machine but as he is he always wants to give me the best and this was the slowest machine in the house before its rebuild.

My husband "grandfathers" the machines in the house. He is always giving his computer talents to others who are in crisis and yet he runs a dinosaur.

So having four house computers is because he salvages the old parts and we are often given the old parts of those who he helps.

He has longed to improve Dash's  computer because it is the real cripple of a computer that can take several seconds per image. He researched getting a new video card but the unit in so old that it is hard to get parts.

After a lot of research it was concluded that it would really be best to upgrade the parts in his machine (in the future we can get more memory and it could be added as finance allows)

I told Steve to list and research and price out the parts shopping as if...So he learned what he needed to fix his own computer and then pass his parts over to Dash.

Totals and items identified we then prayed.

The next day a man gave him an expensive part, another man at work sold him a part at a real low cost.

That evening a call came in and the fellow that he does part time work for needs some things done (income).

We do not spend income we have not received. Last night we felt impressed to go ahead before the parts are no longer available do to supply and demand. He ordered the parts. We had hopes for a Christmas bonus but expected nothing.

He came home yesterday and had been given his written review with the highest of complements the review was awesome.

Today...he got a bonus only $80. short of the parts order he made last night.

He has excitement in his belly and it is a real joy to see. With the discipline we have been under we have let go of those extra wants. This becoming a need was really important for with the Christmas break he will have several days he is forced to take off.

Time to rebuild the machines and to do the part time work being supplied us.